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My mom passed away.

As some of you may already know, my mom passed away last weekend. It's taken me a week to even feel up to telling people about it but I think it's important that I do. This community means so much to me and it would pain me for people to think I was ignoring their messages or forgetting to provide content. I did already post to my Discord servers and now X but I understand some of you may not have seen. It feels unfair to post things without you knowing what's happening in my life, I don't know how to explain it and all I want to do right now is what I need to do to feel secure.

I don't know when I'll be okay again and for that I am sorry. What I do know is that I am a lot stronger than I thought I was. I expected my entire world to collapse under the grief but somehow that hasn't happened. The love and kindness I've been shown by my family, my friends, my community; it's given me a strength I didn't know existed. I want to be strong for all the people I care about, including this community, and I want to assure you that I'm not going anywhere. Audios are not going anywhere, there just might be some hiccups in the near future.

The next few weeks will be very hard. I don't even know when we'll be able to lay my mom to rest, it could be as late as the New Year due to the circumstances surrounding her passing. Even as I type this it doesn't feel real. The grief is overwhelming.

I thank you for the kindness, understanding and patience I already know you will afford me. I'm sorry for any delays or lateness with things. I am going to do my very best. Thank you for being the best community I've ever seen and for the strength you don't even realise you give me every day. 💖

Comments

My condolences to you and your family.

Anthony Harris

Sending all the love.

Cosplay Battle!

So very sorry for your loss, sweetheart. Sending you all the positive vibes I can.

The_Wondering_Wizard

man that's rough, wish a simple "condolences" didn't feel so hollow because I know it doesn't really help with the hurt but truly from all of us here, much love and deepest condolences. Hope your friends and family were able to help you heal through the holiday season.

Wacka23

Oh man, just saw this today, I’m so very sorry for your loss. Please don’t worry about content or literally anything other than taking care of yourself, I think it’s safe to assume everyone would agree, but we will always be here for you even if we have to wait a bit. Sending you tons of virtual hugs from across the pond ♥️♥️♥️

Alex Croft

Never forget that the biggest show of strength is to allow yourself to appear vulnerable All my condolences, Peaches, I'm really sorry for you

Lord Ian

My dad died last year and My mom is terminally ill and is only expected to live for at most four months. Your strong Peaches and You have a community that will support you and that the important thing is knowing that you have support that will help you through this difficult time,

TonyK

So sorry for your loss, Peaches.

ShadowRoadz

Oh god, I'm so sorry. I lost my grandpa, who more or less raised me for the first ten or so years of my life, in 2020. Due to the whole... situation... we didn't have a funeral until last month. We just kind of kept putting it off, you know? And I will say that though some losses don't really get less painful with time, they do get recontextualized. I've reached a point where it feels good to miss him. You will, too.

ChloPiercer

Oh Peaches, soooo sorry for you loss!! ♥️♥️

Didier

Soo sorry for your loss!

Preston Geter

Oh no. Please look after yourself and know that your community loves you.

DrTaverner

We’re grateful for everything you’ve done, Peaches. Our prayers and support are with you. I’ll be thinking about and wishing you healing and peace in this. Stay Peachy 🍑

Bennja Sasan

I'm so sorry for your loss Peaches 🫂Thank you for sharing with us, and we would never leave your side💖We're all here for you and want to help however we can. Dont worry about us in the slightest, we can wait. Take care of yourself and do what you and your family need to do to get though this.

