Polar Bear Boyfriend: Nicolai (complete)

    When we were younger, Dhaval used to get horrible allergies during the summer months. Mom and Dad agreed with the doctors that sending Dhaval to the Polar North was a good idea to see if it helped combat how bad it got. They also gave the rest of the option to go if we wanted. Of course Himank and I were extremely excited to go. The only catch was that it wouldn’t be a complete vacation for us. We still had to do our general training, schooling, and all that stuff. But it was fun because it was the Polar, or at least that’s how Mom sold it. 

    We were friends with Mila and Nicolai at least, Dhaval and Mila got along like thieves and Himank was fascinated with Gregori so he often followed the Czar around. Nicolai and I became best friends instantly, much like Mila and Dhaval. We were inseparable whenever we were together. We took our classes together and Nicolai even insisted I join in on his training.

    Training in the Polar North was far different than at home. They were rougher, tougher, more based on pure strength than the fluidity of battle. Nicolai’s shows of brute strength were amazing, even when he was younger. It was so much different than the things I learned back home and with my cousin Alexander. 

As Nicolai grew up he became burly, huge, and domineering in size. But he was still the goofy, loveable teddy bear he had always been. The kind of guy who wouldn’t hurt a fly if he didn’t have to. He saw his training and fighting as more as a fun game rather than something serious.

    It was Nicolai and his attitude towards fighting that helped me develop my own interest and in combat and strategy. Using things I had learned from Kalidas, Foluke, and even Generals Sergei and Olga, I created my own fighting style. I combined aspects of my years of dance training with the many fighting styles I had come across in my young life. I called is Rokunpan, which in Rakshasa tongue means a rock in water. The fluidity of dance mingled with the hardness of defense in combat. I started training other women in using the style when I was sixteen and with time developed in and had my own small army of trained women soldier by the time I was twenty.

    I still took time to visit the Polar North during the summers. Usually, when we visited there was a festival taking place. It was the Ice Breaking festival which was a signal for Summer in the Polar North. Back when we were kids, my brothers and I would laugh at how silly that was. Our summers were hot, steamy, and a sign for harvesting the cinnamon crops. But for the Polar, it was Summer when the ice on the lakes started cracking and breaking.

    One of the events during this festival was that citizens of the Polar North would dive into the newly exposed water. It was called the Summer Dip, which elicited even more snickers and giggles from my brothers and me. It may have been summer but the waters were still filled by ice and frigid cold. In all these years of visiting the Polar my siblings and I have never taken the Summer Dip. But this year was to be different.

    It was Dhaval’s first time visiting since getting crowned and I think Mila had egged him on to do it. I watched as Dhaval stripped down, taking off his clothes save for his pants and approaching the frosty lake.

    Mila smirked devilishly as she folded Dhaval’s clothes. She looked up, her bright eyes slicing along Dhaval’s back.

    “Amazing how such a bookworm maintains such fine form,” Mila says to me.

    “I guess it’s genes.” I shrug. “He’s pretty much built like Dad.”

    Mila smirks as she looks back to Dhaval. “Not all of that is your father.”

    I furrow my brow in confusion but don’t question her as Nicolai steps forward. “Do you mind helping me, Damini?” He asks. “I can’t get my coat off.”

    “Of course!” I hold his sleeves as he slips from his jacket. He’s wearing nothing underneath, just his own skin and fur. He’s built like a brick wall layered in white fur. His arms are massive trunks and his chest is barreled. Even with the soft belly he has, he still looks like he’s completely carved from marble.

    I place my hand on his arm and pet down, feeling his muscle tense as I do. “You’re not working out, are you?” I tease.

    Nicolai smirks down at me. “Never have a day in my life,” he laughs. “Your brother is doing it. Why not join us?”

    “Oh uh-” I hesitate as I weigh my options.

    “You can go in with me, that way if you don’t like it I can pick you up out of the water.” Nicolai grabs my hand and squeezes it tight. “What do you say?”

    I’m still weighing my options as I squeeze his big hand back. “You know I’m not used to the cold.”

    “You can do it,” Himank laughs from behind me. “Especially with Nicolai there. Stay with him and he’ll keep the water nice and warm for you.” He winks and I scowl at him.

    “Then why don’t you do it?” I scoff.

    “Because I’m chicken shit.” Himank smirks.

