mid-week encouragement 6/04

Hey pengoons! I'm feeling a bit well enough to send you a little message 💙I'm sorry it can't be longer though 🥺

No matter what, I'll always be on your side okay? I don't think you're weird or cringe or needy for anything you want to express ^^ 💙I'm sorry if I'm a bit awkward with expressing myself but I do really want to see you happy!

Now, some updates...or what I can try to update you on at least!

Throat Issues

I went to the doctor again today and finally got a bit of answers! Basically, now the guess is that I'm having acid reflux issues, causing the throat pain.

It sort of makes sense; I have been feeling "better" lately but I've also been feeling a lingering kind of burning sensation in the back of my throat which persists, especially when swallowing. I've been taking pain killers, cough syrup, allergy meds and none have really worked for this specifically. I have also had a habit for a long time of eating spicy noodles (and food in general) before I sleep, which apparently are big causes of acid reflux.

On the other hand, I've never had this issue before. So why all of a sudden do I have acid reflux when nothing has really changed in my diet or lifestyle? The doctor said it could just be the straw that broke the camel's back kind of scenario; it was already building up but happened to finally build up enough to be an issue.

Now I'm not sure if I ever had a sore throat or if it was always this issue? There is still that incident of where I went out in the cold that started all of this; maybe it was just a coincidence? Or maybe I did have a legit sore throat, and that went away, but I also got this acid reflux development at the same time.

Regardless, I guess I'm happy to finally have SOME answers...The doctor gave me some prescription meds to take every day to deal with this, and if it works then I should see results in a few days. I really hope it does work, because if not...then we're back to square one wondering wtf is going on 😭If it works though, that means I can FINALLY safely come back to streaming and doing all of my regular activities! Albeit, I'll have to do some diet changes as well to make sure it doesn't come back 😭My spicy food...I'm gonna miss you...

Upcoming Birthday

My birthday is in nearly 2 weeks ahhh!! >.< It's crazy to think about...time really goes on by quickly huh

My parents actually asked me what I wanted for my birthday, but I didn't know what to say...There's not much that I really want. As an adult, gift giving AND receiving feel so hard lol >.< So I just asked for some more gunpla hehe...maybe we could have a special dinner too? I think food experiences are great gifts! Yummy food will always be good...

I'm really excited for the birthday donothon, I've been planning it and I think it's gonna be really fun regardless of what happens! I'm sorry I can't really talk about it too much here, reason being Patreon TOS (which is why I tried redirecting to my discord), buuut I'll release more details as we get closer! :3 I hope it doesn't sound too silly? I don't get to do these big type of events often...Ah, but I got the notice that I didn't get selected for Twitch front page for this event! :c Unfortunate, but maybe I'll get it later in the year...I think my ideas are good so I assume either someone doesn't like me at Twitch LOL oorrr I should pick less competitive timeslots I guess?

I have a ton of content in the works that I'm excited to do as well...excited to show you...including a new live2D outfit! :3 I've gotten some sketches back recently and it is suuuper cute...I think you will like it hehe...As well as some beautiful merch coming up too! 👀That won't be for a while though, so dw about it too much ^^ I hope you're excited too, for everything! Once I heal up, there's gonna be a looot going on!

Patreon plans

Little update here too, you may have noticed, I'm planning to change the streams here to Saturday's at 8:30PM EDT instead of 9:00PM, half an hour earlier basically

The reason for this is becauusee I want to increase my patreon streams to once a week! That's right, every week here! But I also still want to keep up my regular ASMR stream schedule, so I was planning on doing a patreon stream here --> and then into a regular ASMR stream on Twitch/Youtube. Do you think that sounds okay? I'm honestly not sure when else I could do it that would work for everyone and myself. I did a poll on discord to find out what Patreon stream times work for everyone and all the votes said the current time is the best, and that pushing it later in the night would make more people unable to attend. So I'm pushing it a bit earlier so I have time and room to still do a late night ASMR stream afterwards. I am aware that maybe it would "feel weird" but the alternative is I don't do Saturday ASMR lives at all and have to move it to a different day and then it's another whole scheduling nightmare where I have to move everything around 😩

There's more I could say about this change but I'll save it for later, this won't be an immediate thing anyways, likely starting after my birthday event (but I might do another stream next week anyways since I won't be able to do the June 20th weekend). Uhmm but yeah hope you look forward to it, let me know what you think!

Alright, that's enough yapping from me today! I'll see you later for a new Youtube upload and a movie tonight as well! 💙