Thank you for you support during all these years. Thank you for your love, your friendship, your interest,
I couldn't achieve what I achieved, I wouldn't be who I am now without you.
But today I'm here to say goodbye to you. Indeed.
I'm stopping cosplay. Why you ask ?
Because today we entered a new world. A world where I don't fit. A world which is not my world.
A world where I won't be able to live freely , where people like me are considered worse than cockroaches. A world where cosplay is the last of my worries. A world where cosplay is only for insouciant people living like they are told to, not grasping what is actually happening to those who don't fit first, and then to everybody .
I'll need to survive the upcoming months in a world where I won't be able to go anywhere
( well... I have already been unauthorized to go to theaters, sports, concerts, exhibitions, trains, planes etc etc... for 8 months) but now it will be even worse. People like me won't be allowed to work, shop, travel etc etc.. Only those who comply will have their place in this beautiful and integrative world.
Because I refuse to be injected with a product that could literally kill me because of my condition and with a product which already killed and maimed many but mainstream medias won't tell you this .
Doctors are so terrified to loose their job that they won't talk about it and they won't sign exemption either ! In which normal world is that normal?
I don't want to continue participating in a community that calls me stupid and Nazi when I'm actually trying to warn people about the danger of some of the injections and of the terrifying world that is coming ahead of us which is called Agenda 2030 / Great Reset ! ( please just stop with the conspiracy theorist old tune)
Now it's not the time to have fun and cosplay anymore. I need to focus on how to survive the upcoming months . Now that my doctor has been suspended because he tried to warn and resist , I need to find new ways to get my medication. I could get a prescription for the next 6 months, but after that, it's the unknown.
I'll also need to go to Romania see my father before the first of July when the EU Digital Covid Certificate is implemented . If this world keeps going the way it goes, it's probably the last time I'll be able to see him .... and I won't be able to see any of you anymore.
Many will suffer from what's coming for us all ( especially Europeans ), not only people like me. So I wish you good luck.
I'll keep posting some stuff on Instagram like drawings and old costumes times to times but that's it. I'm also going in May to the last festival I'll be authorized to go (a small medieval festival called Fenrir where I' m going to have a booth for my drawings and probably dress as Tinkerbell one last time if my body allows it)
But...I feel happy! The atmosphere feels really good. Even Pitchoune got at ease in less than 2 hours !!! I'm looking forward to my new life here. π₯°
Now I need to heal. Next step will be a fibroscopy because my stomach is a torture and it's doesn't get better with the antacids and a very restrictive diet. I lost 3 kg again. It was not easy moving with that pain. At least now it's done !
I believe I need sometime to rest and my Mom will need some too. She's got stuck with a sciatica flare up after lifting one of my boxes. I don't know when I'll be back on track with cosplay yet then. I really need to rest before planning what's next.
Even though I was moving, I went voting. I feel like France is doomed...
anyway here are some pics of my new place :):
The sun goes down exactly in the middle of that tree standing right in front of my balcony.
I finally moved home. My new flat is smaller than the first one ( first picture is the old one) but I have a balcony so it's better ! There is a sewer problem in my flat though and let me tell you that that smell is something. Puah! π₯΄.
Since the building is brand new , the manufacturer will be contacted and I hope they'll solve the problem soon.
I have so much stuff to move. Two friends came to help me and my mom. I don't know how I would have done without them.
I'm still not living in the new home since it stinks (π ) and I still don't have a bed and I need to buy many cupboards and closet to sort my mess. ( I really don't know how my cosplay stuff will fit )
During this same week my health troubles didn't take vacations ... ( what a surprise!) I have been having a strep infection ( taking antibiotics again !!!><) and a ulcer on my stomach!π ( when will it stop??) It is so painful even with the antiacids and I can't take any pain killers... I haven't been eating anything since yesterday ( lightest birthday meal ever!) and don't plan on eating tomorrow either because It doesn't improve at all when I eat >< .
Let me tell you It was not easy to move and sort stuff with that kind of pain .
So for the moment I'm at my mom's house . I hope I'll be able to occupy my new flat by next week ( but as long as the sewer smell is not eliminated I won't stay over there)
I'll show you more pictures when it's done .