    I scoff and look up at Nicolai. His big strong form was always warm and cuddly, Himank may have a point it would even be that way in the icy water. 

    I scoff and hand Mila Nicolai’s coat. “Fine.” I take off my own jacket and Nicolai bounces excitedly. 

    “You won’t regret it! You’ll have fun, I promise!” He says with glee.

    “If not, you owe me big time!” I frown at him.

    I join Nicolai and Dhaval at the edge of the lake with everyone else. We wait on bell to signal us to jump and I grab hold of Nicolai’s big hand.

    “Don’t be nervous,” Nicolai whispers down to me with the most comforting voice. “Once you get in, you’ll see it’s ok.”

    I frown up at him. “So says you. You’re used to the cold.”

    Nicolai smiles. “I know how strong you are, Damini.” He gives my hand a tight squeeze and the bell is struck.

    We jump in together and I am not sure what happened but I don’t remember much except Nicolai laughing. He grabs me in his arms, holding me up out of the water so I curl against his chest.

    “I’ve never heard you make that noise before!” He cackles.

    I cling to him, trying to figure out how he can still be so warm in such frigid water. “Get me out!”

    “You don’t want to swim around at all?” He asks.

    “No!” I screech. “Get me out!”

    Nicolai chortles more as he walks me back up to the shore. He takes his coat and wraps it around me. “You can at least now say that you’ve done it.” He coaxes me. “No shame in trying.”

    “No,” I shiver. 

    Nicolai’s eyes are gentle and sweet. “I’ll take you back.”

    “No, no,” I gasp. “You should stay at the festival, enjoy yourself. I can go back on my own.”

    He shakes his head. “Not without you. I only look forward to this because I get to spend it with you.”

    My heart is pounding rapidly and I don’t think it’s from the shock of the cold. I squeak as Nicolai picks me up off the ground and holds me in the crook of one of his arms. He takes his coat, wrapping it around himself as well as me. I’m pressed against his warm, solid body and my heart refuses to calm down.

    Back at the castle Nicolai wraps me in warm blankets and sends for hot cocoa. Once it arrives I notice cinnamon sticks are placed in each mug. 

    “His is Rakshasa cinnamon.” I smile pleased at my mug.

    “I am addicted to it.” Nicolai suck on the cinnamon stick in his mug then places it back in. “I cannot drink my coco without it anymore. I drink gallons of it when I am missing you.”

    My ears perk up and I look at Nicolai. “You do?”

    He nods. “You are my dearest friend. Of course I miss you like mad when you are gone. There are days when I long to see you it feels like the air is squeezed from my lungs.”

    My heart is hammering again. “Aw, Nicolai.”

    He smiles cheerfully at me. “I’ve never had a friend like you Damini. Even Mila is different and I have always considered her to be my best friend. But you, you’re so special to me. I’m not sure why,” he hums.

    I smile into my mug. “You’re very special to me as well.” I move closer to him by the fire. “I sometimes look so forward to these trips that I can’t stand myself.”

    Nicolai puts his arm around me. “There have been a couple of times I have wanted to beg you not to leave, but I know I cannot ask that of you. Especially now that Dhaval is king, I know you want to stay by his side.”

    “It is different,” I sigh as I snuggle closer to him and begin to purr. “It’s weird, I’ve always just thought of us as kids, but now it feels strange to think of us that way. It feels weird to think of us as adults too. Mila is Czarina, Dhaval is king, so many of our friends are in the same boat as well.”

    “So many weddings,” Nicolai grumps. 

    “Don’t get me started on the weddings!” I scoff. “Emmeline, then Maitri and Orrik. Then there was Chi and Maeve!” I scoff and shake my head. “I’ve lost count of how many I’ve been to in the last few months alone.”

    Nicolai laughs. “Do you ever plan on getting married? Adding your count to the dozens out there?”

    I open my mouth then shut it. I huff as I try to think. “You know...it’s never crossed my mind. Or at least, not since I was little and played pretend with Mama. Davya talks about it constantly though. She’s like mom that way, she’s mad about weddings and romance.”

    “You’ve never dreamed about your prince? Your knight in shining armor?” Nicolai chuckles, playfully shoving me.

    “That was always my Papa,” I say as I look up at him. “I remember during the war how both Mama and Papa looked. How strong and brave they were. It never occurred to me that anyone else would be that way for me.”