CharalamBOSS

I'm so sorry, sending you me deepest condolences. Please remember it's ok to not be okay and take time for yourself. We will always be here. You've been of such comfort to so many people I hope our words can help at least a tiny bit. Thank you for everything you do, you are truly incredible. We will wait patiently. Take your time, sending you lots of hugs.

leynish

Sorry for the late response, I honestly don't know what to say Peach. Hope you're feeling better...sadly it never fully goes away 😢 Even if they are gone, there still here in our hearts and memories. But most of all,you have all of us... and EL and your sisters. So take your time and take care Peaches💖 we'll help in any way we can.

ned-418

My condolences 💐 take your time and do what you need. Don’t worry about us worry about yourself. Take care of yourself and we will wait for your return when you are ready

AlphaPrime

Well said

Pamela Brown

Prayers

Pamela Brown

Omg I'm so sorry my beautiful friend. Between your own health and now this I know you must feel so overwhelmed. You are so very strong but do not be ashamed to feel your emotions. The worst thing you can do is bury it all down deep w E are all here for you but please audios should be the last thing on your mind. Please take care 😘💕

Pamela Brown

I'm sorry for your loss I felt the same way when I lost my mother when I was way younger when she passed away I felt part of me was gone with her and it changed me but I'm trying to find a way to bring like the old me back

Sage Wilde

I'm so sorry for your loss, Peaches! Also please don't apologize. You have to prioritize your own mental health, and if that means we have to wait, so be it. Take some time for yourself and your family. We'll be here in the meantime.

Aatmadeva

I’m so sorry to hear about the loss of your mom. I lost my dad last year so I feel your loss. Sending you all the prayers of support and positivity that can be humanly mustered. 💝

Tazmn

I'm really sorry for your loss peaches. Please please don't worry about upload cadence or anything like that just focus on what you need to get through this difficult time. Sending you so much love, Pap the Producer (Asim).

Asim

I'm really sorry peaches 💜. I commend you for the strength you've already discovered, and it's okay if things don't feel the way you thought they would. She may not be on this plane of existence, but your relationship with your mother still exists, your love for each other still exists, just like our love and support for you still exists. Stay strong, love ❤️‍🩹, we're here for you 🫶🫂

Daiko 5omatic

I'm so sorry for your loss. Take all the time you need to heal and feel whatever you need to feel. We're with you every step of the way and will be right here when you're ready to return.

Nam Bui

Hugs and all the love to you peaches, we all support you

Glonthein

Oh my heart. Im so sorry peaches ❤️❤️❤️ take all the time you need. Sending you the biggest virtual hug. it really is one of the hardest things ever. lub u. vent on here if you ever need to. There will always be at least someone here that can relate and appreciate what you write. youre amazing. 💜

Abi

I’m so sorry for your loss, Peaches. Please, stay safe and take all the time you need 💜

Nicholas Crocker

Know that you've made her proud just for being happy. Live your life happy and wise, let her teachings be your guide in this time of mourning. Mothers are beautiful, strong, but most of all selfless. Live on for her, take your time and remember you are loved by many!!❤️

GuacaMalarkey

I'm so sorry Peaches. Please take all the time you need.

Red

I am so incredibly sorry for your loss, Peaches. My heart goes out to you and your family. I know that there is nothing that can be said to take away this kind of loss, but just know that you are loved by this community and we all feel for you. Hang in there ❤️

Redblueblur42

I feel for you. Take all the time you need. Make sure you have the support you need

bobbyfr7769

May her beautiful soul rest in peace

Joey Gaw

My sincere condolences for your loss, Peaches. It's never easy losing a family member, even more so if it's someone from your immediate family. Having lost someone very very dear to me a few years ago, it's never easy and I can only imagine what you're going through. Please take as much time as you need to take care of things and to heal. Time may or may not heal all wounds but I'm happy that there are wonderful people in your life to help you through these difficult times and please do reach out to people if you need! Sending you and your loved ones all the love during these trying times.

Aura

Our parents still live trough us, at least that's what I believe. Be well peaches 🍑

Viktor

Im so sorry for your loss🖤

Devil

Peaches, I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your mother. Don’t worry about uploading audios or streaming; just the take the time you need to be with your family.

