Daily Update: There Goes Yesterday's Update

It was bound to happen at some point, but that doesn't make it feel any better. Sorry for missing an opportunity to let you guys know what's happening on our end.

I shall thus scramble to make up for lost text.

Right now I'm sitting on the floor in a hotel room attached to an anime convention, posting this through my phone's wireless hot-spot because the hotel wifi is exorbitant. This text is coming through the haze of last night's alcohol, and I'm eagerly anticipating to wash my gross, gross body after everyone else gets through using the shower.

This, for us, is a "party convention", which is interesting for me because I generally don't care about the "party scene". I don't like to dance, I'm not good at striking up or maintaining a casual conversation, getting drunk is something I only like to do on rare occasion, etc., etc. Usually, it isn't for me. 

But despite how un-appetizing most of that stuff sounds to me, it is good for me. I don't realize how stressful my life is until I have an opportunity like this to cut loose and spend zero time wondering how best I can be productive. I'm generally a mess of anxiety about self-imposed deadlines and my inability to fulfill them. I want to be better. I have a lot of people interested in my content who deserve better.

Those are feelings I battle with on the daily. Right now it's no fight. This is time I've set aside purposefully to relieve those tensions, and it seems to be working. I can just be drunk and careless and open and irresponsible for the next day and a half, and I think that's an important state of mind to visit once or twice a year.

When I come back from the con, it'll be with a fire fresh-stoked and a edge thoroughly sharpened. 'Till then, I'm sorry the updates are so slow and so meager.

More tonight if I can, or possibly tomorrow. Depends on how intense the evening becomes.


—Benji