What’s going on

Hi everyone,

As most of you know by now my wonderful husband Doughtub/Lardfill has passed away. He recently had surgery and suffered a clot complication. He was my everything and I miss him terribly. He was a kind and caring person who always tried to help those struggling with their identity. The number of people who have been touched or guided by him is astounding. His stories, artwork, blogs, pics and videos influenced so many gainers and encouragers just starting on their journey to self realization. I know… I was one of them. He lived life so sure of who he was and what he wanted… he was simply inspirational.

The support from the online community has been overwhelming and I am very grateful. You are all just amazing! Many of you also want to know what is going to happen with this page and the Onlyfans platform that contains our nsfw content. I have given it a lot of thought for the last few weeks and although I am conflicted I think I have come to a decision.

Thanks to all of you this page has been a great success and after launching out OF our platforms became profitable enough to support us. I could concentrate on finishing the renovations on our farmhouse and Doughtub could write full time. Those were some happy months that I am so thankful for.

But things change. We had discussed what would happen to our content in the event of one of us passing but because if our age difference it was generally in the context of my death. Neither of us wanted to deny the other the means for surviving financially and wanted the content to remain. A further argument I made to keep this content up was the sheer number of people he positively influenced with it. He was always humble about that point but did acknowledge it.

I intend to keep this page going although it will have a slightly different spin. I will be blogging a bit but it will have an encourager/feeder slant. I will also be posting more sfw pics of myself and some encouraging/motivational clips 😈😊. I am also going to take up story writing again. I wrote gainer stories in my youth but haven’t since meeting Lardfill. Beyond my own imagination he also left over 300 story lines and plots for new stories. Even character names and descriptions! There is so much inspiration in his notebooks it’s almost overwhelming. Although the far end of his kink pool was deeper and darker than mine I am looking forward to collaborating with his ideas and writing again. I also like drawing fat guys so you never know what you might see here :)

It’s going to be a little different and if there is anything you would like to see please let me know. This page is still going to be a shining example of how to embrace your identity and live your best life. That’s how I can best honour him. I hope you will enjoy the journey with me.

Thank you all!