Heart

Bare

Added 2021-01-05 03:06:34 +0000 UTC

He said “Sorry I was weird earlier.”

And I said “You weren’t weird you were angry and hateful. And unfortunately there’s nothing weird about that.”

He’s off the wagon again and I am thankful every day that I set the boundaries and said enough when I did. I spared us this spin around the roller coaster. He didn’t drag us with him.

I have faith he’ll pull it back together but I don’t have to hold my breath. I’m safe here.

“In 2021 you’ll get what you give, I’m sick and tired of playing nice. There are a hundred other ways we could do this.” It was a promise, not a threat. This year will be different.

I will be unafraid to be vulnerable and bare my soul, I will be joyful. I will try to enjoy the present moment as much as possible, so much easier to do in this peaceful house. I will be more and more and more ME. Too much and tous beaucoups.

I saw my horoscope on my favourite Twitter and it brought tears to my eyes.

“Hope is a dangerous thing for a woman like me to have... but I have it.”