New Things

None of my bruises are from sex anymore. That little one on my thigh is from clumsily bumping into things. So much has changed with my relationships ending and/or shifting, and I find myself with no outlets for kink, or masochism. (Aside from checking my ex’s Snapchat obsessively, which oooooh shit is self-harm in the highest form.)

I’ve been wallowing for too long. I’m lucky to have a coven of babes who are rallying me to actually go out (!) to a super fun sex club tonight. It used to be one of my favourite places (it has a heated rooftop pool and theme rooms and the BEST staff) but it’s been full of painful memories for the last couple of years. So tonight is a reclaiming of sorts.

I’m slightly anxious my ex and his new girl might show up (it’s a popular place in our local scene), but I’m trying not to let my fear get in the way. Ms.O promised she’d have my back, and 3 of our newer coven members have never been, so showing them around will be an excellent distraction. E is coming, so I won’t be the only top (which is such a nice thing, I love topping but being in service all night is exhausting, also E is THE BEST human so double yay) and the butchy babe from the slumber party that everyone is swoony over is coming too. (Funny thing, at the sapphic slumber party the entire room of femmes was tripping over themselves to flirt with the only masculine-of-centre person in attendance. CLASSIC!) Joie has a date with a couple tonight, so she’s going to join us at the club afterwards, either with or without the couple, depending on how the date goes. I feel lucky to get to roll with such a badass gang of girls.

Tonight will also be my first time attending this club without a partner. That’s kind of cool. I love being there with a partner to fuss over and play with, but the thought of going just to smoke joints, skinny dip, and flirt with my friends sounds perfect.

I’m trying to decide what to wear, it’s between this bodysuit and a yellow one. I’ll let you know what I choose. And I’ll let you know how it goes.