Diary Update 30.06.2020

 Hay all – well may as well touch base with you all and have a chat while I'm here ^_^.

Sorry no TL;DR here, too much to condense this time – go get a cup of tea,  sit comfy and please read on. 

 --- BULK CONTENT? ---

Firstly apologies for Futa fans as I've delivered two images, a honey select image and a drawn set of the Ragin' Heat CG'ed girl over the last 24 hours and with this now on top. Normally I like to pace my content out for sure, but it's been a hell of a month for me and that ties into this also.

 --- JUNE --- 

  So this month has been both filled with extreme highs and extreme lows. At the start of the month I was actually doing quite well on things and for a few days had things down tight and on lock, getting work out there and everything was going great...

 … and then came 'the fear' ....

  I had worried this may happen at some point. Every so often as a creative you get what I'd called 'black days' and a creative depression or creative block. It's where you try to do something and it just looks god awful, you judge your work against others and see how far you are behind and then can't even make basic stuff and then you shut down.

 It's a horrid and humiliating experience and sometimes the more you try to climb out of the hole the worse you make it. Well I had it for roughly 10 days before I was able to snap out of it. I was so happy to be free of it because I was getting bloody worried at this point it'd never cease!

 Only issue is that then that's 11 days of missing content and time put into content. FU*K! - That's a good third of a month. So I've ended up working my backside off when I had spare time to get work out to you, even if some of it was uncoloured at the time (and I hate doing that).

 Now it's far from perfect but I at least managed to craw back some focus, get some stuff done and I'm still working hard to make up the difference, but a handful of things have had to give or will be just late, unavoidably.   

 I can't just make up 10 days work difference no matter how hard I try (and lord knows I don't want to burn out and create more trouble even if that was possible) so this hopefully was just a bad patch and know I'm doing and done what I can go get work done.

 So things like the iGAPES June Calendar girl being uncoloured will be fixed before long and (and I'll be focusing on Julys ASAP as that sneaked up too!), but this is a case of a image delay that was a casualty of the GREAT DEPRESSION. I hated it, and I'm sorry.

 Even at the end here I've had some RL things happens that have thrown a spanner in the works, but hopefully this is going in the right direction with all this last minute time thrown at things for both Futa and Gaper fans.

 So to recap that, I do apologize for some off content delivery from me. The honey Select edits hopefully went some way to plugging some holes there also and I'll try and get back to it all before long!

 --- HONEY SELECT EDITS ---

 Very much came into light the last month with a fair few images made. Maybe 6 or 7 or so unique images. Ontop of all other things, that's crazy productive and a unintended benefit to the medium.

 I'll get to the poll in just a moment but from my point of view these things where just SO much fun to have worked on. I really enjoyed the Lillian sequence I did and felt that married the benefits of the program with my art style on top it so well. And again was quite quick to have made (relative to drawn art) so while effort has to be made, content can be worked on for sure.

 I had just such a blast making them all and knowing it is unique content really helps out my cause some as well. But what have you folk decided so far, what are your thoughts?

 --- HONEY SELECT EDIT POLLS ---

 Well I put out the poll asking you, my dear fan and supporters what you thought about them and I have to say you've all really delivered and helped out big time already! Thank you all for taking that time to have voted!  

 If you still have to vote please do, I periodically check for new votes cast and will all be considered with any major swings and changes.

 So with this poll it seems a mix across the board for sure. Some don't care for them, some love them and some think they make a fine addition. All mixed together at time of writing I have it ROUGHLY 50% pro / against. I'm quite honestly pleased with this for sure!
 
 So I had no intention to ever dropping everything and JUST making these images from Honey Select (unless something very weird was going on). While easy enough to have been done I love my art too much (... but these are art also... as I just draw them onto a girl and edit and paint on ALL the genitalia and don't use any assets from the program).

 The people who said they didn't like them and wanted more of my work I'd delighted to see as I'm pleased my drawn content is obviously been enjoyed and you like it more than this, which is great.

