Update

My mental health is slowly turning around, I am taking baby steps and going for walks. A big part of it was not being able to get coverage for my wisdom teeth surgery and being in a lot of pain, it became a medical emergency a few days ago when the wisdom molar cracked in half exposing the pulp since it was so carious. I am waiting on a second approval from my insurance company for emergency extraction in the meantime. Thank you for bearing with me through this rough patch. 

I also will be looking for a job at the local hospital to start my medical career, so I am hoping that I can keep my underworld life doing patreon work and commissions but at a slower rate. I currently live at my fraternity and I want to move out by may. I also left my university after years of matriculating a degree and well over 130 credits not having a degree yet. We call it the RU screw at my uni, I am changing the path of my medical career and taking baby steps as well. Community college is now free in my state under a certain income and I am hoping to start an ADN to RN program in the fall so one day I can be a nurse. Baby steps! 

I was doing plant biotechnology before when I was first at my university and I transfered in with 64 credits and only 12 were taken. I was quite stubborn and wanted to weather it out but lost faith about three years in. I got inspired to do medicine around that time while I was down and changed to premed, which was equally overwhelming. I think taking my time and putting my foot in the door slowly by raising up the ranks is something more up my alley than diving in as an MD. 

Right now I definitely do not think I am happy doing art alone, it is a lot of work for being under the poverty line, and I am definitely think having both will be healthier for every facet in my life. Moving out of the frat would also be significantly healthier too, it is pretty gross having to share a living space with a bunch of college students and also have parties on a weekly basis so having that peace and a clean kitchen would be really significant to me right now in my life. I also hope to start dating soon once I am more grounded and healthier and rooted in my own apartment and self.