Fattening myself with cream
Added 2024-06-26 14:17:39 +0000 UTCI'm going for it. I spent enough time kidding myself that I wasn't "really" gaining or that I wasn't going to let this go too far. I want it to go too far, I always have, and now that I've finally admitted that to myself, everything feels different. Hotter. So much hotter.
I've been getting fatter anyway, despite telling myself that I'm not doing it on purpose, and the other day I was thinking... what a shame that I missed half the enjoyment of those pounds gained by pretending I only had one foot in the boat. Well, i'm not making that mistake any more: I'm telling you guys and myself, I'm getting fatter 100% on purpose. I'm going out of my way to get fatter, making an effort to get fatter and fatter and fatter. Here's one from tonight, emptying a can of whipped cream into my belly and it felt like nothing. Next time I think I could do 3 or even 4 cans. God I want to be so fucking obese, and now I'm really doing it, and it's terrifying and so, so hot.