Saad Pandit

Im sorry to hear that and my deepest condolences for your loss. Take as much time as you need and don’t worry about that at all. You need some time for yourself and with your beloved ones. We won’t go anywhere so take a much needed break to process everything. I wish you and your beloved ones the best and god bless you

Hunter1999

Take all the time you need. There is no rush to upload. I'm so sorry for your loss. Just know I along with your entire community are right here to support you and give you all the reassurance you need. we love you Peaches. 💛

Skid

Take as much as you need, dont feel you need to upload. Take the time

That_dutch_guy

Losing a family is never an easy thing, and I’m so sorry this happened to you. Sending so much love and support to you! Please take care of yourself, and just remind yourself that you have an entire community behind you that wants to see you thrive. Take as much time as you need and we’ll all be here patiently waiting for your return. Much love 💜

Maelin

Just remember, our Kin may not be with us here, but they are always watching over us. Hope you feel better soon.

Lord Solar Thomas

❤️

Latefordinner

Mourn how you wish.

Chris

I'm so sorry for your loss, Peaches. I too have lost a close family member before, and everyday I'm reminded of my grandpa's presence in my voice and mannerisms. Time will heal all wounds, but like any wound, it must be treated with kindness (and band-aids). We'll be here as your band-aids. 🫂

The Virtual Warlock

I am so sorry for your loss, I have no idea what else to say but that you please just take your time to grieve, and we all will be waiting for you patiently. Take care Peaches, and know you are very strong. ❤️

It's_xxAdele_xoxo

I'm so sorry for you peaches. Know that we love you very much. ❤️

Malachi

We love you peaches and we're always here for you like roo for tiger always there for you should you need a shoulder to cry on or to lean on we wish you all the best and always try to keep smiling and eat well and stay safe and sound 🩷 we may not know you truly but we are like a second family always there for you

Marshall Cole

You have my condolences 😭

David D.

I’m sorry for your loss. Losing a loved one is never easy, but I’m glad you have so many people from whom you can draw strength and support. Take care Peaches.

Sir Rammington

Take all the time you need. We're not going anywhere.

DirtyDan98

Do whatever it is you need peaches

Turquoise

I'm so sorry for your loss Peaches. Tage all the time you need. Sending you all my love ❤️

Koray

We love you, Peaches.

Aaron

My condolences

Brian

You have absolutely nothing to apologize for. I can’t imagine how you’re feeling right now and I’m so sorry you’re having to go through this. Take your time and do what you need to do to take care of yourself and your loved ones, everything else is secondary ❤️

Aeon

There's nothing I feel like I can say that will meet the situation adequately. As someone who's lost a parental figure, I know there's no surefire balm for the pain you're going through right now - but I'm quite certain I speak for everyone else here when I say that you deserve (and have more than earned) all the grace and sympathy the world can offer you and more, and that all of us who follow you will happily grant it. Do what you need to to do for your own health, and don't worry about judgement or "doing it wrong" or "taking too much time" - take what solace you can from where you can, and accept the solidarity of knowing we are all pulling for you in the meantime.

Peter Daly

I’m so sorry, Peaches. I understand the grief of losing a parent. My father passed away a few years ago. While it is something that will forever affect you, things will get better, especially when you have friends and family around you. Take as much time as you need to heal. Self care is very important during times like this. Take your time to get through this and rest assured that we will patiently be waiting for your return. Your audios have had a major effect on my life and have gotten me through some very difficult moments. We all love and appreciate you! 🖤

Yooo

Know that my, and I know everybody else’s, hearts are with you at such a difficult time. Please take all the time you need for yourself

eternalunicorn

I'm so sorry Peaches, can't even imagine what you're going through... If we could help in some way, we're always here. Sending you all my love ❤️

RufeteSwiftie

I'm so sorry

SetherAedekae

That strength you feel is your mother's love and support. She'll always be with you, helping you can be the best you can be. Condolences for your loss.

Jamie Harper

Condolences for your loss, Peaches. Take care of yourself.

