Amnesia Chapters 1-5

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You may find yourself wanting the life I live, but the fear of forgetting your family or friends will make you think otherwise. I know some of you will read, thinking I have your dream life and that I shouldn’t complain. But when you have a husband and 2 boys, you want to be with them, not be 18 and stuck in diapers playing with baby toys and rarely getting a chance on the computer. Mommy and Daddy can only choose the shows as well.

6 months stuck in this hellhole stuck in pampers using them 24/7 rarely getting a change as well. I tried so hard to tell them I wasn't incompetent like they think, but I feel all the Amazonians choose to hear is babies babbles. I wish the world we live in wasn't so cruel, mommy and daddy won't tell me their actual names. When I am bad they hurt me, the teacher at my daycare notice me with the bruises but don't do shit!

I have to confess to my husband if you're reading this, run take the kids! They know your name and our kid’s names and I heard Mommy and Daddy saying they wanted to watch you on cameras, I don't know if they had been stalking us or you when they took me, but please go to the town no Amazonian dares to go. I miss you Jarred tell the boys Papa misses them and that he loves them. Fuck Mommy and daddy are coming in, and I hear a woman. ----J.T.

Chapter 1- From Dad to Mommy and Daddy’s Baby

“James Tyson, please come to the office, please come to the office!” The sound I heard startled I yawned and looked around my Amazonian peers laughing, pointing and whispering something out of earshot as my teacher handed me my hall pass, so I could get down to the office without being yelled at for not having my hall pass. As I made it to the office, I saw a couple, an Amazonian couple. I walked in the office and handed the receptionist my pass, and she pointed to the principle's office and told me I was needed in there. I knocked on the principle's door, and she yelled for me to come in.

“Good to see you, James. How are you today?” She asked in a calm tone.

“Fine, Ma’am, may I ask why I was called down?” I am sure I didn't do anything, but I want to see if I am down for being the top of my class still.

“ Well James, I see you have been failing two classes in Art and AP Chemistry, is this correct?” Now, I understand she is questioning my maturity.

“I am Ma’am, I have been struggling with AP Chemistry because I have never been the best at it and I have been requesting to be put in general Chemistry. With Art, I have been struggling with the colors I have a color vision deficiency. Ask Jarred, my husband, he knows I struggle with colors.” I smile politely, hoping to get maturity points in being polite and using bigger words.

“I am sorry James, I will try to get you into an easier Chemistry class, and you have a phone if so download an app that scans colors for you, it's really helpful.”

“Thank you, ma’am, from understanding my situation and the help I will download an app like that and see if that helps, and I will be forever thankful for a general Chemistry class.”

The Principle hands me a hall pass and the Amazonian couple go into the office after I leave and head to the restroom, as I climb onto the toilet and pull down my skinny jeans another person walks in and opens the stall doors looking for something. As he makes it to the stall I am in, I try to hold my breath. He opens the door and smiles down at me.

“Well, Hello little one, where is your Mommy and Daddy? Or are you a big boy who forgot to lock the stall when going poopoo?” I stare at the man angrily.

“DUDE THE FUCK I CAN’T REACH THE LOCK AND YOU ARE THE ONE TO BARGE IN HEAR SO DO YOU MIND AND LET ME TAKE A SHIT IN PRIVATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”

“My My what naughty words a baby like you is saying, maybe you need your little bum bum reddened because of them”

Before my next string of curses, I felt a needle go in my neck and the world going black. As the world went black, my mind wandered to my life. The life I loved and cared about it was a peaceful memory of my mom and dad looking at me as I grew up and became an adult but then as my memory became more real my mom and dad started to grow and something soft and crinkly grew in between my legs the world started to laugh and point. “Awwww what a cute Little, He is so precious.” “Isn’t that J.T. He got caught? Damn I feel bad, I hope we don’t become a baby like him”

I jumped awake, screaming bloody murder. “Holy fuck it was just a…..” I look up to see the back of a car's seat and as I move around I hear a crinkling, so I look down to see a Baby Diaper around my waist as I focus on what I am wearing I hear a male’s voice.

“Hey Babe, I think our Little baby boy is up and sounds cranky”

“I AM NOT A BABY YOU STUPID FUCK I AM 18 I HAVE 2 BOYS AT HOME LET ME GO YOU ASSHOLES!!!!” As I say that, I regret my wording instantly, and I feel a child’s hand touch my leg and I whimpered slightly as I could tell that this child was an Amazonian about 4 or 5 just by the size of the hand.

