When Jill confessed that she was a Lesbian, we both thought our marriage was over. I loved her still and in my desperation I half-jokingly asked “what if I was a transwoman?” Jill got so excited, and I saw a way to keep her! Our marriage was more important than my manhood, so in that moment, I lied and said that I had always been a woman on the inside.
Jill suddenly became my biggest ally and supporter, urging me forward! Clothes, makeup, hormones, documentation, she was turning me into her dream-girl and I was so eager for the attention I went along without complaint!
It’s only been 2 months I can’t even recognize myself in the mirror any more. Everything is changing so fast that I am terrified, but I made a decision and it’s too late to go back now! Three weeks ago I sent my “coming out” email to my job and took my vacation. Today is my first day back as the new me. My body shaved, bra padded, bits tucked away. After 10 years in that office as a man, everyone will see the woman I am becoming.
It’s full time now. I’ll never be David again. But as Dawn I keep Jill in my life. Is it worth sacrificing my identity for the woman I love?