[ANIMATION] JKA

I have returned, like some kind of Biblical plague. I was foretold. Sorry I disappeared again. I've said this before, but a while back, a friend commented on my art, saying, "I dunno what it is, but there's a spark your oldest stuff has that your newest stuff just doesn't have." And, just recently, a different friend looked through all of my work (which was embarrassing) and said the same thing. He was even able to point out specific ones and say "I can tell you liked drawing this one, and I can tell you didn't care at all about this one." He was even able to point out specific characters in a piece that I had fun with, where I didn't have fun with the other characters in the same piece.

That all got me thinking so much. I don't want to just do this. I could force myself to make these, and The Good Lord knows I have forced my way through a bunch of these. But, goddamn, people can tell when I do that. It sucks for me, and it sucks for you all. I want to one day sit atop my throne as the greatest smut animator in the world, and I want to use all of my obscene amounts of wealth to commission all the big artists to draw me fucking their moms. And I can't realize that dream if I'm periodically making mediocre work.

So, I've been telling myself, "Do it right, or don't do it at all." I have a ton of dogshit habits when it comes to this. Longtime Patrons, if any of you have kept around, should be familiar with the fact that I'm, uh, kind of a mess. Who would've imagined that? The smut art man who pretends to be a goblin on the internet is kind of deranged. But, I'm trying to overcome a lot of the bad habits that I feel impacts the feeling of the piece, or in art terms, the gestalt of it. Back in October, I did that Lenora one, and I feel like that had some spark to it, and I want to be making more like that. On the opposite end of the spectrum, you've got the Lofi one and the Nani one I last did. Both of those felt the same to make, and by the end, it felt like... stirring concrete or something. It just sucked. And like, visually, I think they're great. My skills are improving. But that has no influence over the core of it, that spark. Both of those were motivated by fear, this feeling of "Oh god, I'm such a lazy worm of a human, I need to make something, post anything," and that's no way to start a project. My most successful projects have been those impulsive ones, where all I'm motivated by is "Hey, that's a cool idea." I don't know how well the Lenora one has done, I didn't check. But, I know that first Loona one was super popular, that was crazy impulsive. I dropped whatever project I had been working on halfway through, banged the Loona one out, and I eventually saw a Reddit post of it with someone wanting to roleplay the scenario. Hey, that's kinda cool. Sign me up. My role will be the guy who draws it. Another one is that Garfield fucking Nicole one. I thought it was funny, and I posted it on April 1st (my birthday, too) and it ended up doing well enough to get me invited onto a merchandising website. Thanks, Garfield. I still see that Samus one I did in the beginning on Pinterest, which sucks, because I hate how it looks. And who could forget Frankie, the reason why I have a job in the first place. That was also impulsive, in the very beginning.

That's what I'm doing. Forcing myself to not think of this as a job. To totally block any kind of stress. I want this to be fun, and that makes for better projects. It's a win-win for the both of us. That's why I've pulled back, and have isolated myself. I'm sorry, I'm not ignoring you all. A lot of you DM me, and I've had conversations with you in the past. But... I feel like, I gotta figure this out on my own. I'll go back to being conversational after I get this worked out. You all deserve good art from me, not mediocre lifeless stuff. I need to sort my shit out, already.

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There's that novella out of the way. Here's Jucika (Pronounced Yuht-zika) who I've drawn before. Why Jucika? Because I've drawn her before, and she's super simple. I'm properly learning light and shadow, now, and in the meantime of getting that figured out, I'll draw characters devoid of color. Plus, she's pretty fun to draw. I want to do more lewd stuff, instead of full on explicit. Maybe the explicit stuff is more fun for the viewer, but I'm kinda worn out on doing it all the time. My love of penis is dwindling. So, I'd like to do some more simple stuff like this.