“Yep, definitely fussy, may need to feed him or change his diaper if he’s this fussy.”

As I whimper more, I feel another needle go into my thigh and I fall back asleep floating in a dreamless state floating in what seemed to be an endless rest.

Waking up again I stretched out against the mattress forgetting what happened and as I tried to roll out of bed I hit a steel bars and I cried out in pain opening my eyes to see steel crib bars surrounding me and my legs in soft cotton booties and Mittens over my hands as I stand a pain fills me and I cry out and whimper unsure what is in the booties no place I have seen said anything about booties that hurt when trying to stand.

As I continue to sob in pain, I don't hear the woman walk in, as I only realize she is here when she picks me up by the arm pits like a baby. As I am picked up I start scream and kicking as I kick her what ever is in the booties once again causes pain making me scream more.

“Well I see my baby is enjoying his safety booties and No grab mittens now let's get you changed baby and some food in your belly” She coos as I continue to sob in pain unsure what to do now.

“Mommy just love seeing her baby all fussy it gives her some time to spank your baby bum” As she removes my diaper she doesn't lay me on the changing table I look at the diaper with wide as I saw I had wet it and then as I stare I feel my body go over her lap.

“NO FUCK YOU CANT DO THIS I AM AN ADULT” as I scream out I feel a hard slap hit my ass making my screams amplify, and she gives me a lot I lost count after 25 as she turned my ass red and after what seemed like an eternity she laid me on a changing table and put diaper around my waist.

“I am sorry I spanked you, but you said some naughty words and mommy had to spank you” She picked me up once again and carried me into a big area with a TV and a big play pen she poked my nose cooing at me and sat me in the play pen and told me to be good while she cooked breakfast I just rolled my eyes as she left the room. I looked around hoping to escape she left the playpen gate's door open a little and I quietly pushed it open and crawled to the dog door I was able to fit in and as I got my head through the door, I saw it a big dog mastiff I think It started barking like I was a burglar.

As the dog started barking the woman and the man came running and someone grabbed my legs and I felt a big hand on my leg and a loud crack is heard, and I scream so loud It could shatter gas, but I passed out after 2 minutes from pain. The last thing I remember though, was the woman said to the man to break my other leg before going to the ER. I dreamed of being free of being with my boys and holding them close, but I knew it was a dream because I knew what is happening to me and if I can only be free in a dream then so be it I am an adult I know it, but I am scared these people will make me forget that.

Chapter 2a Fearing Mommy and Daddy

As I slowly woke up, I whimpered, slightly stretching out as I tried to stretch my legs, I couldn't. Yawning loudly, I looked at my legs I saw my legs cast in a bow-legged position, tears filling my eyes as memories flood my mind. About 5 minutes later, the woman and man who had broken my legs walked in with a doctor.

“Well, he has 4 fractures, 2 in each leg may I ask what happened most Littles don't get this way when their parents monitor them”. As I wiggle in discomfort, the man looked down at me and smiled and softly said, “Hey baby, how you feeling? Are you in any pain?” as he said that I sobbed not out of pain, only out of fear. “Stay away from me” the doctor looked at the man in confusion and asked if he needed to be worried about my safety as he turned to the woman. “Oh no need to be he is in the beginning stages, so you know babies.” Still crying in fear I started to bite my hand, a nervous habit I have since I was a kid.

Unsure what to do the doctor leaves the room making me shake more and chew on my hand until I start to bleed passing out again needle in my neck and another dreamless state until i wake up at the house of horror.

Once I wake up I looked around and saw I was back in the crib and the mittens back on my hands no booties though but a cast making me sit bow legged as I rub my eyes and look around hearing a crash I whimpered scared to be punished for the hospital visit. I know i am an adult, But I am scared that these people will do more then break my bones.

As my stomach gurgles, I clench my ass so no poop can escape only to cry in pain as it slips past the clenched muscle and i start sobbing and trying to curl up in a ball. As I cry “Daddy” walks next to the crib and I don’t look at him as I am terrified of this man.

“Hey buddy, lets get you down stairs we got you the best brand of diapers so i think your stinky butt can hold an hour or 2 without a change. Maybe if you 're good you will get rash cream.” “Daddy” picks me up by my armpits and carries me downstairs like a lazy toddler.

