Patreon Services to Cease.

As many of you know, it has been my long time goal to get out of this business. I’ve been drawing and making porn for basically as long as I’ve been able to draw. It’s completely consumed every aspect of my life, since Middleschool, or maybe even earlier. It’s prevented me from living a normal life, prevented me from forming real relationships, and until I started doing it as a JOB, prevented me from succeeding financially. Now I am succeeding financially, through this work. But the rest of the problem is still there. I’m in my late 20’s now. I’ve never had a meaningful romantic relationship.

It took me a very, very long time to admit that porn was a problem for me. It took until a couple years ago, infact. Which was right as I was starting to really make money on it. So I’ve ignored it, I’ve ignored the problem, and kept telling myself “Later. There’ll be time later.” Well later came, and went. And came, and went. Sooner or later, there is no more “later.” And I don’t want to die alone, with my entire life wasted on self-indulgence and jerking off. I want to become a real person. I want to have a life. 

After a lifetime of Atheism and cynicism, a lifetime of anger issues and emotional issues, I have discovered faith. I have discovered life. I’ve discovered what it means to live, to have a life. To be a real person. I’ve learned what it means to be “Alive.” And I’ve learned what it means to be dead. And found that I’ve been dead for most of my life. My entire lifestyle has been a dead lifestyle, which leads to nothing but death. People can label it whatever they want, but that’s what it is. A self-indulgent lifestyle with nothing at the end but death, and regrets. I’ve discovered that there’s more to life than death. There’s more after life than death. I’ve been on my spiritual journey for years now, but I’ve been living a lie. And it’s time to take a step. 

Porn is one of the most insidious addictions a person can have. Not least of all, because the majority of society refuses to see it as an addiction. Well, it is an addiction, like any other addiction. It’s a dependence. It changes your brain chemistry. I used to jerk off twice a day, at least. And I thought that was normal. I refused to believe it was a problem. If any of you are struggling with it, and thinking about it all day, even when you’re in public, take a good hard look inside yourself. Without all the political bullshit that’s been pushed on you, to “live your truth” or “Just be you, this is who you are.” This is not who you are. This is not the truth, this is not normal. And this is not who I am either, or who I want to be. 

So, I’ve gotta quit. Unfortunately it’s not that simple for me, because this is where my money comes from. So I need to change careers. But that’ll be a gradual process. And that’s fine, I just have to get it started. And it starts now, today. So, I’m making some changes, effective immediately. 

Starting right now, Patreon and Subscribestar benefits are gone. I’m keeping the pages up, but there will be no early access anymore. If I make something, I’ll post it on my Ekas immediately. I’m keeping the tiers up, and people can continue to support me financially, but you won’t receive anything from it, it’ll be purely a donation. Eventually, the Subscribestar and Patreon pages will be taken down entirely. Other changes will happen gradually as well, which people will be notified of. 

Sorry to anyone who’s gonna be upset by this, but this is the right thing to do. It’s simply the only way. And if anyone’s been struggling with similar issues, feel free to reach out and talk to me about it. I’d love to help anyone in any way I can, because I understand how difficult it is, and I understand how hard it is to get away from it. I have nothing but understanding and sympathy for every single one of you, and if I can help even one person on the same journey, I want to do it.