Blindluck92

I am so so so so sorry for your loss Peaches. Please take as much time as you need. I can't imagine what you're going through at the moment, so please take whatever time you need. Sending the biggest of virtual hugs as I can for you ❤️ 🫂

Pixel

Sorry for your loss, losing a parent is always super tough, take all the time you need

Yuki

You have our condolences. Take care peaches

Sean Dickey

I’m so sorry to hear that Peaches! Please take your time feeling better! It’s not easy to have something like that happen! Take a good break and know that we are here for you!❤️❤️❤️

The Bachinator

Please accept everyone's condolences, and please don't get anxiety about uploading. Take all the time you need and grieve to the best of your ability. We love you Peaches.

Juno4859

Sorry for your loss❤️ Remember we're all here for you, no matter what you decide, just please stay yourself. Take the time to take care of yourself in tough times like these. This is nothing you need to apologise for. As you can see there is so many people supporting you. No matter what you decide, we are here for you❤️

Kacper Wolf

I dont even know what to say other than I'm so sorry for your loss and to take care.

Aaron Price

I’m sorry for your loss, take your time, we’ll still be here for you no matter what

Ky-man03

Im so sorry Peaches take all the time you need to take care of yourself 💜

Jonathan Munoz

I’m so sorry for your loss, Peaches. Losing a parent is always hard. The sense of loss stays with you, but the rawness of the grief does diminish with time, and hopefully mostly what will remain will be the happy memories and funny stories.

John B. McCarthy

My deepest condolences, I recently lost my dad within these past few months and grief is definitely a very difficult process. There's no true way to deal with it, but it's important to know you have people who truly care for you. I can only wish you the best as grief comes differently to us all and it's important to know that any feelings you have are completely valid whether they make sense to you or not. ❤️‍🩹

Sniflebeans

Peaches, love, don't ever feel the need to apologize for something of this calibur. I can't even imagine the struggle you are going through and I can't imagine how difficult it was to write this. We all love you incredibly. I'm so sorry for your loss... All the bugs to you and all your family. 🩵

SlyStar64

Peaches, I'm so sorry. I can understand what you're going through, and what I know is healing takes time. Grieve, spend time with family, and this may sound strange, but allow yourself to feel whatever happiness and/or laughs that come your way. In my own experience, it helps a lot. Take whatever time you need, and most importantly, take care. We'll be here waiting.

AshTheSmash

I’m so sorry for your loss. Please take all the time you need, and know that you are loved and cared for. Wishing you and your family lots of strength and ease 🤍

Jawad

My sincere sympathy, I am so sorry for your loss💔

M_06_08

My condolences. I lost my own mom back in 2022, I understand how hard it is to go through that. There's nothing we all want more than for you to heal at your own pace. Please, take all the time you need, Remember that your friends and family are there for you, and we'll support you 100%. Take care of yourself. 🫂💜

Dan_Gaming_Fan

So sorry for your loss peaches, take all the time you need because losing your mom is one of the toughest things you can go through. We'll always be waiting patiently for you to feel up to doing audios and everything again. Lots of ❤️

Michel Smit

Greif is a weird thing. No matter how many times you experience it it's never any easier. Like I've said elsewhere, I'm so sorry to hear that. You do whatever you feel you need to do, you'll be better for it, I'm sure.

Beast

I'm so sorry for your loss. Please know that we understand and are here to support you. Grieving time and effects are different for everyone and you just need the time you need, no one can tell how long that is but you. Wishing you and your family the best in this time of mourning. Be safe and be good to yourself.

Semblance of Life

Look after yourself and your family at this devastating time. Everything else is secondary.

confused_but_still_here

I’m so sorry for your loss

Ade

There's absolutely no need to apologize at all I couldn't imagine how much strength it takes to not completely shut down at times like these. Just like the rest of the community I send my condolences and hope you take as much time as needed to work through this with your loved ones. May your mother rest in peace 💙

Jade

You've got nothing to be sorry about Peachy, believe me I know what it's like to lose a a parent, I lost my dad last year, I know exactly what you're going through. Please take as much time as you need to mourn, we can wait, we love you Peaches❤️

Mr. Caviar

My deepest condolences Peaches. Please take all the time you need.