I chew on my mittens anxiously and apparently these people thought about that already and “daddy” shove a neon pink pacifier in my mouth and inflated it so I could barley breathe. Whimpering as he carries me into the back into the living room and lays me in a Pac n play, knowing I can't be trusted in the playpen for my escape attempt. Maybe if I try to play the baby, I could escape and be free or I will be taken back and be beaten more.

As I lay and think “Mommy” walks in her face as cold and heartless as ever. “Hi Baby Boy, how was nap time? Like your new play area? I see you are getting to love your nice stinky diapers.” She smiles and picks me up and carries me into the kitchen and sits me in a metal highchair and straps me in. “So my baby boy doesn't make another escape attempt”
I roll my eyes out of annoyance and loom at the plastic tray as I shift around in my mess.

As Mommy walks back out she is holing a bottle filled with a chalky looking substance and she hands it to me. “Here we go baby boy a nice baba for my baby boy” I grumble slightly as i take a drink of the milk only to gag on a chunk of undissolved powder. “Oopsies spit up”

“BITCH ITS NOT SPIT UP YOU JUST DON’T KNOW HOW TO SHAKE A BOTTLE PRO…”  as the words slip out I regretted it as I saw the look on Mommy’s face as she picks me up roughly and slaps me across the face making me sob and as she carries me she takes me to the car and buckles me in the car-seat and drives to a building a daycare it looks like.

And as she takes me out of my seat, she hits my ass as hard as she can making me scream out as we enter the building.

“Hello may I help you?” the receptionist said as I sobbed.

“Yes, I am here to drop Mr. Fuss butt off in the littles day room should be under………”

As I sob and scream in pain, I kick around as a man grabs me from mommy as I continue screaming and crying for help.

I am walked down to a room and I pass out not long after.

Chapter 2b Daycare and LPS (Little Protection Services)

As I slowly stir awake I notice I'm on what seems like a small toddler bed and as I sit up I see Littles crawling around and only a few waddling in thick diapers. I groan as I curl up in a ball as an Amazonian comes up to me. “Hey little man hows the diaper holding kiddo” I whimper and curl up tighter as I feel a hand touch my bottom and mess is pushed against me and i whimper in pain.

“Messy little guy lets get you changed Jamesy” The daycare worker picks me up and carries me to a near by changing table and untaped my overly messy diaper, exposing mess dried to my skin and a rash.

“Oh my, how long have you been in this Little one?” I stay silent as this person wipes me down and adds rash cream and powder to my diaper region. I lay quietly and look around and 2 male tweeners walk in along with a female Amazonian.

As I am fully changed I see the badges on the Males coats.

{LPS What does that mean}

{Maybe lts a mechanical or other service type thing}

As I mumble to myself the daycare worker holding me hands me to the amazonian making me scream and start swinging until she hands me to the taller tweener Name tag read [Cameron]. As I mumbled more the woman from LPS Suzan went to talk with the Daycare worker who changed me.

As Cameron rocked me and calmed me the other tweener [Danny] looked at my cast up leg and the bruises on my body and on my face.

“Hey James how old are you kiddo? Are you all there I mean?” Cameron asked quietly.

“18…. Please help me Mommy and Daddy are mean and I am scared.” As I cry more as I said those words I started holding onto Cameron tighter.  Cameron rubs my back and hums a soft tune.

“ Its ok we are here to save you well tale you to a better home for the time being bud your parents are in big trouble so you gonna spend the night at a nursery.” I start to whimper as I hear the last word {NOOO HYPNOSIS PLEASE NONONONONONOONONONO!}

As I curl into a ball in Camerons lap Suzan walks in and whispers something to Danny and Cameron carries me out of the room and out of the building and he puts me in a toddler seat. And sits in the seat next to me and Suzan sits in the drivers seat and Danny sits in the Passanger.

“Hey James you thirsty or hungry sweety you look pretty skinny even for a little,” Suzan asks as quietly and calmly as she can and I look and Cameron and Nod a little.

“James just nods Suz. May need to try and get him to spend some time with you at the center.” Cameron comments with a little concern and sadness.

“Alrighty Cam I will stop somewhere and get him a Littles Meal or Child's meal and I am not shocked he is wary of me honestly his mommy probably hurt him that badly.” Suzan says sadness still in her voice.

Danny looks at me and waves a little and grabs a stuffed wolf and a sippy cup out of a bag.

