February 2020 in review

Hey everyone, Maiden here,

So firstly I want to thank all of you for supporting me through some seriously dark times in my life. so many of you have shown support over the last year or so and it has meant everything to me. Thank you all from the bottom of my big heart.

This month I posted a bit less than I initially had wanted to.  For those of you who don't know me, let's just say my life is always chaos. It seems like one misfortune after another comes. My mom says they come in 3's. It's just the way it is. 

This next portion of this, contains some medical heath stuff. so if that stuff makes you a bit squeamish, I'd skip it

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In the last week of December, I got sick before Mousey went home. One morning I woke up and instantly felt sick and vomited. shit sucks. after that I just started feeling queasy all the time. First week of February, I became very ill with the same thing. Woke up. Puked. and immediately was just sent into the worst sickness I've ever had in my life.  I was hit with waves of nausea and vomiting with huge fevers and chills. I laid in bed for a night hoping it would go away. I could not eat or drink. My body rejected anything going in. The next day, I puked immediately after waking up and basically I'm gonna cut past the more really grim details of this

but essentially i ended up in the ER the second day... and they drugged me up, tried to comfort me. Everyone thought i had an ulcer so they were looking. I did CT scans, xrays, blood work, and even had a procedure done where they take a sample from your stomach tissue. and knock you out. they did not find anything, and sent me home... it continued into the 3rd day and by that point... I'm starving. I had not eaten in 3 days. i was so scared and its been so scary. anything I tried to eat would not stay down. nor water. So i road the 3rd night out.. hoping it would pass. 

4th day.. still sick. still persisting, I'm  a weak mess i call my mom panicking telling her I'm going to the ER again I had not had fluids since day two, in the ER they gave me an IV. 

i finally ended up eating at the end of the 5th day 

so i went into the ER and they gave me more aggressive attention, but they were still looking at the wrong things.

So now I'm left with my symptoms until i figure something out. That's whats been happening with me all month. Everyday I'm just sick and weak feeling. 

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Now with all that being said. I have alot to be thankful for as a person. and my life has been filled with alot of awesome shit. hopefully more lit shit to come. But that's why this month my pace slowed way down again.

SO this month, Today, I just released M4DN 3 CLEAR and its fucking lit as fuck. its super gaslighty and just. a trip. It features fractionation- the action of bringing someone in and out of trance using immersion and triggers. itsssssssssssssssss sick as fuckkkkk. (Note from Mousii, we usually try to post a week early for higher tier patrons but because of how behind things got this month we decided to release it to LVL 2 Patrons immediately so everyone would get something dope this month!)

now, for those of you who do know me? and bat for me... you all know you are and I appreciate the lot of you

and more importantly, I appreciate everyone of you. remember kids, for only 1 dollar a day you can get our local resident mousey slut a taco from taco bell. one taco will feed her for like 3 days. shes a mouse!  (Note from Mousii: Please stop cyberbullying me maiden...)

just kidding. 

love you all, and love you mousey 

P.S Check out our tumblr if you haven't already I've been making tons of cool stuff lately - Mousii