SonnyB3

Only just read this. For what it's worth, I'm sorry for your loss Peaches. Don't you dare be sorry for not knowing when you will heal. Please, take as much time as you need... I mean SERIOUSLY NEED, none of this I've taken (x) amount of time I need to get back to things. As many have stated, we're here for you (though it's not much all things considered). Sending hugs, puppies and positive vibes.

Jayden

Peaches you have nothing to apologize for. At the start of this year, I lost all 3 of my remaining grandfather's in the span of 4 months. We all understand that, you're dealing with quite a heavy loss, and I know for a fact that the only thing that we, as your community, want from you? Is for you to take the time that you need to heal and recover. Take as much time as you need. We'll be patiently waiting for your return. Whether it'll last a few weeks or a couple months. YOU take care of YOURSELF. And we'll be right here welcoming you back with open arms. Take care of yourself okay?

Spexy

I'm so sorry to hear this Peaches! If you need anything reach out, we are all here for you!

Kovu

I'm sorry for your loss Peaches.

Daniel Kirkerud

Sorry for your loss Peaches, take all the time to grieve you need. Remember the people you're close to are there for you to reach out for support.

Gustobel

I'm so sorry for your loss, Peaches. I lost my Mom a little over 3 years ago, and it was hard for our whole family. Losing someone so close to you can't even be put into words, and it's something that will always be carried, but I have been fortunate enough to have great friends and family to help during that time. We are all here to support you through this time as well. Above all else, take all the time you need, and know that we aren't going anywhere. It takes a lot of vulnerability to share something this deep, and no matter how hard it is some days, we will all be here to support you. ❤️

E11VN

Hey Peaches my deepest Condolences to and you and your family for the loss. Please take all the Time you need . I think I speak for many of us when I say we are still here when you feel better about everything. Take all the Time you need 💜

DeDe

I just put my phone down and sat in silence for a moment. I can only imagine. I am sorry for your loss. Please take all the time you need.

Daymond B

I'm sorry about that peaches, we are with you, God have mercy on us all

B4C-p

My deepest condolences to you and your family, Peaches. Thank you for updating us even though you didn’t have to, especially about your personal life. I will keep your family in my prayers~ I may not know what you’re going through but I hope you take some comfort in knowing you and your family are not alone in this dark time. Do not rush, we will be here 🫂 take all the time you need to grieve~ I pray God continues to bless you, your strength and your family through this sorrowful season 🤍 sending love and prayers.

Riptide Kuroki

Oh Peaches, my deepest condolences to you and your family. My heart sank reading this :( I’m so so sorry. Please take all the time you need. And don’t worry about us, we’ll always be here for you, we’re not going anywhere. May your mum rest in peace and I wish you strength and healing, you’re in my thoughts and prayers, sending all my love 🕊️♥️

zxsa

Sending you and your family thoughts and prayers. I’m glad you’re strong, but please don’t feel bad about taking the time you need to heal. We love ya Peaches ❤️‍🩹

Brantley

I'm sorry to hear about your loss. I won't pretend to know what you're going through, but I think I speak for everyone when I say take the time you need to be with your family and loved ones.

Eddy

I’m so sorry, my sincere condolences, i know this is hard, but i’m sure she’s proud of you and she’s in a better place now, take your time to heal, we’ll still be here.

La Douille

Sorry for your loss Peaches. Take all the time you need, we're not going anywhere either. My thoughts are with you.

Gerbie

There's little a stranger can do to alleviate the pain so all I can say is I'm so, so sorry for your loss, and that we're all here for you in solidarity as people who have lost people close to us. The magnitude of grief is proportional to the magnitude of the love you felt for a person. Even when we may have had strained or difficult relationships with our parents, no matter what we do, they continue to occupy a place deeply entrenched in us. Time will blunt the sorrow, please surround yourself with the people that make you smile and laugh, and that care for and will attend to you in your time of need.