“Hey bud you want a little friend? Here is some Dr.Peppy as a treat or something to help a little.” Danny says his voice making me smile a little as I take the stuff wolf and cup I start to drink the soda as snuggle my new stuffed friend.

Chapter 3 Littles Foster Center

As I sit and think Sippy now empty we stop at a Burger Queen and pull up to the drive threw I look at the menu but its written in a weird language so I just look at the wolf and hug it.

“Hello may I take your order?” Came a mechanical voice.

“Yes may I get a Wander Burger and a Littles King Burger meal please with tomatoes and lettuce on the burger… Dan and Cam what do you two want?” Suzan says.

“I wouldn’t mind a Kings Burger with some Fire Fries” Danny replies.

“I will take a Imposible Wander Burger.” Cam says.

As the orders we pull up to the first window and a young female Amazon greats us and I whimper slightly.

“Hello you ordered the …... ?” Asks the female.

“That is correct.”  Suzan says.

As I try to shrink in my seat the Amazon looks at me and smiles kindly. I whimper more and start to cry.

“Umm is your Little One ok ma’am?” Asks the Teen

“Yeah he is. We just had to take him from his Mommy and Daddy we are apart of LPS and he isn't use to his new life either so we are taking him out to try and help,” suzan sighs sadly as I cry more and I try to curl into a ball.

As we pull from the window and grab the food we pull out and drive to a building that I suspect is the Center as Suzan parks the car and Danny and Cameron ger out and Cameron picks me up and carries me into the building where a receptionist greets us.

“Hello Suzan! Who is this Little guy?” the woman asks and I just stay quiet holding onto Cam tight.

“This is James. We need to get him a room where he is with just male staff for the time being because….” Suzan whispers something to the receptionist and she nods saddened slightly.

Cam sits down with me in his lap as Suzan hands me my meal and I attack it hungrily growling when Cam tells me to slow down as I practically inhale my lunch ignoring that its sweet and my stomach starts to hurt. I groan as I finish everything and I look at Cam.

“I’m done Cam can I please go to the bathroom?” I ask quietly and Cam looks down at me.

“I was told not to let you use the potty, Little Man gotta follow my bosses orders Kiddo,” Cam says as he ruffles my hair and eats his meal.

I roll my eyes as I wiggle a bit my stomach growls louder and I look up at Dan fearfully. “Please Let me use the toilet I don’t need diapers!” Starts to cry and hold my stomach. As I sob in pain I feel my gut let go and I start chewing on my hand. Dan looks at Cam and then at Suzan nodding at Cam and once again I feel a needle penetrate my skin and me passing out.

“ATTENTION ALL VISITORS VISITING HOURS ARE COMING TO AN END IN 5 MINUTES! PLEASE MAKE WAY TO THE EXITS AFTER YOU WRAP UP WITH WHOM YOU ARE VISITING AND PLEASE THROW AWAY ALLLLLLL YOUR TRASH THE LITTLE ONES WILL GET INTO IT IF NOT PICKED UP THANK YOU AGAIN FOR VISITING!”

As the loud speaker sounding I had woken up screaming. “FUCK FUCK FUCK! WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT!!!” as I scream out and after a few moments I calm down enough and I look at my surroundings. {Where the hell am I? Why am I not in school?} I shift my body and I hear a loud crinkling and I go wide eyed.

“WHY THE FUCK AM I IN A DIAPER!!!! WHY THE FUCK ARE MY LEGS IN CASTSSSSS!!!” As I scream out and I try to pull the diaper off the door opens wide.

“Hey Little Man, How was your nap?” The man says as he walks in.

“WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU WHY THE HELL AM IN DIAPERS AND WHY ARE MY FUCKING LEGS IN CASTS!!!!!!!!.”

“James what is the last thing you remember because we met a little over a day ago.”

“The hell? What day is it…….I remember being bitched at by someone I don't remember I know I was at school though. Please help me who ever you are.”

“I am Cam Bud and you are at the LPS Foster Center” Cam picks me up and grumbles something and opens the door me still in his arms.

“Did something to me to why I am here and Is it why I have cast’s on my legs?” Unsure and relaxed in this strange yet familiar man’s arms.

“It doesnt matter right now James I need to find Suzan and Dan.” As Cam walks around he stops by an area full of Littles and tells something to the Amazon here in a different language and sits me down in the play area.

