thecarlotta

I did it!

Added 2019-09-29 06:14:34 +0000 UTC

Remember when I took a large chunk of my patreon earnings to work with a choreographer and learn how to do burlesque?! I did it!

I can't believe that I got in front of an entire room of people and performed. This was truly my biggest fear on the planet. For as long as I can remember, I have felt complete nausea at the thought of getting in front of a room of people and act. I thought having to perform probably would have made me pass out. But, I really love burlesque, and I have collected the costumes and dreamed about doing it for as long as I can remember. I decided this year that this was it... I was going to work with a choreographer and get in front of people. I decided this in December, and it took me till September...between being busy, a breakup and straight-up stalling out of fear... but I practiced a lot and kittened a few shows...and then told 2 friends. I didn't want to advertise at all. A few fans still found their way in (locals who saw the flyers no doubt).

Either way... here we go. I decided to do comedy because my biggest fear was falling or looking stupid...but if falling or looking stupid is part of your act, then no one will know the difference...right?! I also wanted to avoid sexy. Sexy is what I've made a career doing. Comedy is so much more engaging to me.

Anyhoo, thank you all so much for supporting me here, and letting me test out something that I was so unsure of. I have been attempting to upload the video for half of the day, but it keeps failing. I'm going to directly set up my phone to the computer and see if that will work. I want this up tonight so you can see it. Stay tuned…

xoxo Carlotta