Ups and downs

Hi you all!

Story time!

I  have been thinking about writing this damn thing for weeks now, and  finally got around to actually get it done. So, here's an infodump with  some important information as well as a ton of completely useless stuff.  Bear with me

So,  I have been a quiet for a quite some time, and the biggest reason for  that is that I'm very, very tired right now. My state of my mental  health has been in steady decline since Christmas, and on top of that I  have had a couple of quite big projects that had to be finished and it  has drained most of my energy. I don't know why my depression is getting  worse now, but at this point I know very well how the road to recovery  is always two steps forward and one backward -kind of journey. I'm still  desperately trying to find a therapist, but now when I finally have the  money to see one, there seems to be no one with room enough for one  patient in my city. Everywhere it seems to be that the line of people  seeking therapists would easily go to the moon and back. So I wait...and  wait, keeping up the tiresome fight.

Besides  keeping the Patreon page up and doing commissions, I had a fairly big  illustration job at the beginning of the year, and after that a couple  of couple albums that I had to finish.  I got all of them done and did a  damn good job about it, and that is of course a good thing. But the  anxiety attacks and the general depression with a bit too big workload  definitely took a heavy toll. As a result, I have been really slow to  respond notes and E-mails. I have been trying my best to keep up with  them, but if someone hasn't had a response to their message, it's not  because I have decided not to answer, but because the message has  disappeared somewhere in the clusterfuck that is my mailbox. Feel free  to remind me  Also, I haven't been able to do streaming and my updates on any other  page than my Patreon has been super slow and erratic. One could say I  have the energy to do just the thing I have been paid to do, and not  much else. So the commissions as well as the updates on my Patreon have  been going on just as effectively as usual.

Because  of the reasons I mentioned, I have decided not to take in any new  commissions until I once again have the energy to do them. This doesn't  of course concern those people who I have promised to do a commission  and/or have already commissioned me. I'll get those drawings done just  as usual, I'm just not taking new stuff in right now. I'll be not doing  any streaming either. What I do, however, are the weekly piles of pics  and comic pages to my Patreon (that doesn't change!), and when I have  the energy, I'll be updating DA here as well. I'm still kind of looking  for a place for the more NSFW stuff after the great porn purge in  Tumblr, though. I have some ideas, but once again, it has to wait until I  have the time and the energy for them.

I'm  still alive, still taking care of myself and trying to get outside of  our apartment every now and then. One of the happy things is that I'm  slowly regaining my ability to concentrate on reading books, and it's a  great pastime.

I hope you're all doing  good, this community of people has been a great thing in my life and  continues to be that, even when I'm quiet.

Wishing you all well,

Oda