HOLDING PATTERN
Added 2022-06-28 11:30:42 +0000 UTCLife is in a bit of a holding pattern for us at the moment. I'm waiting on news about work things that'll bring in income, and it's really, really hard to get much of anything else done because... I'm waiting. It's like when I have a meeting later in the day. I really find it difficult to focus until it has passed.
I've been like that all year, to a degree, but until now I did have other stuff to distract me; Digi Level 2... the one episode of a kids show I had to write... and now I don't feel I can really move forwards until I get some news. I can't plan the next block of Digi Level 2 filming until we know what's happening with our lives. I've planted all the seeds I possibly can, so a lot of the time I'm kicking my heels, and I hate it. Oh, there's always some editing I can be doing, but even that at the minute is hard to focus on during this weird liminal space I'm in.
It sucks. Waiting instead of living. I've never been one for sitting around. It frustrates me.
I know I'm in a transitional phase of my life and career - I wrote a big, long, blog post about ageism yesterday, then decided not to share it, because I worried it might've read as self-pitying - but I honestly cannot predict where the transition is taking me. I just hope it's somewhere that makes us happy, and doesn't make life harder than has already been in recent times.
Anyway. Sorry if that's a bit miserable. You should've seen the post I didn't share!!! I'm alright though. There's a strange comfort in being at one of life's low points, because you know there's less distance to fall.
Here's a horrible A.I. picture of Marillion singer Steve Hogarth.
Comments
Yes!
Paul Rose (Mr Biffo)
2022-06-29 20:54:51 +0000 UTCCheers, Treac.
Paul Rose (Mr Biffo)
2022-06-29 20:54:44 +0000 UTCThanks, PJ.
Paul Rose (Mr Biffo)
2022-06-29 20:54:38 +0000 UTClook on the bright side: At least your ai pic of h from marillion has a vague likeness of h from marillion (complete with scary eyes!). My attempts have resulted in numerous disturbing images that have him resemble a character from thundercats! Sending many warm n fuzzy thoughts your way.
Pete Pyjamas
2022-06-29 04:43:07 +0000 UTCFingers crossed things start to progress for you and some of those seeds grow and blossom in to a beautiful future (and not in to some sort of magical beanstalk with an angry giant at the top of it wanting to turn your bones in to bread).
Treacle Truffle
2022-06-28 18:41:37 +0000 UTC#SOLIDARITY!
Paul Rose (Mr Biffo)
2022-06-28 15:57:55 +0000 UTCYou already are by being on here, Alex!
Paul Rose (Mr Biffo)
2022-06-28 15:57:28 +0000 UTCI'm with you on the "waiting for meeting/not able to do anything" thing. With me, I need the rest of the day to recover afterwards too!
John Veness
2022-06-28 14:45:28 +0000 UTCI call it waiting mode. If I've got anything to do, meeting anyone or a late shift at work I can't do anything in the time before, I'm constantly worried that if I get too distracted I'll be late. I thought it was just me that did that, nice to know I'm not that weird after all. PS oh god that picture, that's going to haunt me
Alison Warner
2022-06-28 12:08:19 +0000 UTCSolidarity, man - the ADHD waiting room mode is the woooorst. Hope you get news soon and can get on with getting on <3 If there's ever anything I can help you with in any way, lemme know.
Chai
2022-06-28 12:07:16 +0000 UTCwish there was anything I could do to help :(
Alex R
2022-06-28 11:59:57 +0000 UTCHoping for an upturn soon x
Si Forster
2022-06-28 11:54:34 +0000 UTCYeah, I hate waiting for things especially when they are on in the afternoon and I've got to travel to get to them. Constantly checking the train or bus times - like you say living in limbo land. It's horrible - just like that picture of h - arghh! Shane xxx
Shane McKie
2022-06-28 11:42:39 +0000 UTC
