I'm sorry.

Hey guys.

I don't really know where to start. As you already know from my last post, I'm currently not feeling very well. It's getting worse and worse and I can't keep up with anything at this point. I decided it's best to take a break from everything, even though it's so hard for me because all of you, all of this... it's so important to me and I don't want to lose it. But my mental health takes away my joy and passion and creativity, something that I need for making good videos. 

And it's not only that, there are many things in my life that are suffering from it as well and I now know that I have to seek for professional help to get trough this, I can't do it on my own. There were a lot of things in my past that are still affecting my mental health today, like bullying and stuff like that. I don't want to be all whiny and negative, but I want to be honest with you guys since you deserve to know the truth.

For this month, there won't be an extra video here on Patreon and I won't be making voice messages for the Dragon tier. It won't effect this month's postcards and the Giveaway though. I don't know how often I'm going to be uploading on my channel in the near future, because I want to concentrate on my mental health. If you want me to refund your pledge for this month, please tell me so I can give you your money back. I completely understand if you don't want to pay for something you didn't get. 

The next two weeks I'm going to be spending time with family and friends, and after that I need figure out how I want to continue with everything and how I'm going to handle this situation. 

What makes everything even more complicated is my financial situation. I planned to be self-employed with YouTube, Patreon and other projects like the Visual Novel Game. So far, Patreon is my only source of income. That's why I'll let it online. Maybe I can find other rewards for you, as long as I'm not able to make videos.

But as I said, I completely understand if you don't want to be a Patron anymore, I wouldn't be mad at all. You already did more than enough, I'm still such a small channel but there are people like you who supported me from the beginning and I'm very grateful.

Thank you so much for the time and I hope that in the future everything will be better. This is not a goodbye. The next video will come, I just don't know when exactly.Also, I'm still reachable here on Patreon, on Instagram and on Twitter. 

Love,

Neko