Astrid Adventures

Birthday Demon

Added 2022-12-14 00:07:32 +0000 UTC

For my birthday month, I did a demon set. I'm working on my own art piece with this set. It might take me a while, but it'd be awesome to post for my birthday if I can. I'm using a photo for a composite. It is something I've wanted to learn more of. And since I'm learning I'm not pushing myself too hard to get it right quickly.

I did try a composite last night using a scene I made quickly with midjourney. It turned out fine for hours of work, but wasn't right in the end. Usually I'd hate the idea of starting over, but I'm fine with it. I think I learned a lot and could do better, quicker for my next attempt. I haven't quite decided if I want to make the piece look more realistic or more like a drawing.

I was inspired to try editing like I once did when I first started self portraits. I'm not sure what direction I want to go in yet. I only have a vague idea. It really inspired me for my future 2023 goal. This last year, I kind of felt weak. I've been spiraling a bit learning more about myself, and it seemed like I didn't have control in my life. Then I had an epiphany, where I realized that although everything seems chaotic and out of my control, I'm ready for it. I can't change the world, but I can be prepared for what it throws at me. At least I can try to. I haven't failed myself yet, and I've gotten so much stronger and better at it. This year is realizing that I'm prepared. I can't predict what the years will teach me, but I appreciate that they've led me in good directions. I'm not sure how to describe my new 2023 goal. Usually I feel nervous about a new year, and instead I feel very ready for it.

The demon to me is someone strong, but strange. They have their own morals and don't fit in easily. I can't think of many mythical beings with inner strength, but I guess that depends on the legend and culture too. In general, they seem proud not to fit in. While I don't want to be so cocky, I want to be proud of myself, even if I don't fit in. I think most of us don't fit in. One more year until 30, and I want it to be an epic year.