My absence!

Hello everyone!

It's been a while...I'm sure you've been wondering why I was away for a month. Well the reason was not a pleasant one, as some might have guessed from my latest post on X, there was a loss in my family. To begin with, I never had a big family. Being an onlychild, I was raised by my mother and her parents (my grandfather and grandmother). We were living in the same 2 story house, when my mother was working I was with my grandparents and when she was at home I was on the other floor with her. I lost my grandpa to Alzheimer's in 2014, right before I went to university. And this time, almost a month ago, my grandma to a massive brain stroke. When my grandpa passed it was hard but, I knew it was coming he was hospitalised for almost 40 days but due to the years of Alzheimer's I had time to process his future absence. It still hurt not having him with us. But it was easier for me back then, might have been my age or the new start in my life as a university student but, as I look back at it it seemed easier. With my grandma there was no period to process anything, it was so sudden and quick. It happened during the night on her sleep and after 4 days in a comatose state in the hospital her heart gave up. It took me many days to realise that I won't see her again. I know I have to move on and keep thinking of life and stuff but it hurts. I tried to keep my mind occupied with music, series, games, going out with friends for a coffee but it was only enough for the moment. I also tried doing some drawing or working but I was not in the mood for anything.

Right now I'm a lot better, and so is my mother. I know the grief won't leave soon but I have to push. I am returning back to work and will be posting later my progress with Momiji's animation.

I hope you are all doing great and so are your loved ones. I'm sorry if I ruined your mood tonight. I thought you should know why I was absent.