Still alive !

Once again I'm surprised to see people pledging despite the fact I can't create much content ( I should say none) Thank you for helping me with my treatments trough your pledge. Since the last time I posted here , days have been very difficult. If you follow me on Instagram then you know I had very tough moments. I didn't have one single day since then thsy I could describe as " not great but okay." I had two of them in July and 1 one August . I'm really starting to wonder if there will be an improvement . I'm still on a course of 3 different antibiotics ( for my tummy) as long as I take them I'm able to eat my usual food without being too sick nor losing too much weight ( chicken, fish, eggs, zucchinis ,rice , not that I don't want to eat anything else , but more like I can't eat anything else ) and I started taking cbd oil drops for the pain. I don't know if it's working already because my muscles and joints still burn and hurt as soon as I move ( but at least not when I keep still) I'm still tired beyond words. ( when I think people have been living with Chronic fatigue syndrome for years without feeling better , I'm really scared..) and it doesn't help on the fever and dizziness either. And of course I'm still taking like a full shelf of health supplements as well. This is a post filed with insecurities , sorry. So as you can see, I play Pokemon a lot. lol. I also force myself to draw a little bit. I really want to draw , to do something of my days , but as soon as I'm in front of my desk , I'm so tired that I often have to take a break and go back to sleep ( otherwise I end up feeling really bad like more than usual ) . I still have pics of my blue fairy photo shoot to post ( but the app on my phone doesn't allow me to post more than one pic so I'll do it later. ) I must say , lately I have become very insecure about cosplay, . I'm not even sure I'll be able to wear my last Tink's costume someday. I promise you though I'll never stop to try. ( only if I feel okay enough still) . I may sound very depressed ( maybe I am a little bit indeed) But I'll never stop fighting. I don't know if I'll get my life back someday but I don't want to die , I want to live ! I want to travel and meet the wonderful people who are here and cheering me up almost everyday. I wish you a pleasant day wherever you are and remember to enjoy your health and you life. Put all small problems into perspective , and enjoy all tiny single little things :) Clef - Laurence.