GEARS ARE TURNING
Added 2022-06-29 07:44:43 +0000 UTCHey everyone. First, thank you. Thank you all forever. I don't know if it's possible to appreciate anybody more than I do for you. I've sporadically started working on something. I really like it and I'll make a video in a little bit.
I've also been contemplating a lot of pretty heavy stuff. There's no doubt that I'm depressed but I didn't know that I could burn with so much anger, that I have to force myself to turn it down or it will burn forever. I didn't realize that I could get so hopeless that I'd rather starve myself then take part in this reality.
And throughout these life changing events, I feel discarded and abandoned by the Healthcare system that I used to be a part of. My spine pain is worse than it has ever been but I can't get a doctor's office to call me back for going on 2 weeks now. And forget seeing a specialist for at least 3 months from now. In the meantime "get with the doctor that hasn't called you back in over 2 weeks."
And all of this political stuff going on in the states these days... I mean... I won't get into it but it's a historic time to be alive.
And I feel like I'm coming back to life, in ways. And those ways multiply through the months. I know I'll be back soon. I just don't know how soon. I'll definetly get some behind the scenes music going. Get this train moving again?
Anyways,
Much love,
Chesh
Comments
Thank you. You have a way of being supportive while staying authentic to the process and how ugly it can/will be. I think that's important and also incredibly helpful. Thank you for helping me prepare for what has happened and for what's coming.
Chesh
2022-06-30 23:55:06 +0000 UTCThanks man! I'll get it figured out. I get distracted easily and lose sight of the important things. What I need to do is adjust my perspective, acknowledge the amazing things just as much as the frustrating things, and put my energy into patience and optimism. Thank you so much for being an important part of that process.
Chesh
2022-06-30 23:50:19 +0000 UTCThis is a bad time but you can go through it, Chesh. It's not gonna be pretty, it's not gonna be easy, but you can do it.
NestorVG [War Lab - VR Shooter]
2022-06-29 09:34:52 +0000 UTCHey man you can do it, don’t give up. Politics are hard to ignore but it does help when you’re goal is to focus on recovering. I can’t believe the docs haven’t been here for you. I hope they can come through for you soon.
Autismos
2022-06-29 08:20:50 +0000 UTC