Orion

You are a truely remarkable woman Peaches. I know there’s a lot of complex feelings around something like this, so take it slow, be kind, be careful. Sending you all the love I can possibly muster. 💕 Take as much time as you need. We’re not going anywhere x

Merjia

I am very sorry to hear that and I understand exactly what you are going through since I am grieving my own mom. She also passed away last Wednesday. Please know that you are not alone, I'm sure you have many people around you that can help you as much as it has happened to me.

Gnot

Dear Peaches, I am just one of the many members of your community. I am probably going to say something that so many others have already told you, but I feel really sorry for you. If you are half kind hearted like the sweet persona of your audios, then I am sure you are a lovely, kind and gentle person who doesn't deserve this pain. I don't know you, but through your audios you made me happy (more than happy) and I really wish I could snap my fingers and ease all this grief. Again, I am sorry, Peaches. I hope you will find happiness in your family and in your friends. You have nothing to apologise for. You are great.

Marco Afruni

My sincere condolences, take all the time you need to feel okay again... we got your back and are here for you

Crank

I’m sure I speak for most of us, we understand you will need time to heal. Take as much as you need. We will be here when you’re ready. With love and support.

Synthespian13

Take all the time you need, Peaches. We understand. Losing a loved one is never easy and there is no definitive method of grieving. Just know we'll still be here to show our support when you feel ready. Much love and best wishes.

Scott Thunder

I’m very sorry to hear that, my sincere condolences 💜 take your time to work through this, grief comes in many forms and your (mental) health comes first. I’ll be here supporting you regardless, and surely many others will continue to do the same!!

soph

Man, you have my condolences Peach. I won't pretend I know what you're going through. I've just been a silent lurker listening to your audios because they comfort me and everyone else I'm sure. Thank you for sharing your circumstances, even if you didn't have to. Don't ever feel bad for keeping things that are important/private to you in life. Despite what happened, I wish thee a happy holiday and a new year. The pain may not heal completely, you get used to it, and because of that, that pain will have a special place in your memory. Good or bad. Chin up Peach.

Pervy Incel

We're here for ya, Peachy

Branded

So sorry for your loss and may she rest in peace ❤️

KeaTheXII

I'm very sorry for your loss, may she rest in peace

Wolf Z Row

I am sorry for your loss peaches 😭 my condolences. Take all the time you need to process this. Much love ❤️❤️

Sean

Take all the time you desire. May you find peace and may she rest in peace.

Emperor Nemean

Peaches, I am so very sorry. Please take what time you require to grieve, recover. and recharge. We won't be going anywhere, and will be here whenever you need us, a hug and cup of kettle tea waiting

C480o0s3

Wish you the best! Im sure your mom in a good place 🤍

Esy

I am so sorry, take your time & don’t worry about posting, your mental health & family matters more, I don’t know what you believe in but I’ll be praying for you, god bless.

Daniel Riley Carter

I wish you all the strength in the world. I lost my father a couple of months ago, and there was so much going on that I didn’t allow myself to collapse, and I paid the price for that later. So do what you have to do, but allow yourself the room to exist in the way you need to. I wouldn’t have made it without the support of so many kind souls, so please know that you are not only. My condolences

nicodemus kluvi

Thoughts and prayers for you Peaches. You take as long as you need.

Ryguy1865

Im so sorry to hear this Peaches. If there's anything you need or want to talk don't hesitate to reach out. We're all here for you 💜

Mitchell

My condolences to you and your family I wish you all the best take all the recovery time you need

Old-Gods-Wrath

My deepest condolences 🙏🏾 take all the time you need. We are here for you whenever.

Marvin Jay

May she rest in peace praying for you ❤️

marcos

You have my sympathies I know how you feel since my own mother died from COPD last month

Mathias Olsson Wahlberg

Losing my brother was very hard on me Peaches. I cant imagine how hard this time must be for you. Praying for you and your family ❤️

First name Last Name

Wishing you all the best. Take as much time as you need❤️

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