Manic Analysis- "More"

I'm sorry you have to deal with this illness. I was unaware that it affects so many women! I appreciate your kind words! Thank you for your love and support ❤️❤️❤️

English Teacher KP

Right?! I swear I'm 31, and I still don't feel like an adult 😭😭😭

English Teacher KP

I didn't initially see it that way, but I really love this interpretation!

English Teacher KP

Thank you for sharing, Nikki. I'm very sorry that you have to deal with chronic pain, and that your dream of becoming a mother may not happen. I can't imagine how heartbreaking that must be, so I'm very, very sorry.

English Teacher KP

I didn't notice, so I just went back and listened to it; I think I hear what you're talking about. Thank you for pointing that out! Most people probably don't know what a sonogram sounds like. I've given birth, and I still only vaguely remember 😂😭😂

English Teacher KP

Surprised that no one mentioned how the beeping at the end of the song sounds like a sonogram. Ashley (aka Halsey) revealed this info in an interview with Zane Lowe from Apple Music, where she and her producer programmed some instruments to sound like a sonogram that is used to monitor and take an image of the fetus / baby.

momo225

I LOVE I'm Not Mad

Mariah Matherne

oops totally forgot that "still learning" is in between more and 929! not the next one xx

j

this is definitely one of my favourites on the album, the next one 929 as well! i hope you're doing the 3 tracks after that as well, they were released a bit later but very cool! one of them is called "I'm not mad" and is based on a poem she wrote that's in her poetry collection

j

My truth might be depressing but I’ve come to terms with it over the years. I’m someone who always wanted to be a mom since I was a little girl. Have gone through severe abuse my whole life and always knew I would never be like my parents and would be an amazing mom. Then I became disabled at 19 years old and doctors said I should get used to the idea that I may not have kids and that if I can conceive that I should consider not having them because they will have the severe pain conditions that I have because they’re genetic, plus the fact that I can barely take care of myself let alone another human being so it took awhile to convince myself that I don’t “want” kids. It probably makes no sense, and I’m not saying never, but I have gotten used to the fact that I may never be healthy enough to take care of a child with my severe pain. (I can’t sit or stand longer than 10 mins without severe pain from many spine problems and bladder disease, endometriosis and other pelvic disorders, lupus, fibromyalgia and more) I do absolutely love watching pregnancy videos and birth videos/stories and stuff on YouTube though lol it’s a beautiful thing. I just want to live vicariously through my friends and fam who have kids and be the cool aunt.

Nikki S

Is anyone else struck in this song by the way Halsey frames the miscarriages as if it's the same baby trying to be born each time? Each loss is not a different child, but instead the same one, trying again and again. "And when you decide that it's time to arrive, I've loved you for all of my life."

Aloha Record Sargent

As I was crying about the song and then you said that you were 24 when you got pregnant and said “i can’t go through this teenage pregnancy right now” I laughed out loud and was like That’s me!!! 😂at 28 and I’m still like I’m a toddler. At 18 I was an infant and now I’m a toddler and I am in no way ready for children. This is so bad but I am always thinking the Same way as in high school where if people got pregnant in high school you usually were like shit I’m sorry! (In your head) but now as adults I forget that it’s a happy thing and I’m in my head being like should I say sorry? No no I can’t do that, they are happy about this lol.

Nikki S

Thank you for giving this song the attention and thought it deserves. As you know, Halsey has endometriosis and that’s what drew me to her and her music to begin with as I also have endo. Halsey has been rather open about having this disease when it isn’t discussed nearly as much as it should. Endometriosis affects 1 in 10 and it’s so misunderstood for being as common as it is, even most gynecologists don’t understand it. It wrecks havoc on peoples lives in so many ways, and yet it takes years to get a diagnosis, not to mention you have to go through surgery just for the diagnosis. This song quite literally took the breathe out of me when I first heard it, and I still can’t listen to it very often because it hurts so badly. The line “a flower bud in concrete” is in reference to the fact that the tissue and scar tissue that grows outside of the uterus with endo is often compared to concrete. Halsey also references concrete in the song “Darling” from the newest album that they wrote for her baby, Ender. I really recommend giving that song a listen as well! Again, thank you for giving this song the thought it deserves, as well as doing all you do! Your videos often give me something to do as well as a distraction when my endo flares and I can’t get out of bed. You truly are helping others with what you do!

I completely agree! I was also getting womb imagery from the lyric video as well! Also, that subtle lyric change is everything!

English Teacher KP

This is one of my favorite Halsey songs. So incredibly beautiful, and it hits different now that they finally have their child. I wanted to add to your lovely analysis that I really like her artwork in the lyric video -- to me, it's the depiction of Halsey's house that is not a home (uterus / womb) because of the endo and all the damage that does. Additionally, it's always the most emotional for me when that last lyric changes from "I want you more" to "I love you more."

Aloha Record Sargent

I agree! Knowing all of this definitely gives that song so much more meaning!

English Teacher KP

This makes me so happy to know that she finally met her little one!

English Teacher KP

Yes! I love the lullaby nature of the outro!

English Teacher KP

This song is one of my favorites by her. I'm in the "ehh, probably won't have kids, and that's fine by me" camp with my partner, and yet this song tears at me. I can *feel* their longing for a child, the courageous determination to not give up, the shattered-ness after every failed attempt. I don't even WANT a baby, but when I hear it, I want a baby for them. It also makes the "I'm so glad I never ever had a baby with you" in YSBS (knowing they miscarried the baby they were pregnant with for that partner) so much more profound a statement than the petty diss it could come across as if you took it at surface level.

Amanda M.

No matter how many times I hear this song, it still makes me tear up. I’ve never been pregnant. Never wanted to be. So I can’t relate at all. But the way she writes is so raw, as you said, that I can feel their pain and longing, and it breaks my heart. I’m so happy for Halsey and their partner that they now have finally met the little one they always wanted so much. ❤️

This song makes me absolutely bawl knowing how happy she is with her child now. So beautiful <3 Idk if you noticed but the outro literally sounds like she's singing to the child inside her ahh to sweet

Camila Dejesus

What stands out to me most about this song is the raw vulnerability of it. Our speaker is bravely declaring what they want...and what they want is a baby. This is such a brave declaration considering, it seems, that our speaker has dealt with pregnancy loss. There are a couple of times throughout the song where it feels like our speaker is blaming herself...and that breaks my heart. The idea that her body is unable to "grow" and maintain a healthy pregnancy is clearly a torturous one for our speaker. I like the use of symbolism and metaphor throughout, but, at the same time, I like how straightforward our speaker is. I really, really liked this one.

English Teacher KP