Going to sleep right now. See you soon. And thabk you for being here ! π
Just posting these photos before going on a hiatus during my moving. I didn't get many good pictures. Most of them turned blurry and since I'm not in my best shape I didn't have the energy to retake them until it was sharp and defined. Posing was also very difficult because of my muscle pain ^^,,, ( and after I had to vacuum while wearing my costume after I broke the light, my energy levels dropped rapidly to zero lol)
I tried to edit some pics with lightnings effects like in the anime but most of the photos I wanted to add special effects where all a blurry mess ( because I was moving and there was no one to take the pics for me ^^,,)
I also hesitated to do this makeup: maybe I should do anther quick phone shoot with it just for fun ^^π
I looked as ugly as he is with that makeup on when I broke the light bulb that was hanging from my ceiling. Face is saying " oh shit, what did I do?": π€£π€£π€£
Anyway, I'll also redo the wig for my next Zenitsu cosplay ( regular uniform) I'm not happy with how it looks on my pictures so I'm gonna try another styling technic.
I must post a picture on instagram but I can't decide which one, toh!
See you soon, it will probably be in my next apartment. :) ππππππ Take care .π
A bientΓ΄t ! Clef
I don't know why Patreon makes the pics look even more blurry and doesn't allow to watch them full size. (unless you open them in another tab)
She feels a bit better cause they have given her cortisone. And she's gonna be taking it for about 3 weeks. I hope I'll find a good diet that don't make her inflammation flare up in the future. She'll have another blood test and ultrasound in a couple weeks and then maybe the biopsy to confirm or not crohn disease.
I feel like she's absorbed my pain for so long that it made her ill . Because at the moment I'm in the same state. I've been barely eating for days because of the pain in my stomach. But seeing my kitty cat going trough the same is heart breaking. Since she's back she is glued to me. She wants cuddles all the time it is so cute. I love her so much. β€β€β€
I hope you don't mind I post about her. I went to see her at the clinic. They will keep her for a couple days since she can't eat and she will have to have a biopsy done. Her stomach is full of water and the blood tests and ultrasounds show inflammatory levels that could mean Crohn disease....
It's like she absorbed so much of my tummy pain for 5 years than she is now ill too...
I pray that it's not Crohn and just a temporary flare up . At least they gave her the prettiest blanket .
I thought Pitchoune was finally getting better after 15 days of being sick but it's not the case. Today she's been hospitalized. She doesn't eat anymore, she's got fever , she is being dehydrated , She'll have several tests today and tomorrow. Please could you send her prayers so she can heal quickly ? Thank you.
I'm in tears. I love her so much. She's one of the reasons I still get up in the morning. I wish I could take all her pain.
Hello there. It's just a post to let you know about my situation at the moment .
Poor Pitchoune has been sick for 2 weeks now . It looks like an intestinal infection ( she's copying me π€) She started a course of antibiotics 3 days ago and yesterday she really didn't look good but today she seems better. What a relief !
I'm very very tired after that last photoshoot. My body is aching a lot with dizziness and fever but this was to be expected. So I'm going very slow with everything . And I think I'm also having a bad reaction to the anesthesia I got for my tooth on tuesday . I feel really like s**t.
I'm also continuing preparing my house move but since it's exhausting for me, I'm just doing a couple box a day. I started packing in January and it's still not finishedπ . But now my living room looks empty . π
For my previous move, everything was done in just a few days. π
Obviously, for the next few weeks, I'll be busy with my moving so I'm not gonna update a lot .
I have no idea how my new flat will look like. It's a complete surprise. I just got the architect's drawing and that's it. ( and it says the final result may differ on many points ) They don't want to let me see the appartement before moving in ( the woman in charge even got mad at me when I said I didn't think it was normal not being able to see the appartement I'll rent)... But I don't really have much choice, I need to leave this current flat at any cost so I'm ready to go anywhere as long as it's not in front of that bloody antenna.
I'll keep you up to date. I can't wait !
Oh, they say the infamous "passeport vaccinal" is being lifted soon in my country. π₯³ Right. Cool news.
