A Serious Talk

Hello folks,

I have been thinking about the best way to approach this subject for the past couple of days. Lately, I feel like I've given you more "real life" and not enough entertainment. However, there's no real way to keep you informed except to explain.

For the past 6-7 months now (well now, looking back maybe longer?) I've been dealing with a particular set of symptoms that I believed to be "brain fog" / "burn out". So, I tried to work through it. But there are several other factors I neglected to pick up on -

- Anemia
- Lethargy
- Stiffness Upon Waking
- Poor Circulation
- Swollen Feet / Ankles


About 14 days ago , a pain in my kidney became so intense that I sought medical care. I was given antibiotics and told to take them. The tests didn't show anything like an infection - but when I took the meds I did feel better. Unfortunately, yesterday was the last day for the meds and the pain in my kidney has returned - albeit less intense. While I admit, it could be a particularly nasty infection - chances are highly likely that it's something else entirely.

All of these factors taken together are signs of kidney disease. The reality is, I've been suffering from the above symptoms for months now - so it's likely progressed to a dangerous point if my body is finally reacting like this. Kidney disease is a silent killer as over 90% of the people who have it don't get early indications until their kidneys actually start to fail.

I'll know more when I go to the doctor - or rather, when I have money to go to the doctor. My financial situation really hasn't improved enough for me to take on consistent hospital or medical bills associated with something like treating this disease. So, for now all I can really do is manage my health, detoxify as best I can and prepare to see a doctor. The only real cure for a failed kidney is removal and transplant - but that also includes a life long regiment of medicines to prevent organ rejection.

While this may come suddenly to you, the truth is I have been dealing with all of this for months now. In reality, nothing much has changed for me. I'll still try to manage and get through my days the best I can. That includes being productive. If things take a turn for the worst, I'll let you know - I'd hate to leave you hanging, I know you guys hate it when devs just disappear. ^_- I just wanted to keep you all updated. And, thanks again for your patience and support during this time.

- Ren aka My Big Little Brother