Update milestone
Added 2018-06-07 20:24:41 +0000 UTCI hope everyone has enjoyed the update today, I would like to share with my patrons why it is a milestone for me.
As you may have noticed, the tone of the comic is overall pessimistic, and aggressive, as in my story I have placed the happier moments in such a way that they are appreciated more by the reader, those happier moments being small things, but made powerful relative to the rest of the story.
Like I've stated previously, this comic reflects my own issues with depression, how you can feel as if though you are stuck in a bad situation made worse, moment after moment, day after endless day, soon you're counting the years. But it is all those bad moments piling on top of you constantly, that make you appreciate the small things, like unexpected kindess, or your favorite comfort food, or making new friends.
I hope to demonstrate this more in the future.
Thank you for reading and for your continued support.
Comments
Depression sucks! I hope you have the help and support you need to weather it. When I met my significant other, I had no idea she had clinical depression. Years later now, she's had lots of help from professionals and its been amazing to see her happy and successful at launching frikkin satellites into orbit for Nasa! Ava's recent pages really resonated with her as she has practiced self-harm to cope many times. Don't let anyone tell you you're worth less for the mental illnesses you were born with. We both love your art and are cheering for you. :D (Also, if you ever get the chance to release a book with the beautiful cover of Ava's Demon we'll buy it in a heartbeat!)
blurbbb
2018-06-18 15:52:30 +0000 UTCThis is really touching, thank you so much for sharing all this with me and I hope we can both come out on the other side of this with all our demons vanquished. :'(
Michelle Fus
2018-06-09 16:07:20 +0000 UTCI was first pulled in by the colorwork. Then, it was the overall story. And now, it's how easily i can empathize with Ava. As someone who was often teased relentlessly by my peers when I was younger, I felt alone and wondered if there was really something wrong with me. Turns out that both having ADHD and Depression not diagnosed until well into adulthood is difficult. And it's been a long time, and while I won't get into specifics; I am older than most of the fans here, but finally, I've been able to get therapy and medication that has made coping with what had been tormenting me for years, under control. I guess it's why the fanfics I write, where Ava is older and happy, kind of reflect my hopes for Ava that she'll make it out of this whole ordeal better than how she when she was forced into it, because there is hope for those who have to deal with demons of our own. And while we can't vanquish them, we can manage them so it only becomes a part of us and not all of us. Thank you, Michelle.
Overthinker
2018-06-09 05:03:28 +0000 UTCThank you for reading!!
Michelle Fus
2018-06-09 00:15:26 +0000 UTCThank you so much, I'm so glad my comic has helped you and I hope you can continue to find happiness and something to relate to in my work c:
Michelle Fus
2018-06-09 00:15:13 +0000 UTCLove everything that you do. Your updates from Patreon bring everyone such happiness! Keep doing you, Michelle!!
Courtney Downing
2018-06-08 16:47:30 +0000 UTCI've been following you're comic from the very beginning and it means so much to me then words can provide. Thank you so much for being to put into a well writen story inner demons i have a hard time facing. It has helped me over come so much these past 6 years. You provide so much more then you could ever imagine to this world. Thank you.
2018-06-08 16:21:00 +0000 UTCAs a stuttering person (since my childhood, it will never go away) and kind of depressed/anxiety (im in the path of recovery, thanks to my medicine) I want to say that your comic is something i somewhat relate to. The smalls moments of happyness like that is a huge thing, and i think it's good that you put them in here. It help your characters, and it give a message to your readers. Keep the good work. As I said earlier about my stuttering, I hope to see more about Odin and his stuttering issue, where it comes from for here, how did it develop the confidence to not care about (I speak for myself but I was so afraid to talk with others because of this.. I couldn't go outside (litteraly) for years because I was afraid that someone bully me because of this). Sorry for the bad english.. Take care :)
Erin Jacquot
2018-06-08 07:14:38 +0000 UTCI loved this update and I got diagnosed bipolar last year and things were really bad for a looong time and i finally got help and put on proper treatment and saw a light I never saw before and your comic has always inspired me and seeing updates made my day better even if it was a really bad day/week/month or whenever for me. Thank you for making it💓💓💓💓
Anna
2018-06-08 06:22:44 +0000 UTCThis adds a whole new dimension to the comic for me. I'm so glad you're making a work that has all of you in it.
Admiral Concurmonger
2018-06-08 05:40:18 +0000 UTCMichelle, I'm so sorry with the "fandom" discourse on Tumblr right now. A bunch of triggered KIDS calling you a pedophile for no real reason, though I shouldn't be surprised because it's Tumblr. I really hope you don't get sued by some random asshole right now.
Rhys Reiter Wilson
2018-06-08 04:53:09 +0000 UTCThank you so much for this
Michelle Fus
2018-06-08 02:25:31 +0000 UTCThank you for all the hard work you've done, Michelle! I'm glad I can help support such a wonderful comic!
Kadaashi
2018-06-08 00:06:41 +0000 UTCIt was one of the greatest writers of all time T.S. Eliot that said, "We shall not cease from exploration, and the end of all our exploring will be to arrive where we started and know the place for the first time" This is what I see as your work. Only once we have gained the wisdom of the journey shall we see everything as it truly is. As we all experience your story, it will continue to transform in the eyes of your viewers. I think the ideas you presented here are a great example of that. Depression is something that can take us to places so dark it is hard to imagine, but it is important for us to do so, or we will never understand them. If you can't understand something, you can't fix it, and when depression goes on unfixed, you die. This work is wise in its construction and purpose, and I can't wait to return to its beginning after the this long journey and truly know it for the first time. <a href="https://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/t_s_eliot_109032" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">https://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/t_s_eliot_109032</a>
Josh Hoppstock
2018-06-08 00:06:24 +0000 UTCThis means a lot to me, thank you for all of your support and I hope I can continue to make something you can relate to.
Michelle Fus
2018-06-07 22:12:45 +0000 UTCI found it really hard to comment on the past updates due to Ava's condition, and couldn't find any words to say other than "wow me too, kno that feel" in the most awkward way possible. Regardless, i am very appreciative of all your feelings and hardwork that's been put into this comic. I know a lot of people have been critical of your work at times (myself included sometimes) but even with the faults people find in it while trying to rip it apart are never fatal. It's just that great of a comic, and if it wasn't, you wouldn't have so many people (once again, including myself) so emotionally invested in this story. I really look forward to all the little happy moments building up like dominoes; hopefully, to a happy ending. Thank you very much.
Shae
2018-06-07 22:00:31 +0000 UTCAs someone with depression and anxiety, Ava's Demon has always been so emotionally honest for me. This update hit on a day I really needed to see it. Thanks for sharing this amazing story with us, Michelle. It's moments like these that remind me exactly why I admire you as a creator.
Ilex Opaca
2018-06-07 21:24:18 +0000 UTCthank you for such a nice update ^-^
2018-06-07 21:21:10 +0000 UTCThat is exactly why I love this update so much. And it feels so good to see Odin and Ava interacting how they are in this update
Camwell Art
2018-06-07 20:41:13 +0000 UTCi feel a lump in my throat coming on. thanks for everything michelle
anon
2018-06-07 20:31:32 +0000 UTC