Self Portraits

OMG! I really can't believe it. I did my taxes for this quarter, and was stunned to find that I was okay! I'd made money. I'd ben procrastinating because I didn't want to see how COVID 19 had affected my business.  I've been working and stressing myself out a lot the last two months trying to pivot my business. I'm cranking out photos sets and self portraits, partially to keep me occupied, but also I hoped they could at least save me some what.  While I lost so much over this last spring, my parents got divorced, my relationship ended, I lost all my work for this summer, I lost where I live, etc,  I worried that I'd put a lot of energy and work into rebuilding my life only to fail at that as well. But I didn't. This hard work was stressful and scary for me the last few months, but it paid off. Thank you to everyone that have supported me on patreon. Your contributions and interest really has restored faith in myself and what I'm doing.  I appreciate all the donations, photo set sales, print sales, etc.  It gave me things to wake up for and not feel like I chose a terrible career path. Right now, everyone I know is working their usual jobs with new procedures.  It's not that my job is my life, but it has been my freedom. I'd had jobs before I started modeling, but when I was able to make it a career, it was the first time I had my own money to live the life I wanted.  I didn't have to continue being a dependent from my parents. I gravitated to modeling because I was passionate about it, but it gave back to me this rich life full of independence. While I've had to move back home with my mother after my break up, I have savings for a house, so I can continue on when I find the right place.  I'm so lucky, but also so grateful for who I am and what I've become because because while I strive to be better, what I am now has provided for me.  I don't mourn being single again, although I do miss my love and partnership. Being single has always given me the ability to go where I want and fight for myself. It's when I've been left alone that I've learned how truly strong I am.