But it won't change much for many people . At last on the health subject. Indeed, doctors and all the other supended nursing staff will not be reintegrated and hospitals are still asking for the passeport sanitaire ( meaning paying all your tests when unvaxed, which is not an option for many.)
Luckily for me, I'm not one to be stopped this easily. And I found new ways to get my "conspiracy theorist's"treatment without my suspended doctor. You know the one that helped me getting out of my bed-ridden state in the past ? ( But sadly that's how most actual French doctors define these treatments because they don't know anything about them )
I contacted an NGO contitued of many fench supended doctors. And since it's a non governemental organization, they are allowed to prescribe!! π₯³. And all these suspended doctors have a wider vision of health and cures . I spoke with one of them and she agreed to make the prescription. She also documented herself on my treatment she didn't know much about but she had heard of it by the Frontline Doctors (which is an organization that use it in the USA to treat long covid) She'll probably use it in the future too ( they have a lot of covid and long covid patients who are not being treated by usual doctors)
So now I'm waiting to receive it :) . I never give up :) π€πͺ
And at least Il be able to take the train to see my friends.!!π₯³ ( and I hope my father ! Which I didn't see for 3 years! ) For the next couple months at least. Before they put it back again.
And I need your opinion. Which version do you prefer? -without lightning, -with lightning around the character , -with lightning around the character and lightning on the katana?
Thank you for letting me know
Edit : I added 3 slightly different versions with stronger contrasts and colors. I'm still looking for the right ambiance. I guess I like theses versions more. Regarding my question, it looks like the answer depends of your personal tastes so I don't really know which one is really better looking ^^;;;;
I wish I could tell you I've finally achieved that first Zenitsu photoshoot but I didn't.
I just could do a quick make-up test on a day my body was strong enough to stay a couple hours in function... I didn't even have the energy to put the kimono right . It's so not like me to leave things half-done but I would have nothing to show you otherwise .
I've been dealing with so much pain everyday that I don't know when I'll be able to install my background , fully dress and take pictures. .... Lately, every other day, I can't even walk , stand up, or eat. π
It's like everything is going back to how it was in 2016-2018 ..... But I don't even cry anymore. It's a reality . I'm disabled and I'll probably never heal.
I'll probably know better times but also the opposite , until the end. π€·ββοΈ
Being frustrated won't change a thing.
The good news is that I finally got a date for my new flat. First of April I'm out of here !π
I really want to make that photoshoot before my place turns a mess. π€
I'm going to work on the brow's makeup a little more. I tried to draw their shape like in the anime but I think I prefere a natural look. I'd like to do another test also with the lens but its putting too much strain on my body at the moment.
I really feel like I'm the shadow of who I was.
Sorry for these depressing last posts. I'm considering putting this Patreon on hold again since I'm struggling to achieve the smallest thing . π
Before /after. As you can see, It's ready for Zenitsu season 2 costume :).
I'm just doing a small post to show the process of styling my Zenitsu Wig.
I don't know when I'll be okay enough to make the shoot. My health hasn't been great lately. All the progress I made in 2019 are gone. I'm back to how I was in 2017-2018..
And If you follow my Instagram you know that my doctor has been suspended because he doesn't want to be injected ( he has the same illness I have , except it's not as bad , but that's s why he'll never get injected. ) So he can't no longer prescribe the treatment I used to take during 2017-2019 and which helped me tremendously. And I can't find a doctor who will accept to do the prescription since none of them know about it. ( low dose naltrexone)
So as of today, I'm not only a citizen no more ( as said by our president), not allowed to go anywhere and do anything but I'm also denied being treated.
This is France in 2022....
So I don't know what the future will hold but It's not looking bright.
I'm going to do anything to find a doctor that can prescribe me LDN anyway. If you know of someone like that , please tell me. π
Back to Zenitsu:
I forgot to take a pic just before starting so the only untouched pic I have of it got my face on it ^^,,,
or like this π
A shot of my "atelier " π . With my super comfy bed Xd. ( still no news from my new flat.) I used 2 alcohol pens, 1 cissor , a comb, 1 hair spray bottle and an hair dryer
I shortened the lengths and combed the wig to make strands of hairs which I sprayed and heated together with the hair dryer ( Withe the heat, the hair spray will harden and the wig will keep its shape) . And then I used the pen to paint the orange parts cause the base color of the wig itself wasn't flashy enough
Showing you my working uniform again. FFP3 because my body doesn't handle the smell of the pen and spray and my usual anti EMF clothing which I'm wearing non-stop : I look so sexy.
