I Never wanted to be a teacher| An Apology

Good morning--

I feel the need to apologize about some of my absence. I noticed the attendance here has been decreasing and a lot of that feels like it's because of my lack of involvement and poor planning ( and hey I might just be in my head).

Back in July 2022 I Quit my job --- and long story short, I've been doing art for so long and I wanted this to work so badly for myself.. Ya girl went Full time . I went hardcore and really tried to do what ever worked as well as, do what made people happy. As always I'm so thankful for all of the support on the way but, It does feel like I lost a bit of my spark due to going full time. I didn't know what I was doing in the first place + w/ the patience and leeway I was gifted it gave me room to make mistakes.

But, I never wanted to be teacher, yet I advertise how I could help. I never wanted for people to look to my page/socials as a place of education and yet, I offered. I'm a YES MAN and it sucks because I feel like I'm Failing --However it seems like that's also all people desire when they Discover me. 

I'm not really able to captivate people on the projects that I deserve to push and its destroying me. I just turned 26 and all I want to do is create because I'm still learning . I don't want to steer people in the wrong direction-- I don't know where I'm headed or what I'm actually doing.  Yet, there's this odd amount of trust I've never been giving before and its all so overwhelming. 

As always -- I'll be doing my best to fulfil these duties I placed on my plate and remind y'all just how appreciative I am for the love and support. I will do my best to also do what works for me because I'm also one person with a lot of mental health situations that  I'm still learning to navigate through and there no room for excuses or time to cry. I just want y'all to know IM TO PRIDEFUL to quit and Extremely ambitious. so I hope y'all stick me-- if not here, on other social platform.

now its time for me to work so I can ease my mind and heart--- please enjoy your weekend and be safe.