I don't expect anyone to help, and that's totally alright. i'm going to try keep this short because i'm honestly not in a good head space to actually talk about stuff right now.. but want to still try and explain.
My dog Lotus was just diagnosed with Osteosarcoma ( cancer ) and her vet bills are pretty costly, even with charity donations. There are basically no options available for treatment for this disease because it progresses so rapidly, by the time its diagnosed its basically too late. pain meds are all i can really do, she's' currently on 3 different ones- i was given 4-6 months estimate for her without treatment, with treatment 6-12 ( but was told 12 was very optimistic ) which would require amputation and chemo, but was quoted $5k - $10k and i really can't afford that, i'm not sure its even worth doing with how little extra time she'd get.
I was told her front left wrist has a mild fracture too, she has been limping and got some swelling in the area which is why we took her to the vet, got xrays and confirmed its cancer. amputation is the only course of action but again its spreads so fast its likely already in her lungs but early enough to not be able to be seen on xray so amputation wouldn't cure her. the fracture is from the tumor eating away at the bone, eventually the bone will become so weak it will likely have a full break and i'll have to put her down before it gets to that point so i might not even get 4 months.
She just turned 8 in june so she's not even that old. i thought i had more time with her. she might not even make it to next christmas... It's my birthday next month and i'm terrified something is going to happen to her.
I need to stop talking now because i'm literally crying and she's sitting beside me nudging me to try and comfort me which is making me feel so much worse. she's such a good dog. What the hell does someone do when their ESA gets cancer?
Anyway. if anyone wants to help me with her vet bills, even just $1, i would be so grateful. Normally i would take on commissions but i honestly don't think i have it in me. i'm not even doing things i normally would for fun i feel dead.
I added pictures of the xray of her bad leg, but if you don't know what you're looking for i don't think you'll really be able to tell what's wrong.
If there are packs on my gumroad you haven't gotten through my patreon and would like to buy, i would be so grateful, they're cheap on there. Donations are also welcome but i don't want to make anyone feel like they have to. Once i'm in a bit of a better mind state and this has kind of settled and i'm less in shock i'll be starting the storyboard sketches for book one of my comic, i have no idea how long it will take me to finish it but hopefully i can get it done before shit goes down because once she's gone i'm going to have a mental break down and probably won't see daylight or my computer screen for at least a week.
Like i said i don't expect any donations or even purchases, you guys have always been so supportive in the past, and have done more than enough, but if i get any, even just $1 i'm literally going to cry.
Even just liking the post to show support and let me know you've read it would be a bit comforting. I really don't have many people in my life and i'm feeling quite alone.
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