Or not.
Then when the spraying and painting was done, I tied the pig tails . But as you can see, the net of the wig is showing. So I sacrificed a wig I had not been using to cut strands of hair and glue them where hair was missing
But since the color of the strands was different I used another alcohol pen to paint it the right color .
Et voilΓ .
The back still need a bit of work so I'm not showing it ^^,,,,
I wanted to install my background for the photoshoot but I've not been able to do anything today except this post.
Meh.
I definitely want to make that photshoot and show it to yoi before the end of February.
Please body !! ππͺπͺ
By the way, I enjoyed this Demon slayers season so much . Everything was perfect : the music, the animation, the story , the characters... Seeing Tanjiro, Zenitsu and Inosuke struggles give me strength. They never give up and they have a beautiful soul and heart. It made my weeks brighter lately and forget the nightmare some of us are living right now. I'll need to find something else to watch and love while waiting for season 3.
I wanted to show you the progress and the clothing I found for my Zenitsu cosplay But I'm feeling way to weak to wear them . So I did this video from my bed instead.
Some people might think I'm nuts and lost it regarding electromagnetic radiations but I can tell you my body doesn't lie to me. I have hypersensitivity to almost everything. And I can tell you it is no fun. Being disabled is not fun.
I 100% would prefere to be showing you my costumes and photos instead of being stuck in bed.
By the way, I couldn't find the limits of authorized radiations (Ε³T, Ε³W/cmΒ²) levels but I went around the whole city and there is only 1 other place being as bad as my building , it's in front of another antenna looking exactly the same as mine.
But even if the levels are still in the right range, my body doesn't care anyway and it's getting worse and worse, especially since July of 2021. Something changed with that antenna on that date . And I don't even need a device to know.
Hello there ! I can finally share this WIP with you. I was waiting for the poster to be released .
It's a medieval/ fantasy/ roleplaying festival that will take place near my home but as you know, I won't be allowed to go since I'm not a citizen anymore. That's a pity.
It took me quite a long time to finish this because last week I had to go trough some hard times because of my health. Do you know what chemical sensitivity is ? It's part of my chronic symptoms. It means my body reacts badly to chemicals and smells even to things like oil or perfume. I need to be wary of everything : food additives, beauty products, meds, cleaning products etc...) And a week ago, I was cleaning my bathroom and used a product to unblock my sink because vinegar wasn't an option anymore ( I also react to vinegar though ><) . I'm usually very cautious while handling this kind of product but this time; I totally forgot I used it in my sink. And I brought my face a couple centimeters close to the unrinsed product when I went to drink directly from the tap water (something I never usually do !). Immediately, my head started to ache badly and a couple hours later, I couldn't even stand up. So I had to stay4 days in bed after that, not having enough strength to stand up ( I was like jelly) , dizziness, headaches, nausea , stomach aches, and my temperature dropped 1 Β°C below my normal temperature.
Yep, just because I put my head too close to that smell for 10 seconds. And since then, it's been difficult to walk.
Anyway, luckily I had done the most part of the drawing so even though the deadline was very close, I could finish in time as soon as strengths came back to me.
So here is the process I went trough for this illustration :
First , the client didn't have a clear idea of what they wanted aside from an elf and a dwarf arguing and a wolf. So I did some sketches but without really picturing the whole thing:
Then the client had a brainstorming with their team and came up with a clearer idea and more defined characters : a kid with a dragon costume, an elf arguing with a dwarf wearing a mace looking like a role playing dice , and the Okami pup witch is the mascot of their business .