 For people who who enjoy is and love them, I'd also super pleased that's the case. If everybody hated them I'd absolutely respect the answer, know I'd fu*ked up and would drop these hard, but in the case of the last month, damn they didn't half save me and get out my content, even if it wasn't what I had planned.

 I will consider doing more of these for certain and I know from your feedback that generally most people are happy with this decision. I'll be doing my manips, videos of my art and the art itself, but adding in these edits maybe what I also need to mix things up.
 I'll still play it by ear but all in all, as experiments go, this was fun and I look forwards to making more for sure!

 --- FUTANARI / IG ONLY POLL ---

 So a little back I posted to Gold members a poll that would hopefully made a decision on what images people would like to see more of. My reasoning was that everybody and their donkey make futa images and that my iGAPES ones where less common, more bespoke and also personally I enjoy making them just a touch more than futanari ones.

 Much like the prior poll it was (at time of writing) again a 50/50 split, lol. 50% wanted more gaping, while 50% wanted the mixture of the two. Fu*k! Right down the middle again, lol. So again, perfect feedback and thank you all for voting regardless of what result came out.

 So I'd have been happier if it was a massive swing one way or another as I could with certainty focus on a 50/50 iGAPES vs. Futanari split OR near all or mostly iGAPES content.
 
 As it is I'll continue on as before.... because the vote really is between them. In a perfect world I would say I'd do 75% iGAPES work and 25% Futanari (and maybe deep down the line I'll ask again in another poll and decide on this) but for now it is probably best just focusing on what the people want and balancing out the content. It's good and I'm happy I asked the question!   

 --- JUNE? ---

 How do you make God laugh – yep, more outline plans that again might totally get nuked by the time I come to do them, but here's what I have in mind coming up.

 I had this last months plans to update old artwork and get that out – which again.... that 10 days of no production and then since a panic mode hasn't allowed any of that and I'm behind on my intended stuff. SO I am planning to get back on the horse first, CG images and get that all set straight and see about the older / incomplete or semi abandoned works once more after that.

 My initial docket looks like getting on with the July Calendar girl (and it's CG), the Giga girl secretary living office CG coloured and then last months CG Calendar girl with the rubber ring (this one hurts the most, but better late than never now the time limit has passed ¬_¬)

 After this I'll be going over prior content and seeing what I can do with it and get it completed. Again, this content is actually very solid, but maybe just neglcated and short of being posted, so be a shame not to use them!

I'm going to release videos of the art, the photomanips and maybe some more H.S.E. Images also included, but know I'm crackin' on with bits and working hard to get premium smut to you all – despite the setback!!

 --- GAMES ---

 While in my depression phase I had a bit of time to play some games which was some relief to me while feeling like a total failure, so hay, may as well talk about some while I can.

// Crying Suns // FTL Rougelike with much story. A little costly but a fun spin on the whole genre and a fun challenge for sure. If you like FTL this is more or less an no brainier purchase.

 // Command and Conquer Remastered // Awwww, sh*t boy, I love me some C&C games and have had a blast going through all the missions on hard (and crying like a baby as you take / receive like a 40% nerf to your units o_0) and while it may have been an opportunity to rebalance things, its still a quality game after all these years and just a great RTS.

 // Monster Train // You like Slay the Spire and other battle card games, this ones a gem for sure. Great content and a fun setup. So much fun, go check it out. Steam sale and all...
 And that maybe it. What a month. I'm so pleased with what I had done this month and yet devastated the way things happened too. Still riding very high right now and working hard on this stuff I really enjoy.

 I'd not be possible without your support and just, yeah, thank you from deep down for making this happen and I really enjoy making this stuff for you all, so cheers to you for that. Thank you for your understanding with the delays this month too *bows*

 So till my next piece coming up, please enjoy yourselves, be careful, stay safe and have fun out there and more from me coming up soon! Cheers - Sius