    Nicolai tilts his head. “Not even me?” He nudges my side playfully.

    I giggle and smile at him. “If it ever came down to it, I’d love for you to be my knight.” I snuggle back against him. “I wouldn’t want you to get hurt at all though.”

    “For you, I wouldn’t care.” Nicolai slurps down his chocolate. “I wouldn’t even think twice about it! I would protect you and your future partner whoever they turn out to be.” He puts his arm around me and nuzzles his cheek to the top of my head. “You’re so important to me Damini.”

    “You’re important to me too, Nicolai.” I close my eyes as I rest against Nicolai. “Everything is perfect as it is.”

    That evening I had snuck down to the kitchen to get something to snack on before bed when I see Dhaval go to Mila’s door. Mila opens the door and throws her arms around him. They kiss passionately and heavily. I actually hear moans and tongues slurping. Mila then drags Dhaval into her room and locks her door. I stare, my ears going sideways as I try to piece together the scene that just played before me.

    “Oh my, he’s getting sloppy.” 

    I nearly leap from my skin and bounce around to see Himank behind me. “Where the hell did you come from?”

    He holds up a book. “Stealing from the library,” he whispers. “You?”

    I hold up the bread and cheese that chef had given me. “What do you mean he’s getting sloppy?”

    “Really?” He scoffs. “You don’t know?” He points to Mila’s door. “They aren’t subtle. Didn’t you notice the way Mila was eye fucking him this afternoon at the lake?”

    I sucker punch Himank’s side. 

    “What the fuck!” Himank sways to the side and braves against the wall.

    “That’s not nice to say about Mila!” I hiss.

    “They’re married,” Himank coughs. “She has the right to do it.”

    I jerk back I’m so shocked. In fact I think I did it so hard I hurt my neck. “What the hell are you talking about?”

    Himank drags me into his room to shush me. “Be quiet,” he scolds. “They got married in secret last year.”

    “Last year?” I screech.

    Nicolai cups his hand over my mouth. “You and Nicolai are both so blind.” He releases me and takes the bread and cheese from my hands. He takes it over to his table and breaks it in half. “They’ve been in love since they were kids.”

    “No!” I gasp.

    Himank frowns at me. “You disappoint me sister, you really do.” He starts eating the cheese.

    “So Mila and Dhaval are…” I grasp the top of my head. “But why would they keep it secret?”

    “Isn’t it obvious?” Himank asks. “Mila doesn’t want to give up her throne to the Polar and Dhaval the same. They’re both dedicated to their people just as much as they love one another. They don’t want to split their kingdoms apart.”

    “Oh,” I murmur. “But still! He could have told us!”

    “Could he?” Himank asks. “I mean, I don’t blame him. I wouldn’t blame you and Nicolai either if you two did the same.”

    I laugh loudly and nervously. “Me and Nicolai would never.”

    Himank dramatically flops over in his chair. “You cannot be serious, dear sister,” he groans as if in agony. “Please tell me you are trying to hide!”

    “No! I’m not trying to hide. Nicolai and I are just friends.”

    “And my dick is just a sausage,” Himank snaps at me. 

    I scoff and my jaw hangs open.

    “You two are so goo-goo eyed for each other it’s sickening! The fact you two are too dumb to realize it pisses me off.” He takes the rest of the bread and cheese. “You don’t deserve this.”

    I shake my head and smirk. “Nicolai and I are close, but we aren’t in love.”

    “Keep shoving bullshit into your mouth, Damini, it’s very attractive.” He breaks the cheese into pieces and tosses it into the air to catch.

    I scowl at him. “I swear!”

    “How do you feel when you think about him?” Himank snaps at me. “Tell me truthfully. What happens when you picture him in your mind? Does your heart race? Do you smile? You feel empty when you’re away from him?” He narrows his eyes on me. “Think about Nicolai today. At the lake with his shirt off, his power on display. Think about afterward and how he made sure you got warm. How do you feel?”

    “I uh-you don’t! I’m not-Himank that’s not-you...” I cup my hand around my mouth. “Oh my god.” I choke. 

    Himank sighs exasperatedly. “And everyone thinks Dhaval is the smartest.” 

    “Oh my god!” I shriek as everything comes rushing into clarity. 