They wanted something that would indicate it's also a festival for kids . My client pictured an horizontal scenery ( something like the Beatles on Abbey Road's crossing ) but I chose another direction because I though it would look more inviting and dynamic this way:
After defending my point of view, the client agreed and I kept working on this version (the one with the abbey road crossing style will be used later for another purpose :))
The client also asked for a classic composition with a wolf face in the sky that would be part of the background. I wasn't too fond of that idea :
So I suggested a cloud looking like a wolf instead. For the castle , I got inspired by an existing castle I wish I could visit someday . It's called Chris Mark Castle and it looks straight out from a fairytale !
and I started colouring .
almost done : I need to add light details and to move some parts. I've been using Clip Studio Paint for a couple months now. I find this software really really incredible !
and the result:
I couldn't even tell you how many hours I spent on this because I was only working a couple hours on it each day, which is the amount of time my body allows me to work.
Next post will be cosplay !
I improved the Zenitsu wig, found some part for my costume (that I still have to modify though) and so far, it looks good :)
Just to let you know I received my Zenitsu wig ( and also a photo so you can notice I'm still alive and still in my old flat ( the new one won't be finished constructing before the next couple months I'm afraid >< )
And the wig fits me better than I thoughtπ ( it needs a bit of styling though so I didn't take any picture yet) So I'm going to make both versions. The normal one and the one when he is disguised as a girl π€ (which is his current outfit in the latest episodes π )
Obviously it won't be done for January since I need to receive the materials . And because I don't like sewing at all, I'm going to look around for accurate clothing parts that I can transform/improve because the full costumes they sell on the internet are all "meh" quality . Yes I'm not a "true" cosplayer ( well at least by western standards) . Never been. If I can find a part of a costume that already exists and is of good quality, I'll go for it and only make it myself if I can't find what I'm looking for.
Oh by the way, I just sold one of the costumes I'm the most proud of ( Cerise Wolf, the one with the big red cape and wolf head, which I dit myself XD ) . I'm a bit sad but at least, it will have a second life . And since I'm not allowed to go to conventions anymore, at least I'll have some pictures of it , living it's own life in places I can't go :) I don't know why I'm telling you that. I'm feeling chatty.
Sorry for the lack of news. Winter isn't the best period of the year for me . And what's happening here in France is not helping at all. I know Italia is not any better and I believe Germany and Austria are in the same black hole but I hope the rest of you are OK.
I've not been having enough courage to think about a photoshoot this month I'm sorry. Too much pain. Like it happened in January 2020, once again it's my fault: I know it's a tough period for me to start with but once again I couldn't resist eating tiny bits of a "galette des rois"π
It's a traditional cake here and I know I should not eat it because it's gluten. But I miss it so much. (You have no idea how I miss eating bread and pizza also ) . Well, I couldn't resist taking some bites because everyone is eating them and wherever you look at, they are selling these cakes. I've been paying the price since... ><π
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I'm waiting to receive my Zenitsu wig to try a makeup and decide which costume I'm going for (the classic zenitsu costume or the one when he is disguised as a girl) π
And instead of focusing on cospaying , I've been working slowly ( I can't work more than a couple hours a day ) on a drawing commission for an upcoming French festival. Are you interested in seeing some sketches ? I also did some fanarts . It's the only things I can show you this month. βππ
First, I wish you a year full of courage and love.
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( People who know what I'm referring to will understand the "courageous" part . I don't know what will happen of people like me in the near future seeing how it's going on in France.π₯)
That is why I need to keep holding on and keeping sharing my work with you !. π€ It's one of the only place I can still share some light and love. But I won't lie to you. Sometimes I just want to give up. And then I get a private message reminding me why I'm here.π
Many of you regularly tell me that they almost "need " what I've been sharing trough my photos over the years ( I don't know exactly what it is but numerous people told me the same thing) And I thank you for it .There is no better compliment for me that knowing I'm able to put a smile on someone's face .
Thank you from the bottom of my heart for loving the energy and love I put thought my photos.
I've been torturing my mind about finding a cosplay I'd like to make for January but I really can't find one that I would like to do.
And I remembered I have been keeping this cute item in my closet, would you mind if I'm using this to make a photoshoot instead of a precise character? It look a bit skimpy but I'm aiming for cute and cheerful , not provocative. ( well you know me)
Concerning costumes ideas , lately, my heart has been captured by an anime probably a lot of you know about or have heard of : Kimetsu no Yaiba ( demon slayers)
And I like to cosplay characters who speak directly to my soul. And there are several in this anime who I feel connected to. Except they are all boys !
