Ch ch ch ch ch changes…….

Today started with no lots of changes. Big ones!

I woke to a deep sadness that Jeremy was heading back to Puerto Rico for a week, to check on storm damage, the animals, the house and our little community. He will return soon but I’m a bit of a cry baby these days.

Im still unable to do much for myself since I can not bend, lift more than 3. Lbs and I get exhausted so easily still so, I cried a lot when he left. He truly has been my rock through this. Fortunately my kids came over today to help out. Memphis and Oliver are staying the night with Lua and Picolina for the next week. It’s so relaxing to have the dogs around.💕 currently Memphis and I are laying in bed, eating chipotle and watching Below Deck. Miles and amy just left. They took the early shift. I love spending time with my kids. I love to just hear them talk and work out life problems and laugh at the ridiculousness of it all.

Also, I ate way too much candy today. I’ve been trying to eliminate sugar as much as possible but that leftover Halloween candy was far too tempting for me today.

Im hopeful that my dreams will stay calm and look forward to having physical less pain tomorrow. Today took it out of me. I’m noticing that each day brings new challenges emotionally and physically. I push a bit to hard and find out that I’m not in ultimate control of how my body processes this surgery. Hysterectomies are complex and no two feel just alike but I’m trying to embrace the experience in a positive light but today it’s been difficult to stay positive. I’m thankful to have the support system I do.

Im going to try to rest as much as possible tonight.

As much as these new changes that are happening within my health and my world in general are shaking me to the core a little bit, they’re making me grow. And making me stronger and more able to adapt to this ever-changing world. I’m terrified of some of these changes but at the same time thankful for much that surrounds these changes. Change allows for growth, growth allows for progress.

I saw, in the paper that so many of you have been sending your prayers and it really touched my heart. Through much of this I’ve felt loneliness and every once in a while Jeremy reminds me how much love is being poured in my direction and it immediately makes me feel better. So thank you for sending your energy in my direction. I do feel it! It does warm my heart. Know that I’m sending love right back to you.💗