    “That’s right,” Himank sighs.

    Hot tears spike painfully in my eyes. I cup both hands around my face as I start to sniffle and whimper. Himank sighs and comes over to him, wrapping me up in his arms and letting me cry on his chest.

    “It’s ok.” He rubs my back. 

    I sniffle and hiccup and cling to my brother. “What do I do, Himank?”

    “Well,” he sighs. “I suggest you talk to Mila. Maybe she’ll know the best way to talk to Nicolai. That poor boy isn’t that bright.”

    I rub my eyes and nod. “Apparently I’m not either.”

    Himank laughs and hugs me tight. “You can do this. I know it’s all new for you, but you can do it.”

    That next day after a fitful sleep I go visit Mila while she’s having breakfast. Dhaval has gone to early training, so has Nicolai.

    “I figured you’d be with the boys,” Mila pats the seat beside her. “Come, come. It’ll be nice to have some company.”

    I sigh and sit down beside her while she pours me a cup of coffee.

    “You look,” she points and tilts her head, “strange.”

    “I didn’t sleep too well,” I sighs and let my shoulders slouch. “I kind of uhm-” I scratch behind my ear, “I have a lot on my mind.”

    Mila’s eyes brighten as she notices a challenge before her. “Oh? Then share. I hope you consider me close enough to confide in me.”

    I take a deep breath and huff. “I’m in love with Nicolai.”

    “Oh for fuck’s sake,” Mila snarls and slaps her hand to her face. She then gives me a sharp and piercing glare.

    “I also know about you and Dhaval.”

    “Who fucking told?” She snaps at me. “Was it that bitch Himank?” She shakes her head and scowls at the door. “I knew I should have killed him when we were fourteen.”

    “No, that’s not-” I scoff and shake my head. “Mila, I don’t know what to do.”

    “Do you want me to send you and Nicolai to the family cottage near the border?” She asks. “You can go there in private and bang out all your feelings for as long as you need.”

    I grumble under my breath. “No! That’s not right.”

    “Ugh, what is it with you Rakshasa and your moral codes?” She sneers then she smiles sweetly at me. “I know my brother is kind of...ok he’s extremely thick-skulled.” She reaches out and takes my hands. “I know he feels the same for you. It’s so obvious it pisses me off. But he’s so sweet and innocent, don’t know how, and he loves everyone with everything he has. But he loves you more than anyone. He just hasn’t put those pieces together.”

    “But what do I do?” I squeeze her hands.

    “How about you write him a letter?” She asks. “It’ll be easier to get things out that way, and I think it’ll be easier for Nicolai to process as well. Then the two of you can discuss things out and eventually bang.”

    “Mila,” I scoff.

    “Sorry,” she chuckles and pulls me into a hug. “You’re both incredibly important to me. You’re my family.” Her arm around my shoulder starts squeezing tighter and harder.

    “Mila, you’re hurting me,” I grunt.

    “I know you don’t have it in you,” Mila snarls threateningly. “But if you ever hurt my baby brother, I will rip your head off. I don’t care if you’re Dhaval’s favorite.”

    “What?” I squeak.

Mila lets me go and I quickly escape her reach. “Now,” she sighs. She goes over to her desk and takes some paper and ink. “Here. You can write in here if you’d like.”

“Thanks,” I sigh as I stare at the blank sheets of paper.

I spend most of the morning writing and eventually fill up the blank sheets with everything I can think of. It’s late in the afternoon when I finish and I take the rather hefty letter with me to find Nicolai.

I find him coming out of training, shirtless and breathing hard from exertion. He grins as I walk up to him. “There you are! Where have you been all day? You usually like to watch morning training.”

My face is burning as I am painfully aware at how much I used to stare at Nicolai. I keep my eyes down or averted as I try to think of what to say.

“Hey, you ok?” Nicolai asks gently. “You aren’t getting sick are you?” You puts his hand on my forehead. 

I shake his hand off. “No uhm-” I shakily hold up the letter. “Here.”

“What’s this?” Nicolai asks.

I swallow down the painful lump in my throat. “Read it...later.” I look up at him. “It’s really important.”

Nicolai unfolds the papers. “I can read it now if that’s the case.”

“No!” I yelp then cover my mouth. “I’d prefer if you read it in private.” I fidget in place. “Sorry it’s just-” I close my mouth and swallow again.