Damn!
I don't really like the girls because except for Nezuko and the butterfly girls , they are all in there to show boobs.. . which is not my cup of tea .
I feel deeply connected to Tanjiro and Rengoku. I believe I would be a mix of these characters if I was an anime character ( with a dop of Zenitsu for the "apparent "weakness and a portion of Inosuke for the absolute crazy personality and his way of eating food)
What do you think ? Should I got for it anyway ? The 3 main characters are boys , not men so It may be easier to look the part.
Here are the characters which I may be able to portray
Tanjiro , the main character
Nezuko, Tanjiro's sister ( shame I don't like at all the mouth thing which is keeping her from bitting .)
And zenitsu
I'm not even posting the other characters I talked about since they all look like men.
Zenitsu is probably the one that would fit me the best.
( and they also have a version where they are disguised as girls π€£. Not really convincing though π€£ ).
Hello my dear patrons. I hope you had a beautiful Christmas .
I'm just a couple days late but I did my best I promise !
December had started so badly with my health that I didn't think I would be able to make a photoshoot. But since I improved during my stay by the ocean, I decided to give it a a try as long as I might feel good enough, because I don't know how much time it will last ( and It has already been going downward since then ..).
We went back home on the 24 of December so I installed a quick setup for the 25. I didn't go for any Christmas diner /lunch since we kinda spent our Christmas together with my mom and brother when we where on the seashore , so I spent christmas day cosplying instead XD.
Sorry, the colors are a bit strange. I did not use my usual lights settings and camera, only my phone, my red light therapy device I use for treating pain and my winter light therapy lamp ( that's why it's so reddish, you can't change the color ^^,,,) πππ I think it's funny when my healing stuff is also useful for anything but health π
When you think the remote controller is not working but has been recording everything without you noticing : ( it's an animated GIf, I don't know if the app allows it to play.)
The face that says it all:
And I just noticed that I had lipstick on my teeth during the shoot and with the lights setup it looks like a have shorter teeth on some pics πππππ
See you soon. I need to find a cosplay idea for January ! :)
And I wish you a happy/beautiful/better new year ! ++ Clef
Hello my dear patrons. No cosplay for December sorry. :/
I hope you'll forgive me. I'm sharing this with you instead.
For Christmas, my family and I ( my mom and my brother), decided to go spend a week on the seashore.
Since I had been stuck in bed for nearly a month I was eager to go. At the risk of being couch ridden, I'd may as well be couch ridden with a nice view.
(Bye the way, The connection is really poor over there though, that's why I 'm doing an unique post.)
On the first day I was in pain and tired but like EVERYTIME I quit my apartment and go to the sea, my health improved really fast, the pain lessened in just 3 days and my strengths came back.
I really think there is something really bad for my health in my apartment and something really good for me near the ocean , because it is happening everytime I leave my place. First I thought it was a coincidence but not anymore. Each time I go to the sea, my health improves significantly and then I go back home and I relapse after a few days.. I guess I have a part answer to the question : what could be straining my body in this apartment ? I've been ill for almost 6 years now ( and it started just 2 months after I moved in, and the person before me was forced to move elsewhere because her health had deteriorated so much in this flat...) ) My doctor has been telling me for 5 years to move ( and I have been trying to for 5 years but since I can't work, it's very difficult for me to find something.) Anyway, long story short, I'll finally be moving home in a couple months ! (unfortunately not near the ocean but just in a couple streets afar from where I live now) We will see if my health improves or not!
Anyway let's go back to this week. I've been feeling a lot better, the pain almost faded entirely on the 3nd day.
As you can see on the pictures, we rented a cozy apartment with a nice view. It's being quite cold but it's been sunny most of the time :)
The beach is just in front of our place and it's very beautiful. There is not many people , I really like it, it's very soothing :).
Pitchoune the cat is having a good time too . I've been drawing a little bit and I'm hoping I'll be fine longer that usual when we go back home tomorrow.
