Digestive Diary

Over the weekend I started to feel for the first time like I’m getting my appetite back, and my taste too. Every time I have a bout of this it kind of affects... not my taste, but my perception of taste? So thing I’ve always liked suddenly taste bad to me and things I don’t usually like sometimes taste better. Well, on Saturday I woke up with a rumbling belly and Lucy teased me about sounding like a monster all night! I thought I should hurry up and get breakfast so we had weetabix but for the first time since I got sick i wasn’t satisfied with the two of them and I ended up having another couple. It didn’;t quench my appetite for long though and barely an hour later my stomach started rumbling, actually rumbling with hunger! Weetabix claims it’s supposed to fill you up for longer, why does that seem to go in reverse for me?? 😅

so I ended up eating an early lunch of thick slices (and crusts) or bread with chunks of cheese followed by a lot of coke which I followed up with chocolate and milk. I was finally satisfied for a little while but on,y a couple of hours later I felt hunger pangs starting to creep in and sure enough soon I was making a variety of suspicious noises from my gut. Lucy told me to eat again and I felt pretty damn embarrassed about that so I slunk out to grab a pizza from the freezer and heated up, followed by more coke and chocolate with milk. By now I had eaten way more in a day than I have for a few weeks (thank you for your patience during this time, by the way, I really appreciate that) and my whole digestive system was feeling highly burdened. The skin on my stomach felt stretched and I felt so heavy and round, ohhhh I have missed that feeling so much!

with so much food and all that fizz sloshing about inside of me I was letting out a pretty constant stream of burps, some of them really deep and guttural while others seemed to fly out at high speed like the pressure was just too much to take! I had a few single hiccups as my stomach attempted to digest everything I‘d eaten and I could feel constant churning going on inside of me, but a couple of hours later I was rumbling away again and with a shamed face I had to go and cook another pizza to shut my gut up!!! And of course I had to follow that up with a couple more bars of chocolate, milk and a lot of coke because the pizza left me thirsty! With a huge, bulging tummy I cuddled up into Luce’s back, feeling my gut curve out into the curve of her back, and passed out for about three hours! When I came round my stomach was gurgling ominously and I had a huge build up of wind in my bum which escaped the mom I tried to move! Uh oh......

so I worked out I consumed about 5,200 calories all told on Saturday which was several times more than i’ve managed to eat for weeks! No wonder I felt so heavy....

on Sunday morning I awoke with urgent cramps shooting through my bowels and felt full of gas. I groaned and clenched my stomach muscles tigether as hard as I could and forced out a really loud, violent stream of farts much too my humiliation! I squirmed with a red face as Lucy pointed out the terrible noises I was making and I scrambled to the toilet. Apparently all that food and fibre from the weetabix hurried their way through my system. Oh my god, my poor stomach, it gurgled and churned the entire time but afterwards I felt so empty I had to have a double breakfast again!

I had a bit of a stress day yesterday so I didn‘t get to eat again until late afternoon when I stuffed myself with bacon sandwiches and drank a hell of a lot of coke to counteract the thirst. I was belching non stop for about ten minutes after that and finally passed out into a food coma about half an hour later. So I didn;t do as well as the day before but I definitely feel like I’ve gained a couple of pounds back, thank god! I feel very round and squishy and I cannot wait to start growing this gut again as my appetite continues to improve! 😁