an apology and an invitation <3
Added 2020-08-26 22:38:38 +0000 UTChi kg records family,
it's been weighing on me that i haven't been able to hold up my side of things here on patreon lately and i just wanted to apologize. despite my absence and lack of coffee dates, you're all on my mind often.
while jesse and i have certainly come a way in healing after the lost pregnancy at the beginning of july, grief still has its way of showing up out of nowhere, and the general pain of infertility has just been hitting a bit harder. we've been moving in and out of little depressive episodes and waves of grief, and on the days when we're mentally sound, functioning humans, most of our energy is having to go towards doctors appointments, procedures, and making big confusing decisions. navigating this path and all the accompanying emotions and traumas has become somewhat of a full-time job lately, and i am all too aware of the ways i am dropping balls in other areas of my life. thank you all for being patient and supporting me through this time, and i sincerely hope i can do better for you all soon.
in the meantime, i did publicly commit to doing an online concert this sunday, rain or shine. it'll be streaming on my youtube channel and facebook page at 1pm pacific time. would love to have your company <3
sending immense amounts of love and gratitude your way.
xo
kina
p.s. oh yeah--and i am releasing a brand new song on the 31st called "i never wanted anything more than i wanted you". in my typical fashion, i feel a mix of excitement and intense terror that it will be out in the world. but so it goes. gotta rip off the bandaid :)
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You don't ever need to apologise, Kina. We love you and we understand. Give yourself as much time and space as you need, we'll be here :)
2020-08-29 06:23:22 +0000 UTCI wasn't fully aware of the infertility issues, and I am so sorry for your loss. 17 years ago we lost a pregnancy, and just yesterday my wife had a moment of grief for it. As far as coffee dates, I am not a 'transactional' patreon. I am a patreon because I listen to your work, and I want you to continue making more music. I want the artists I support to be healthy and not worried about putting food on the table. Please keep working on you, your health and your marriage, and know that we all love you.
2020-08-27 17:31:01 +0000 UTCHey. On Sunday, we’ll have a laugh hanging out! But, for whatever reason, you feel like crying, do it. No need for a brave face. If you feel like just eating pie, do it. I’ll grab a fork and eat whatever’s in my fridge with you. If you want to have a staring contest, be prepared to lose because I’m the king of focus. What was I taking about again..? Oh, I remember! As long as we’re all together we’ll feel better. We’ll be better. :)
2020-08-27 13:18:12 +0000 UTCDon’t worry about us, take care of yourself right now. We all understand. We love you anyway!
2020-08-27 11:37:57 +0000 UTCKina, I've been a Patron of yours for over 5 years. I, and I suspect many others, don't support you because we want anything in return, we support you because you are a wonderful human being that makes beautiful music, and we want you to continue to make beautiful music. Please don't ever do something because you feel an obligation to do it or because you feel you owe us anything. The only thing I want is for you to continue making incredible music, but only at a pace that you're comfortable with. You and Jessie are going through a really tough time right now, but you both need to heal from the pain that you're both feeling. Take however long you both need to heal, and then come spend time with us after. You and Jessie's health and well being are more important to us than any piece of music or video you could ever create, and always will be. We love you both, and are sending you that love and support through this dark, dark time. Please only focus on helping and taking care of each other. Your family at KG Records will always be here for you in the meantime. Please take care.
2020-08-27 09:29:05 +0000 UTCI don’t support you to get things in return, I support you because I love you and everything you are and stand for. You add so much to people all around the world. Life requires no apologizes, only love and understanding. We always have your back. But I do have to say you may feel a little better hanging out with us, jus sayin’ you do have some cool foxes in KG Records. All in good time. Please remember to show yourself some self-love during this time. As always sending many #KinaHugs and positivity your way.
2020-08-27 08:36:23 +0000 UTCAlways remember that we support you as a human being first. Even if it takes a long time before your next step, whether that be a song, livestream or whatever, I think the wait just adds beauty and significance to that step, if we know it did you good. Life’s in the waiting, and we can appreciate that here too! ❤️ I understand that you want to get back into things though, and I’m thrilled about the new song and online concert!
2020-08-27 07:48:24 +0000 UTCThe biggest thing is your health. We will always support you. Life is full of ups and downs. Your music has helped me through some of my down moments as well as my up times. Let us hold you up during these times of being down. We will always love and support you and Jessie through bad and good. You're stuck with us. STAY STRONG.
2020-08-27 07:40:46 +0000 UTCYou do NOT need to apologise at all. This is a tough time for you both and you need to take your time to recover. Do not feel any pressure, we'll all still be here when you are ready! <3
2020-08-27 07:16:57 +0000 UTCSending you and Jesse so much love at this time. May you be exceptionally gentle with yourself and know your KG Records family is here for you x
David W
2020-08-27 06:58:54 +0000 UTC