I added 1 downloadable video where you can hear me sneezing so loudly that the sand around me almost freaked out XD. You can even hear my mom laughing XD . But my brother just don't give a damn ^^,,,,
Happy holydays and take care of your loved ones. Merry Christmas !
Hello my dear Patrons. Sorry I'm not bringing good news nor bringing bad ones either. Even less a Christmas photoshoot. I'm just still stuck with that neverending pain .Especially in my gallblader and stomach. It's so painful It's difficult to stay up ... My allergies to painkillers don't make it easier since I can't take anything.
It remind me of that painful flare up I went trough during 2018 . But at that time I was taking morphine , it was the only thing that would stop the pain and what I would not react to . Today I've become allergic to morphine. π€·ββοΈ So I've been trying to reach my doctor for a full week but the medical establishment is so crowded that the secretaries rarely reply to the Phone. I've never seen that in my whole life. And it's not covid crowded. ... I'd like to ask for an ultrasound but I don't know when I'll be able to reach him and then get an appointment .
I'll keep you up to date.
Thankfully I have internet and tons of manha/manwhas to read! See you soon and take care.
To let you know I'm still alive but staying up is actually very difficult.
But as you can see I'm not alone. ( God I look like when I was 14 on this picture XD. No makeup , no hair style , baggy clothes . I just lack the freckles π
Let's hope I'll be back on my feet in time to make that Christmas photoshoot. Take care my dear Patrons. She always staying by my side π₯°
Fantastic ! Fabulous ! I could do it in time this year !! Yipieee!!!! πππ
So ! This photoshoot is a bit different from what you are used to see. First because I'm brunette and it's not the color that fits me best and secondly because I did not try to look cute but very afraid !
The lights were also fun to make. it's not my usual type of lights (I usually use flat straight lights to smooth the lines and skin bumps and hollows, but not this time and honestly? to my opinion these kind of light look cool!)
A spooky themed photoshoot what was I was indeed aiming for ^^. The craziest is that it almost looks like there were some scary wind in my living room when there were notπ . ( my skirt is a good actor) I have been having this costume in my closet for about... 10 years maybe ? Maybe a little less, I honestly can't remember. A friend, who was a cosplayer at the time, sold her dress to me but I never had the opportunity to wear it (knowing brunette is not what fits me best). I tried to tell a little story, or should I say, a nightmare : Snow White walking into the forest with her basket. Finding an unexpected apple in it and starting to be afraid of it and of the howling sounds. Then, Snow White scared and running for her life and then falling on the ground.
Fun fact : I really did fell !! . Look at that face π€£π€£π€£. And the the best of it : the whole set fell down on my head at the very same timeπ€£π€£ ( but my camera didn't take the picture) . luckily for me, it was very light and did not do any harm XD:
Another "fun" fact : I'm allergic to apples so I can understand the feeling of biting into one π€£π€£π€£π€£
The last 5 pictures are just different photography styles ^^.
On the selfies I took before starting the photoshoot, I find a uncanny resemblance to another cosplayer you may know : Nikita cosplay. I sent her the photo and she said that indeed, we look somehow similar π especially here : I also recorded a video I put on instagram, I'll repost it on Youtube and put the link here.
Happy Halloween Everyone ! What are you going to do ?
A for myself, I'll be staying home. It's been a tough week and that photoshoot used all my vitality left . Like usual, I'll need some time to recover. Especially since lately my energy levels have been lower and the pain stronger. I finished my course of antibiotics but it left me with another new problem in my throat, mouth and stomach and I'm trying to get rid of it without the use of chemical treatment. If it doesn't get better by the end of next week, i'll have no other choice than taking more meds.
Don't hesitate to share your Halloween costume with me :).
As for myself, I'm still taking antibiotics; I'm being exhausted but it seems it's working well on the infection ! Still a few days to go. /o/ I really do hope I'll be able to take that bloody Halloween shoot before Halloween is over π π .
Here are the pics of the photoshoot we did with my friend Sam. I miss her a lot since I don't have any friend here and I can't take the train anymore and I don't have a driving license (even if I had one I couldn't use it anyway because of my constant muscle cramps and pain π ).