I'm super, super happy with the motion of this. It looks super natural to me, and like she has some actual weight to her. How did I achieve that, you ask? Why, it was simple. I've said this before, and you all laughed at me. But for a lot of these animations, I act out the pose and the motion. For Lenora, I even filmed myself swinging out of my door and dropping a bowl. Yes, for this one, I made this pose over and over in front of the mirror, feeling that slight bounce in my hips and my knees slightly buckling. Granted, I don't have big bouncing boobs to reference, so I had to ask my mom to help me with that. However, the bounce and the coat opening, I was able to do myself.

 It was disturbingly close to Buffalo Bill from Silence of the Lambs. Like, 95% accurate. A quick aside about Buffalo Bill, I was using my own body as reference for a totally different project, and I started doing a Buffalo Bill impersonation. I said "Would you fuck me? I'd fuck me." in his voice, and laughed at my own joke so much that I dropped my stylus on the floor. It hit straight down on the tip, and fucked up the sensitivity. That's true, by the way, it's not one of my weird jokes even though it sounds exactly like one. Another aside about Buffalo Bill, my brother's impersonation of him is spot-on. He says "Oh, wait... was she a great big fat person?" all the time. I dunno what it is about my bloodline and Buffalo Bill. I told my brother how I ruined by stylus and he told me I deserved it.

Uh, anyways. Back to Jucika. I want you all to know that I made that pose. I want you all to know that as you look at this one. I really like the result. And if you charm the snake to this one, it's almost like you're charming the snake to me. A friend, the same friend who wishes to remain anonymous, helped me getting it look like proper paper. I really like the effect it gives. I also tried to have the green of the coat offset, to look like a printing error. I dunno if that looks good enough, however.

On the last Jucika thing I did, that little comic strip, I believe I commented on Jucika and her creator, Pál Pusztai. She's fun to draw, and is fairly popular, but man does she weird me out. She's like, the Original OC with an obsessive creator. You've seen those guys online, where they're just... a little too into their own character.

I mean...

 Like... Okay, it's fine to be into your own work. But, according to Jucika lore, the guy's wife was so jealous of the newspaper cartoon girl that she threw a ton of drawings of her into a fire after the guy died. Which, you might be able to write it off and say "Oh, she's crazy, she was jealous of a drawing." But... this guy's behavior towards Jucika had to have been bad enough to make her jealous in the fucking first place. What the shit was he doing? Saying something like "Jucika wouldn't behave this way," during arguments? Setting a place for her at the dinner table? Look at him cradling the cutout off her!

 I dunno. Maybe I'm reading too into it, thinking too much about it. It's just one of those things I get a weird feeling from. But it's like, imagine me being too into my OCs. I can see it now:

 (Pictured: Kyde Animation with a drawing of his OC, Kym)

Kyde Animation (September 11, 2001 - June 9, 2032) was an American animator. Kyde was best remembered for his character, Kym, who he loved so much that he drew her a whopping four whole times. According to legend, he was so infatuated with her that a large oil painting of her was commissioned, which he was seen speaking to it from time to time. Kyde's second boywife, who hadn't yet earned his name, was so jealous of Kym, that the oil painting was burned, and various shrines to Kym around the castle were destroyed. When Kyde discovered this transgression, he wailed so loudly, and for so long, that the villagers in the hamlet below his castle thought the endtimes were upon them. For his crimes, Kyde had the boywife imprisoned in the labyrinth below, where he was eventually found and taken by the Creature. Kyde would go onto saying "Yeah man, I'll draw Kym again eventually" for the rest of his days, until his untimely death when he was run over by a car.

By the way, that picture of her is from an in-progress animation. I'll.... draw it again eventually.

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Anyways, that's all the goofs I have for this one. That's another thing I want to do, make these posts horribly long again and crack more jokes. I dunno if y'all like them, but it sure makes me laugh. Maybe I'll do more Jucika. She is fun, even if I mock the creator.

(Pictured: Pál Pusztai down in Hell, watching me blast ropes to his silly little waifu)