Update 09/01/24

I know the updates have been very slow lately (about a chapter every 4 days) and I wanted to shed some light on that.

I love writing. I love it more than anything I've... ever done, I think? It's genuinely a passion.

I think that's also why it's very easy to burn yourself out on something like this, like I did last year with Nexus Alpha.

The problem is that it's both my hobby and my job, which makes it harder to think about what I want to write versus what I feel I haven obligation to you to write.

Usually that doesn't really pose a problem, I used to be able to sit down every day and just, well, write, but this year my depression, not to mention my physical pain (it's chronic, nothing to really worry about as such), has gotten significantly worse.

That makes this all a lot more difficult.

My therapist has advised me to take time for myself more and not in the "oh I can't write today I'll feel bad about it" but truly allow myself to not think about "the job" for a minute.

That's not to say I won't write, of course.

But I think it's important that I write what I want to write first.

The downside, of course, is uhhh, money. But I'm trying not to worry about that bit lol.

So I just wanted to thank you all very much for being here, some of you after almost FIVE YEARS GOOD LORD, and after that that it won't always be like this. I haven't fallen out of love with writing or stopped caring. Everything's just... really difficult, right now, and making sure I've had a meal and a shower takes priority. But yeah. Thank you. I'm going to get back to it, but I need to find my way back to it again without forcing it, or I'm afraid I might burn out even harder.

Thanks y'all. OH! and this isn't a "don't expect anything this month" announcement, more of an explanation why things have been slow the past couple. Don't worry :)