I need to watch the last season of fruits basket, I still haven't. here, have some silly backstage pictures ^^
But as of today , my body won't allow me to do the photoshoot ..
Besides my usual chronic pain and everything, I've been having a skin infection for more than 10 days and it's not getting better despite treating it first with natural treatments ( did not suffice) and then an antibiotic cream( and it is still not cured ). I've been having a slight fever for 4 days also and I'm exhausted so I'm trying to get back to my doctor to see what I can do. But the phone lines are so crowded that even the secretaries won't reply . ><π
But everything is fine they say...
I hope I'll be able to make the photoshoot in time for Halloween!!
Autumn is not my period. Each year I'm trying to make an Halloween photoshoot but I end up sicker than usual and have to delay it. ππ€ͺ
Can you guess the character ? (I'll probably look weird in this costume ahah π )
Update :
I went straight to the doctor cabinet since I couldn't reach them on the phone. Saw a locum since my official doctor isn't free before next Wednesday. Well, I tried all I could without taking oral antibiotics but I have no choice left. I'm tired of having to take antibiotics every 4 months. My tummy doesn't handle them at all and it makes me weaker to infections... >.< It's a snake biting it's own tail .
Hey hey there ! I hope you are doing fine ! At least better than I am lately (not too difficult I believe).
I'm actuallly ( slowly) working on the photoshoot we did with my friend Sam while she was spending some times at my home and I went back trough my old files to find my old pictures of my first Momiji Cosplay.
I've been watching the new 2019 version of fruits Basket and it's nice to see my favorites characters being back. Like Momiji^^. Sam asked me to accompany her Tohru Honda cosplay so I said yes. But this time, unlike in 2005, I didn't make the jacket . (And I think the 2005 jacket fits me better XD)
2020 version :
2000 version :
I was so young ^^Look at that innocent face^^. I can see I aged on this one, but well, I'm not immortal hehehe ^^... I think Iook more like a boy in 2021 though or is it just me ?
I'll make a new post with the photoshoot pictures soon.
Here is the last part of my Bulma photo shoot. There are a lot of pictures on witch ones I wasn't smiling. Well it was because I wasn't feeling too good and at the end of the shoot smiling was really too difficult ( I believe you can see the struggle on the last pic ^^,,)
Next photoshoot I post will have more smiles :3333
Oh! And I also found a photoshoot idea for Halloween with a costume I've been keeping in my wardrobe for years ! it's not a character that suits me the best since it's a brunette ( hehe it reminds me of Richards question XD), but I believe it's very fit for Halloween :). Will not tell more for now :)
Today is a very painful day because 2 days ago I chocked on water. I was drinking and water went down the wrong way. I couldn't breath at all, it lasted around 30 seconds before I could finally take a small breath ( my trachea was closed, I couldn't even cough). .Some water went down my lungs I believe seeing how it was burning after I could breath. And 20 minutes later I got an ophthalmic migraine (I guess it's was caused by the stress on my body because I never get migraine) .
I guess for normal people it would end here: just a good night of sleep and all is forgotten . But chronic illness = not normal .
Since yesterday my whole body hurts especially my back. It's like I've been hit by a truck. I remember feeling a strong pain like this a couple years ago after a car almost hit me and left me in shock . After that, pain was over the top. I guess it's the same process here. Stress does really wreck havoc on my body . It will probably last for a few more days before it goes away and I'm be fine . But when you think about it: a tragedy can happen really fast when your living alone at home, especially if you are old or ill. π±π³
Anyway, i'm going to make some doodle and think of something else because I'm still shaken.
You may have guessed it but I've been needing several days to recover from my holidays ! ^^,,, The outside world being really ugly in France lately , at least I don't miss it (except the beach/ ocean of course :3 )
In any case, I've been feeling a bit better since yesterday afternoon but not to the extent of going back on vacations with friends straight away or doing a new photoshoot XD.
So here are some more pics of my latest Bulma cosplay . I put side by side pictures of my new/old versions. ^^ (photos, makeup and wig are much better but the rest didn't really change. Ah yes ! My old hand made boots were broken so I had to replace them)
There are 12 years between these 2 photoshoots XD.
