song/hangout/update :)

Perhaps like you, I fall away from the world and the connectedness of people from time to time and into myself, but this time I came out of it and found your post and this song in my email inbox and clicked through to Patreon which I don't always do anymore when life gets away from you. I've always loved this song and listening again takes me back to a sense of solace, a kind of comfort and peace. Thanks for sharing. Wishing you the same as you navigate through this chapter.

Hi Kina, sorry for your experience with infertility, and thank you for being open about it and sharing it here. It takes incredible courage, as it can make it a vulnerable space. Your struggles are more common than many think. My sister-in-law had infertility too, and then when she had an ovarian cyst (sorry if tmi) she found out she was pregnant. She felt a lot of shame, and didn't tell anyone (other than her husband) for the longest time. It really broke her. My pastor wanted a child and tried every means possible, for 10 years. Finally they gave IVF a go, and on the 3rd or 4th try had a child. There's a lot of stigma associated with this, at least from where I live. I don't know about you, but I often shoulder a lot of responsibility when things don't go as planned. The responsibility ends up crushing me. I hope that you can draw strength knowing that you are not alone in this, and that you have done nothing wrong. It is not your fault, nor Jesse's. It is what it is. I hope you can get the support you need, and pray that if you don't already, that God gives you wisdom on where to from here and how to sit in this space full of emotions and uncertainty (please let me know if you'd rather I not pray, and I won't :) won't pray unless I hear you give me permission, to respect your beliefs - whatever they are :) ) I support you, you are not defined by your circumstances. You are a precious human being, that brings a lot of colour to life. Your songs are one of my anti-depressants! No joke :)

Ahh, I'm just finding this version of Stars Falling Down. I think I need to incorporate it somehow in an anniversary gift for Chris - 9 years in May!! :-O

This is just another example in a long string of (most of your) songs where I didn't feel that the original left anything to be desired, yet this new version is equally great - not better or worse, just different but still awesome. <3

love this🥰sending love and prayerss

Thank you for sharing you time, talents and life events with us. I hope yours and Jesse’s family hopes come to fruition.

<3 <3 <3

Wishing you and Jesse love and strength.

Daniel Spreadbury

Hello Kina - Camryn (my daughter) and I wish you well in your baby making journey and love your song and your soft voice. 😊🥰❤️XO

this is so beautiful ! i've always loved this song so much <3 I wish all the best as always. All the love xx

Hi Kina, don’t put yourself under too much pressure. A friend of mine only had a child after lengthy fertility treatment; but two years later, she had a second child without any extra treatment. The only explanation for this was that she felt no longer under any pressure after having had a child. Besides, as I know all too well, we tend to be irritated by our ‘defeats’ (or what we perceive as ‘defeats’) to the extent that we overlook our achievements and whatever we should be happy about. I had reason to think of you this week: on Thursday, I was in a supermarket here at the eastern border of Austria, and suddenly the radio played ‘Valentine’, your ‘Valentine’. I stood there mesmerized and had goose pimples. I doubt that I’ll make it to Tuesday’s hangout. I may still be busy with packing, since I’ll fly to a workshop the following morning. I am very much looking forward to the workshop, as I’ll meet my best Irish friend there.

I am kind of on the same vibe. There's lots of do. I normally love connection and activity, but lately I've needed to take the few free moments I have in life to disconnect. I have some work in front of me that isn't exactly fun, but I know it needs done and that beautiful things are on the other side of it. In the vaguest of ways, I feel that that kind of parallels what you're talking about. I love the acoustic version of "Stars Falling Down." Sending lots of love!