Life
Added 2024-01-26 03:51:06 +0000 UTCUpdate
Hi. I am sorry for not being active at all. I won’t lie, I’ve been extremely depressed. Also I’ve had a lot of personal things that have been affecting me and internal battles in my mind. I suffer from a lot of mental health issues. And I don’t really know how to talk about those things with you guys in a non personal way. But my mental health has a hold on me and I will be honest; I’m scared to ask for help. It’s hard to open up. My depression makes me lack motivation, makes me have not great thoughts about me or my mortality, bad eating habits, not showering or brushing my teeth, my hair is thinning, etc. There’s so much I wish I could open up about. I also am chronically ill. PCOS and right now I’m suspecting I have POTS (I feel really faint and lightheaded a lot and have heart palpitations). It’s just a lot. I want to be creative and do what I do best. But I genuinely haven’t had the courage to get up. I also had COVID and also went through with an important procedure. (I’m okay, it was just kind of traumatizing and I have been dissociating from it.) Sorry this is kind of long. I want to be back but I don’t know when this depressive episode will last. To be honest I’ve felt this way since September when I lost my cat. Ugh. Just a lot. Sorry for not replying to messages either. I have no motivation to even respond or engage. I hope you can understand. I’m a mess. I hope that’s acceptable. If not, that’s okay. My mental health is too much for me too. I’m alive. I’m trying. So there’s that. Maybe there’s some of you that can relate with me. If so, I’d love to talk about it.
Comments
Not here. You know where. Sending love 💜.
John Deaux
2024-01-26 11:00:57 +0000 UTCI really do understand all that so I really hope you can keep fighting, because I know how much it can hurt and how difficult it is
Lucas Thompson
2024-01-26 06:09:28 +0000 UTCWe love you! Stay safe.
Milkman
2024-01-26 04:10:35 +0000 UTCWhile I can never fully understand all the things you're going thru right now and have gone through already I do understand enough. I know personally that asking for help is terrifying and can make you feel worse but just having enough courage to last for those three words "I need help" is a victory that unlocks many things. Its intimidating but it can bring you the help you need Taylor. My wish for you is that you get all the help you need so you can start healing. Take all the time for that Taylor. You deserve it:)
PDH
2024-01-26 04:01:28 +0000 UTCYour IG lives really showed how nice and caring you are despite the suffering you endure 🥲. You have such a heartwarming smile and giggle... Ik accepting love is a struggle in its own but so many people would love who you are if they met you 🥲 please don't feel guilty for chosing your sanity and health over making us cum 😅 I really hope you find peace, sweetheart. I love you and your all-around fluffiness 🫂💜
Braicuh
2024-01-26 04:01:24 +0000 UTCSorry to hear that :( I wish we could help but since we don't know your personal life only thing im gonna say is hang tight coz sometimes something beautiful happens when u almost lose ur hope. It's just a matter of time just take care of yourself and try to enjoy what u have :)
Efe
2024-01-26 03:57:06 +0000 UTC