“Be good James I will be back once I can find Dan and Suzan. Ok?”

“Sure thing…” I roll my eyes and a little boy crawls up to me. He is in nothing but his diaper which is noticeably soaked.

“Hewwooooooo I Timmy whoz yoooo!!!!” Timmy babbles drool flying a little as he speaks.

“I’m James…. Now leave me alone.” Timmy Starts to poke my cast and I groan.

“DUDE LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE MY CASTS ARENT FUCKING TOYS!.” As I yell Timmy starts to cry and the other littles start to cry and I just bury my head in my hands until I feel to hands pick me up.

“I see a little boy has a potty mouth and needs a little quiet time” a female voice says and I start hyper ventalating.

“No no nononononon.imsorrypleasedonthurtmeiwasupsetpleasedontbreakmybones!!!!” I start sobbing and wiggling around scared to death.

“SASHA! Put James down please!” another female yells.

“But Suzan he cursed at another baby….” the tweener holding me says but sets me on the ground. Cam runs in with another male tweener and Cam picks me up a Amazon strolls in.

“Cam what did you need to talk to us about?” The woman asks.

“James has no memories of anything that has happened and he barely remembers the day he was taken.”

“Is this true James.” I look up at Suzan and whimper burying head into Cam.

“NUUU WANNN GO BACK TO MOMMY AND DADDYYY DEY GONNA HURTIES ME CAMMY DANNY SABE MEEE!” I Babble and flail about.

“Cam seems James is all baby.” Danny replies.

“He was ok before he was picked up by Sasha…. I swear he was ask Dave.” I wiggle around as Cammy talks with Suzan and Danny.

“Cammy tinkie.” I look up at him unsure if it was me.

“James did you make Poopies buddy?” Danny asks me. I just giggle and wiggle around thumb in mouth.

“If he is still an adult partly how do we know its not him fighting it?” Suzan asks.

Cammy hands me to Danny and I giggle happily.

“I think in James he becomes a Baby when he is triggered by a Trauma to create this side of him like tweener or amazon females.”

“So are you saying his maturity is still there but he is only a baby because its a Trauma response?”.

“HUNGGEEEE I WANN NUMMIEEESSS” I screech out.

“Dan take him to dave to have him play with the other babies and see if dinner time is soon.”

Dan nods and sits me in next to Timmy and he flenches from me.

“I sowwy timmy I nuu mean tuuuu uhhhh I dun member waaa i did Buu I bery sowwy.Fwens?” Timmy looks at me and hugs ne tight.

“Fwenssss Jammmsss”

Timmy hand me a toy train and he grabs a toy car and we crash them together and he falls on top of me and I feel something in my diapee……..

Chapter 4: “Wrestling fun”

As Timmy looked down at his diaper he giggles slightly. “Jamssss oo fingy pokies?”
I whimper as Timmy lays on my and moves his hips a bit. “OOOO TIMMYYYY OO making my peepee feel good waa we doings fwend.” Timmy moans in response as he rubs our diapees together both us moaning loudly until a deep voice yell.

“TIMOTHY! JAMES! WHAT ARE YOU TWO DOING!” Timmy jumps off me with a squeak and grabs his teddy. A pair of rough hand grab me and lift me up and as I look at the man I whimper at the sight of his face. “I sowwy Pease nu pankies I be good boy,” I cry as the upset.

“Hey James, I wont do that I dont spank bud might need to tell Dan or Cam what I caught you doing with Timmy though,” {Was what I doing naughty I fought me annn Timmy was wrestling} I whimper a little as the rough handed man carries me to Cammy.

“CAMMMIIIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE” I reach out and wiggles around wanting Cammy. But instead of handing me to Cammy he hands me to Danny and I shrug and suck my thumb contently. Until I hear a familiar voice.

“WHERE THE FUCK IS MY BABY BOY HE WAS NOT ABUSED OR ANY FUCKING LIES THAT SHITTY DAYCARE SAID!” Mommy yelled as she stormed into the room making me scream.

“Nuuuu sabe me anny ease” Thumb now turning red and as I flail about and scream more until I have a pacifier in my mouth but instead on inflating it I suck on it and cling on danny for dear life.

“Ma’am you can’t be here you where caught hurting James and was he legally adopted because he isnt in the adoption history? We will call the police if you dont leave now” Danny stares a Mommy and she looks at me as try and hide my face.