“Oh,” Nicolai murmurs. “That’s fine. I was just about to go have lunch. I’ll just take it in my room and read there.”

My body is all nerves and only nerves. I go to the library and try to read, but I end up just reading the same paragraph over and over for hours. Eventually, it’s gotten dark and I still haven’t seen Nicolai or heard from him.

I go to Mila but she looks strange and panicked. She’s turns to me, looking a bit relieved. “Have you seen Nicolai?” We both say at the same time.

Mila scowls. “You haven’t seen him?” She asks.

My ears perk up. “You haven’t?” I gasp. “I haven’t seen him since I gave him my letter.”

Mila frowns and taps her fingertips to her lips. She then rushes to Nicolai’s room and inside we find his window is wide open.

Mila grunts. “Well shit.”

I stare at his open window and my heart drops into my gut. “What?” I whisper.

Mila marches over to his desk and picks up a letter on his desk. “I’ll be back. Don’t worry.” She crumples the paper in her fist. “That fucker.”

I turn and look at her. “Where did he go?” I ask.

A dark and terrifying scowl crosses Mila’s face. “Don’t know,” she clicks her tongue.

With no idea where Nicolai has gone all we can do it wait. Days go by and still there is no sign of him. Everyone is on edge and soon Dhaval, Himank and I will have to go back home to Rakshasa Country.

“When he returns I’ll make sure you know,” Mila assures me. “I’ll leave him mostly alive,” she snarls under her breath.

“Thanks,” I sigh. My ears go flat against the back of my head. “I’m just so worried. I hope he’s ok out there.”

“You’re allowed to be angry,” Mila looks down at her nails which look razor sharp. “You poured your heart out and he went out a window. You can be mad.”

I shake my head. “I thought that’s how I should feel, but I can’t get angry.”

Mila’s shoulders slouch. “Well, I apologize for his idiocy regardless.”

Once we reach home I put myself into training with my Rokunpan warriors. I wanted to try and forget, but even when I was working my hardest, Nicolai was still at the forefront of my thoughts. 

Then one day, Mama came rushing into the training room. “Damini, you need to come now.”

I run with mom down the halls and step out into the main courtyard. There I am shocked to see a ragged and exhausted Nicolai. He looks like he’s been through hell, his white fur is filthy and black with soot, his armor is dented and crooked, some piece of it are even missing. But it’s what’s behind him that’s truly shocking. His horse is standing there with the bloodied head of a strange massive toothed creature. 

Nicolai kneels on one knee before me and bows his head. “Damini, I traveled to the island of Hell off the coast of the Polar to prove myself to you.”

My eyes snap open wide. “What?” I gasp.

“I fought one of the horrible creatures there and brought back it’s head to show you.” He looks up at me. “Your letter opened my eyes and I realized how poorly I’ve treated you all these years.”

“Nicolai no-” I gasp and step towards him. “That’s not the point of the letter!”

He stands up before and takes hold of my hands. “I ignored your feelings.” His grip tightens. “I ignored my own. I wanted to prove to you-”

“You don’t have to prove anything to me!” I snap. “Nicolai I was so worried! You disappeared without a word without saying anything. I was so so scared I-” I clam up and huff and jump up, I press a kiss to him, not caring how filthy and gross he was. I wrap my arms around his neck, pushing the kiss deeper as his strong arms wrap around my waist.

“I do love you, Damini,” he whispers.

I sniffle and nod. “I love you too!” I kiss him again, pressing close as he holds me up off the ground.

I take him to the baths later so he can scrub and get all clean. I then remember Mama’s story about spying on Papa and I get a strange itch. I sneak into the bathroom, stepping through the steam and I see Nicolai relaxing in one of the pools.

I ease down in beside him and he nearly jumps out of the pool in one bound. “Damini! What are you doing here?”

“Shh,” I whisper and cup my hand over his mouth. “I missed you.”

Nicolai tries to relax but his body remains tense. “This isn’t proper, Damini. I mean-” he huffs. “I missed you too and I’m glad you’re here but.”

I lean against his side. “Let me stay.”

Nicolai sighs. “I wasn’t going to make you leave.”

