Kraut_and_Tea

A bit personal, but necessery

Added 2022-02-06 14:49:13 +0000 UTC

I have tried to push out making this post for a very long time and can no longer avoid it. I am exhausted and burnt out.

I believe this is the main cause for why there have been some substancial delays in making videos recently. I have not had a real holiday in years. I do not have youtube as my main job, eventhough I registered this channel as a business I continue to work a day job. If we consider the work I do on the videos actual work, and add it up with the work I do offline, I have 70-80 hour work weeks, and the strain of that is starting to show on me.
Often when I ought to work on a video it takes me a lot of effort to get the motivation to get it done. Writing videos and reading the books I use for the research is not a problem, I love reading and always have, but the drawing is starting to become increasingly difficult for me to motivate myself to do. I just feel exhausted, demotivated, and as a result - often drepressed. I have also noticed how my state of mind seems to reflect upon the people I hire to help with the art in a very negative way. I believe my increasing demotivation is also increasingly making them feel less motivated.

I believe I have to make some substancial changes. First one being, that I will quit my day job in either March or April. After that I am thinking of just taking an entire month off to go on a holiday, probably the month of May or June. And then I am going to seek out professional help regarding this burn-out.

I felt like I owed you this explanation, and have pushed out making it for at least two months now. I am going to also share this with the general audience soon.

Yours. Joe.