A quick thank you

Thanks to the people who have upped their pledges and donated to the gofundme.

We have raised about $340 this week, and that is almost an extra weeks rent for me. 

Two people donated $15 each and that paid for my food so far. 

Thank you so much. I am in tears seeing the gofundme getting donations.

I am already struggling with my health. I am struggling that my ex is keeping my kids from me. I am struggling with my mental health and the fear.

I didn't deserve this.

In a couple of hours I have a meeting with social services. I will try and claim joint custody of my kids. I will also sue my ex for the $40,000 child support she owes me. I will also contact police sometime this week about the 2017 sexual assault she did to me.

I never really wanted to tell the police about all her fraud, abuse, violence and sexual assault to protect my kids. I didn't want my children to think their mother was a piece of shit. I didn't want her to be taken away and they wouldn't know their mother.

This was clearly a mistake because she doesn't care at all. She just wants to ruin me and is obsessed with that. This wasn't about money. We offered her money each week to leave me alone, instead she opted to make me homeless. That is her goal, this sick demented bullshit of "winning".

She is still upset I kicked her out of my home after all the domestic abuse I had to endure between 2009 and 2016. I did it to protect my family. Everyone told me I was stupid and now I understand why. 

This is what happens when you are a good person at your core. I am desperately trying not to be angry and resentful at how things are panning out.

Thank you for giving me hope. I know I am not alone.

I also want to thank my beautiful girlfriend. She is a fucking angel. She is the literal opposite of my ex wife. I kid you not, a literal angel. I don't deserve her, but I am happy I met her a few years back. Without her I would have no one to talk to, no friend, no company, I would be nothing. I would be physically alive but a corpse inside my heart.

I hold on because I love my kids, I love my parents and I love my girlfriend. I need to tell myself to never lose hope and Hope is my girlfriends middle name. I knew it was destined when I almost lost hope the day we met.