“Hand me my Little I adopted him and would never hurt him even if he is a little brat” I cry loudly as I wet myself and push on Danny and he sets me on the floor and I army crawl towards the play room and see sasha watching the littles and i tug on her pant leg.

“Alp anny ease ommy being meany tu hims” I look at the big lady and cry.

Sasha says some words in another language and picks me up making me flinch in fear and she sits me in the play pen and runs to where I came from. As I cry a group of 4 littles waddle to me.

“Hewwoo I Tima I fwee i fink das waa me dadda tolded mes!.” The smallest little said.

“I Bennn I Wike twucks ann Muppets!” The blonded hair boy exclaims.”

“I Bewwa I ben bens sissy I wike Twucks tooo dey make funny noises!” the red headed girl says

“I’m Nick I was taken here after they found me in tore up clothes and thought I was an abused little like all the other babies here.”

I stay quiet sucking my paci tears dripping as the 3 fully regressed littles crawl away and Nick sighs and sits next to me. I crawl into his lap and cry as he wraps his arms around me.

“Its ok kiddo I know you where forced to be like this shhh its ok buddy I will always be here I am in your boots.” As nick rubs my back and rocks back and forth I fall asleep cuddling him as he does.

Chapter 5: “Back Home”

As I slowly wake up I whine a bit and sit up.

“Where the hell am I. Where is the Cam person,” I say to myself and I let out a yawn and struggle to sit up. [What happened? Wasn't I just talking to Cam.] As I look around I see I am in a small room a room I can barley remember.

“CAMMMM WHERE ARE YOU! DANN WHERE ARE YOU BOTH PLEASE IM SCARED!” As I scream I hear a slamming of a door and the door to my room is kicked open.

“Would you just shut it you little shit Mommy has a migraine unless you want another spanking!” Mommy screams at me.

“Nooooo I’m so so so sorry please I’ll be good” I curl up as best I can. I feel a hand slam into my back and I cry out loud. {Why does mommy hate mes!}

“SHUT UP YOU LITTLE SHIT OR YOU WILL GET MORE”

I continue to cry as she slaps my back more and then she leaves slamming my door and locking it. I sob and chew on my hand…..

I sit up screaming in fear I feel a wetness on my bum. Suzan and a tweener runs in on me crying and hugging myself. “Hey sweetheart you ok baby.”

“Do I look ok bitch I am stuck in a diaper and just had a bad dream,” cries harder out of fear..

“Language James and Cam told me this would happen.”

“Where is Cam I don't know why im scared of you but I am please get Cam,” I cry a little and hug the stuffed wolf on the bed.

“Bud Cam had to go somewhere so I can’t get him and I am pretty  sure you need a change?” Suzan asks in a soft tone.

I nod in response and I lift my arms so She can pick me up. Suzan sets me on the changing table and grabs a Monkeyz diaper and untapes my used on and puts it in the diaper pail as she wipes me down I whimper as she does and she diapers me back up and lifts me and carrying me to the cafeteria.

“Dinner is already over do you want to have some cereal instead of baby food Sweety.” Suzan asks. I nod but keep my head down and she sits me on a booster seat at the table. Suzan sets a bowl of cheerios in front of me and I eat with my hands out of fear of having it taken from me.

“Slow down honey It’s not gonna be taken from you,” Suzan exclaims worriedly. I continue shoveling my face with the cereal until its gone and I look up.

“How do I know I feel like I am scrawny and I have this feeling that is telling me to stay away from you.” I sigh not sure why though.

“Its ok James can i take you out to the playroom to be with the other littles?”

I nod and she grabs me gently and carries me to a room that has a kids show playing. I look at her and whimper.

“Its not the Special cartoons bud we hate those its just cartoons that are played for Amazon and tweener Toddlers i promise.” Suzan sits me next to a brown haired boy and he hugs me and I pull away.

“James why did you do that? I am trying to hug you to try and help comfort you?”

“I dont know you why do you know my name?” I look at the boy in fear.

“Shit you really aren't a full baby…. but why cant you remember me I was comforting you earlier I am Nick.”

“What do you mean you comforted me I thought Cam did…” Nick looks at me and I feel a strong sense of calm as he grabs my hand.

“You and I talked and you crawled onto my lap and fell asleep on me.”

“I must have because I don't really know what happened when I regress like that what is happening!” I start crying and chewing on my arm out of fear.