We sit and relax together, eventually, we get out of the pool and together we look at each other bare and naked. My eyes linger, drinking in the sight of Nicolai’s big strong body. I then look up at his eyes, seeing them glazed over. He reaches out and scoops me up in his arms, we kiss and his tongue licks along my jaw and down my neck.

“Nic-” I purr.

“Sorry,” he chuckles nervously. He sets me down and his hands are trembling. He then wraps a towel around me. “We should go. Now. Before uhm-” he turns away to fetch his own towel.

When he walks out of the bath to get dressed his hands are still trembling. I put on my robes and follow him to his room.

“You really shouldn’t be here,” Nicolai chuckles nervously.

“I don’t want to be alone. Not after you were gone for so long.” I look up at him. “Please, Nicolai?”

He sighs and pulls me into his arms. “I don’t want to be alone either but-” he frowns. “This isn’t proper.”

I chuckle and squeeze my arms around him. “What makes you say that?”

We go and sit down on the bed and Nicolai sighs, relaxing slightly as he hugs onto a pillow. “I should do what’s right. I should announce my intentions to your family and try and win you over properly.”

“You’ve already won me over, an apparently everyone already knows. Even before us.” I smile at him. “We just went about this all weird.”

“Yeah,” Nicolai scoffs. He then smiles at me. “Even still, I feel like it would be best to send you away now.”

“Oh?” I gasp in fear.

He nods and buries his head into the pillow. “Ever since the bath...even in the bath-” he groans. “It’s been difficult.”

“What’s wrong?” I move closer to him.

“It hurts now-” he growls. “And I don’t want to make you think anything wrong.”

I glance at Nicolai then run my hand up his thigh. He whimpers and lifts his head to look at me. I kiss him, easing him down onto the bed. He grabs me, wrapping his thick, strong hands around my hips. 

“I’m hurting too,” I giggle to him.

Nicolai whines and turns his head. “Damini.”

I kiss his neck and straddle his big thigh. Moving my robe just enough I grind myself on him. His eyes flash open when he feels my heat directly on him. He sits up and kisses me, wrapping his arms tight around me.

I pet down his chest and belly, my fingers then find his hard length. Nicolai tosses me. I’m thrown into the pillows and blankets then flop off the bed onto the ground with a loud thud.

    “Oh no!” Nicolai yelps. He rushes to get me and ends up plopping off the bed himself. “I’m so sorry!” He gasps. “I didn’t mean to do that! It was reflex!”

I’m snickering and laughing. I’m coughing as I choke and continue to laugh. Nicolai chuckles then starts to laugh. We both wheezing and laughing, eventually falling onto the floor. Nicolai kisses me, pinning me down as his kisses trail along my body. Our laughs become moans and heavy breathing. His fingers rub me and his cock grinds against my hip. We’re tangled together in the blankets and pillows. Grinding against one another as the heat in the room becomes unbearable. I soak his fingers as he soaks my thigh. It was all heated and powerful, even though all we did was grind and touch.

We lay together on the floor, silent and breathing hard. Nicolai kisses the top of my head as he stares up at the ceiling, his eyes distant. I snuggle to his broad chest, purring still from how good his touch felt. 

“That was close,” he whispers.

I sit up and look down at him. “What was?”

He frowns. “I nearly gave into temptation and took you.” 

I kiss him. “I was close too. I wouldn’t have minded.”

Nicolai sighs as I lay on his chest. “It should be romantic! It should be something perfect and magical. It shouldn’t be so-” He grumbles.

“My mom spied on my dad while he bathed. Mila told me your parents met because your mother was originally going to string your dad along.” I giggle. “Compared to them, I say we’re quite romantic as it is.”

Nicolai sits up so I am in his lap. “I want to make you feel so special,” he whispers as he cups my cheek. “I want to be good enough for you.”

I frown. “You idiot,” I grump. “You are! I’ve always felt that way.” I hold his face between my hands. “Even now, it feels so right.” I touch his shaft long his thigh and steal myself a long glance. It’s black from the tip down, turning to a candy pink at the base where it flares with a knot. He’s thick and curves a little to the side. I take him into my hand and already he’s getting hard again.

Nicolai growls and places me on the bed. I gasp softly as he crawls on top of me, kissing me hungrily. I feel his cock slip along my thigh and I gaze into his eyes. I nod and he nods.

“I’ll be gentle,” he whispers to me.

