Important - Taking an extended break

tl;dr = Extremely stressed/unmotivated, need to take an extended break to fix dumb brain, current Patreon rewards will be completed (September), future rewards will be on-hold (October+)
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Hey folks. I can't tell you how much I hate going back and forth with plans (especially since I just announced tier changes less than a week ago), but I've got a lot of stuff going on in my head that's holding me back in every aspect of my life and I honestly need to stop and figure out how to work through it all.

My break during August was nice, I didn't have to worry about what I had to make or what the quality was like, I just drew a few pics here and there and that was that. Going back to the vote system for September seemed fun at first because I felt refreshed, I was even pretty excited about some of the characters. But, when it came time to draw, I felt the familiar pressure of obligation straining my creativity.

"What kind of pose should I do? How do I work in all the expansion bits? What should the theme of the expansion be? Do I continue making one-pose edits like past pics or do I try something more challenging? Oh, an entire week is already gone and that throws off the rest of my schedule...etc."

In a way, I feel like such a failure to say I can no longer do the thing I've been doing for how many months/years now, but at the same time, I really just can't keep up with it because of my continued, poor mental state. At the ripe old age of 27, I'm too worn out to keep clenching my teeth and trudging forward with hope that things will magically improve. I need to put some serious work into myself.

I really feel terrible for pulling you all around like this, especially to any of you who've signed up for rewards that you never got to see/participate in. Regardless of how understanding you may be, it's incredibly unprofessional of me and I sincerely apologize.

If there's one thing you can rely on me for though, it's that I always fulfill my rewards, even if they take a little longer than expected. I'll still finish this month's Kuroeda picture and I'll still throw in a few sketches of the other ladies from the September poll. That's what you're paying for, so you're gonna get it.

After that? Well, I'm going to take an extended break. It might be a month, it might be longer, I'm not sure. All I know is that, right now, I have very little ambition and it's having a very negative impact on my art and my mood. Like August, I'll still probably work on some personal projects during this time if/when inspiration does hit, but all Patreon rewards will be on-hold until further notice. It's likely that my rewards will get an actual overhaul when I feel the time is right.

Again, I'm sorry for how ridiculous all of this is. You support me for fun, kinky shit and I struggle to deliver. If any of you decide to delete your pledges, then I fully understand. I hope you'll be willing to support me again in the future once I've shown that I can be more consistent. If not, then I thank you for all the support you've given me thus far and I hope you still enjoy whatever I manage to create.