Do you want more polls?

I dunno, maybe it's baby blues, (My 2nd daughter is 2 months old now) but I'm not feeling great overall.

This project has been in development for over two and half years now and has been my only "hobby" really.  I was hoping that with this last pubilc build the project might finally "find an audience."  

I was all but begging folks privately to send feedback. There was some good stuff too. A lot of criticism, but nothing was mean. A lot of requests went ignored.

Now there are less Patrons here than before. I see lots of other projects, that seem to me comparable, over the $1k mark. While I'd love to quit my job and work on this full time, I've never held that as a realistic expectation. It's never really been about the money.

Really what I've been looking for is the engagement.  Maybe some friends?  If I show you that I can make a fun game, will you like me?  Clearly I'm doing something wrong.  A few likes on the weekly updates is awesome. It's helped keep me going this long. But I'm having trouble getting over this self-doubt anymore.

What if most of the patrons I have now just mis-clicked or something and haven't looked at their bank statements? They haven't engaged with any posts.  Maybe I've been wasting my time here, and am too dense and stubborn to have noticed until now?  Am I just running in fucking circles here trying to fix performance issues and the character creator hair again?!  Is any of this worth spending all my "free" time here, in lieu of perhaps more social hobbies?

I'm a generally quiet and reserved person, because I probably care too much about what you think.  Maybe I'm just a pretensious asshole.  Either-way, this is where I'm at. 

Since I'm too thick to figure it out, despite days and weeks of research, what would you like to see more of that would entice your engagement?  

Do you want more polls?