“That’s all you know.” I lift my legs and loop one around his waist. We’re both nervous now, but we’re ready. He kisses me, rubbing up against me as he does. I feel him hot and eager at my slit, slowly moving and then pushing inside.

I whimper, biting my lip as he moves inside. I claw at his back, gripping to his shoulders as he moves deeper. He’s quite big and even if I am eager for him, he’s still a snug fit.

“Oh wow,” Nicolai moans. “You feel so good.” His gaze is dreamy and distant and there’s drool on his lip.

“You’re so big,” I mewl. “Go slow.”

He looks down at me and kisses me. I hook my legs around his waist as he moves. He goes slow and easy, rocking us gently. Our kisses grow deeper, hotter and his movements start to pick up. He snarls and grunts, his hips going a little faster. I squeeze around him, feeling him quicken inside. He goes deep and I arch my back. My toes begin to curl and I feel his heat grow. Nicolai moves faster and harder, snarling and panting in desperation. We lock eyes again and in that instant I throw my head back. I claw down his back and he roars. Inside his heat swells and fills me.

His heavy weight on top of me feels so good. I relax there, letting him regain himself and come to his senses. He soon rolls off and sits up, gazing down at me. 

“You ok?” His voice cracks with nerves.

I stretch and sigh. “Yeah. I feel great.”

He sighs with relief and falls back down beside me. He wraps me up in his arms and buries his face in my neck. “I love you so much.”

I stroke his cheek. “I love you too.”

In the morning we are given a rude awakening. The blanket is yanked away from us and Mila is standing there, angry and glaring. Her face is flushed and red, probably because she’s not used to the heat here.

“Sister!” Nicolai quickly covered me with a pillow and he stands up, trying to cover himself with his hands. “What are you doing here?”

“What am I doing here?” She roars and thrusts a judgmental finger at Nicolai. “What are YOU doing here?”

Nicolai looks back at me then back to his sister. He grabs up a sheet to wrap around his waist. “I had to earn honor for-”

Mila chucks a vase at Nicolai and he catches it easily. “You disappeared! For weeks! No word! Worried to death!” She slaps her chest.

“Found her! Found her!” Himank shouts from the door.

Dhaval rushes in, grabbing Mila and pulling her back. “You’re fast,” he huffs.

“No! Let me go!” Mila snarls. “I haven’t taught him his lesson!” She kicks and thrashes, trying to escape Dhaval as he carts her out of the room.

Himank peeks into the room and wink. “Way to go kids. I’m proud of you!” He then closes the doors as Mila’s shouting vanishes down the hallway.

I sigh and let my shoulders slouch. “Oh wow.”

Nicolai comes back to the bed. “Sorry about that.”

“She cares about you.” I my ears twitch as I look at him. “I would do the same with my brothers.” I wrap my arms around Nicola’s neck, pulling him down so I can kiss him.

The door bursts open and Milla comes rushing in with a sword in her fist. “And another thing!”

Himank and Dhaval both rush in to drag her out of the room, grabbing her by the arms. “Mila, come on! Mila!” Dhaval tries to be diplomatic but I can tell he’s not sure what to do.

“I just want to talk! I just want to talk!” Mila snarls as she points the sword at Nicolai.

“There is no way you just want to talk.” Himank says.

Mila glares at him. “I wouldn’t talk if I were you. I have my own bone to pick with you.” She then snaps a glare to Nicolai. “Get dressed! Or I’ll come back.” She snaps away from Himank and Dhaval and storms from the room

Nicolai and I ease back and I can’t help but laugh.

“It’s not funny! My sister is scary,” Nicolai scoffs.

“I know, love. I know.” I kiss him again and rub behind his ears. “I just realized you’re going to have to talk to my parents too.”

“Oh,” Nicolai’s eyes go blank for a moment. 

“It’ll be ok.” I snuggle up close to him. “I just wish we had time for one more...you know.” I giggle and kiss his cheek.

Nicolai whines. “Damini!” He looks at me with a pitiful stare. “Don’t do that to me. You get me excited.”

“Sorry.” I kiss him then slip off the bed, picking up my clothes off the floor. “Well, I guess it’s time to face the music.”

Nicolai slips on the clothes I had given him. He had come home in rags but he and Mila have clothes and supplies here. “Yes, I suppose.”

I stretch out my hand to him and he takes it.