I like how you think, and I like that you got me thinking too...but...
From everything I've seen of Mandy, I don't think her problem is that she thinks she's not good enough. I think she has the opposite problem: That she thinks way, way too highly of herself.
All Mandy seems to understand is power and control, and also seems to equate that with love. She might think she wants love, but I can't see anything she was trying to build as anything comparable to love. I also get the idea that she has battling experience which may involve either sanctioned, rules-bound leagues (like real-life martial arts), underground/illicit/outright illegal fighting, or both, in which she may or may not have been a willing participant, which could help explain where her obsession with putting herself first comes from: Because no one else looked out for her.
I've also seen it mentioned that Gamma has said in the behind-the-scenes lore that her relationship with Dylan ended because she cheated on him. I take it with a grain of sale in case that was just someone saying stuff, but I've yet to see it called out as a lie, and it really doesn't seem like she would have a scruple for that. Dylan's relationship with Valerie had the big benefits of having already been friends for a while and being mutual secret crushes (and while there was mutual physical attraction too, Valerie at least really wanted to hit it). But however his relationship with Mandy started or went, evidence suggests to me that he gave better than he got, and why she would destroy a relationship with a good guy like that just to get laid on the side is beyond me.
All that said, I don't know if she was always bad and has just gotten worse, or if she was a better person with some screws loose who was taken advantage of and sent into a downward spiral that she can't recognize as such and never got help. I can only imagine her past has a lot of ugliness in it, whether it's all her fault or not, but even if Mandy were to tell her own story, I'd question how much is true, how much is deliberate lies, and how much is "in her own imagination but she believes it." I have my own probably-totally-wrong fan theory, but I can only go with what the author provides as true.
And, of course, the most important thing to me is that for the story she's in now, Vanessa and Alex have zero reason to care. Not from being bad and uncaring people who wouldn't help someone in trouble, but because all she's done is try to destroy their lives for her own benefit, first by breaking their hearts and threatening their families and then by killing them.
All the bad things that I've seen happen to her and that I can only assume are about to happen? She brought them on herself. Whether she has anything left after that, including her life? As of now, that's the million-dollar question.
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2025-05-19 13:44:50 +0000 UTC
Mandy is quite powerful in battle. And yet, instead of making a career out of it, she stays in a job that she hates working under a person she hates.
This says a fair amount about Mandy, I think. Particularly her massive inferiority complex. She obviously doesn't think that she's good enough in herself to make it honestly either in the battle or corporate world, nor in love.
It says a lot about her level of self-hatred if she thinks that the only way she can get a lover or any degree of success in life is through blackmail and a single failure of her blackmail plans makes her jump right to murder.