Update
Added 2020-02-16 10:00:26 +0000 UTCThought I needed to update where things are - since I have again suspended my account from billing on March (and this month)
In the last month I got my Orchiectomy which is to remove my testicles. This went well but there was lots of pain and still infected slightly.
I closed off many of my friends on Discord and felt I could just try again... only now I have closed those off also. So I have never felt more alone that ever (wish I had never gone on discord)
Thought I got into a relationship with someone for them to pull a nasty game on me and laugh at the fact she broke my heart and only did it to get back with someone else.
And to end it all attempted suicide twice which has got me on a Suicide Watch List, and a lot of pissed of family members and doctors.
And to top all this all off, I have to move rental places.
Life isn't in a good place for me right now....
I hope that after I start to get my head cleared again after the operation, and get over the pain of being a stupid fool and falling for someone - that maybe I might be able to get back to work in April. I should to be moved into a new place by then.
I can't promise however.
Love
Becs
