Here goes nothing
Added 2019-06-26 18:44:38 +0000 UTCAlright guys and girls, I have a confession to make. For my entire life (and especially the last 3 days) I have suffered from a deep and severely penetrating depression. During the best of times it is a distant memory and during the worst of times it is God; simply everywhere. I have what they call manic depression which can also be classified as bipolar disease. I also have a case of rampant ADHD. You see, on the outside I am able to control my actions (most of the time) but inside my head, my thoughts are fucking insane. I have learned how to hide this condition because I am ridiculously shy. You probably wouldn't think so based on my behavior but I have honed my deception so well that sometimes I am able to forget about it. But other times it consumes my entire world. The reason I bring this up is because these issues can be debilitating. I don't know if any of you have noticed but in the past, I have effectively secluded myself from everything, especially the internet. I'm trying not to do that now. I have been paralyzed for the last 3 days but I am not going anywhere this time.
I work tonight and I'm off the next night.
Livestream anyone?
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Absolutely Kage, it is offers like yours that keep me sane. I am currently feeling that darkness less and less each day. I appreciate your offer and I'm more than willing to talk about it. My depression comes in tidal waves where I have very little control. BUT the medication that my doctor increased seems to have done the trick. I hate the idea that I have to take medication for the rest of my life but the alternative scares the shit out of me. You see, if I miss a day or 2 of taking them then I also get these delusional thoughts that tell me everyone is out to manipulate me. It is very confusing. But like I said, the increase in medication has done wonders in that regard. I am so sorry that you have feelings similar to mine. I would like to extend the same offer to you. Please, come join our Discord if you haven't already. It is a place of like minded individuals that show support for each other. It is people like you that solidify my assumptions that there are great people in this world. People that are suffering but also more than willing to help. I thank you from the bottom of my heart and I extend the same offer to you, my freind.
Chesh
2019-06-29 08:00:53 +0000 UTCthis has been my constant state for the last 2-3 years chesh a consistent strike of depression and mental tearing at one's self, I also get the constant feeling that the things I create is never good enough, i seclude myself in my house, to the point i have no friends in real life, so i can relate, i know that feel, but hiding it, i'm not so good at... but in my particular case i often feel better when i talk about it, so perhaps, you might feel better if you just let it out instead of just keeping it in.
Kage Jason
2019-06-29 06:47:16 +0000 UTC
