My Hero Takeover / Negative Impact?

So recently if you guy's have been keeping up with my Youtube channel and updates which honestly i'll try my best to be more active over here on posting every single video with more detail to it, My Hero Academia is chosen as the main Shounen series for my youtube channel. I love love LOVE My Hero Academia. So why not use this as leverage to level up my Youtube Channel a bit! 

I've had a bit of positive and negative response to it, i would say mostly positive. But Recently my reaction videos has been part of live reaction mashes over on youtube and has been negatively received. Mostly of how i talk too much in the reaction. I personally thought when we react to things we are meant to verbally express what we see and feel on what we watch. I feel like it would be completely boring for me to just sit there and say "yeah" "wow" "damn" "cool". I want to truly convey my reaction. Thats what will separate me from most "reactionary" channels. On top of that, I am truly passionate about my hero academia. 

This whole day my video has been slapped with dislikes, and on the reaction mash up video nothing but call outs and hate. To be honest, i should just accept it, brush it off, and move on.. BUT to be completely honest it has negatively impacted me. I got extremely depressed over it. On top of that being called out on twitter. I was at the point where i looked back on my Youtube and my Twitch and thought "do i really belong here?" I've been haunted with negative vibes and thoughts the past couple days and its not like me to give in to negative thoughts, but rather use them as a form of motivation to push forward. But it hit me a lot harder since i know i've been trying harder to only get hit negatively on my efforts.

I know with the amount of growth that i've been getting lately, I'm bound to get a lot of hate. On top of that touching new boundaries on my channel with carrying a Shonen series over. Its expected that with more eyes on me, i'll get more hate. I'm not used to it fully. I've never tried so hard before. I've been dissed at in bboying. I've been made fun of at the gym. I've been questioned at times of my intelligence at school; but i've never felt as sad as people discouraging me as a content creator. it was a new feeling that i havent truly gotten used too. 

Weirdly enough, i was rewatching season 1 of My Hero Academia for the third time to make sure i got every piece of information in that anime. On top of that re-reading the manga that i own that is pretty much at the end of the first half of second season. I've been filled with a bit of motivation. I'm going to fail countless times. I'm going to get hurt. I'm going to be put down A LOT. I'm going to be surrounded with A LOT of negative energy coming within the next few weeks. BUT i want this more than anything. I have to work twice as hard as others. REGARDLESS of people saying I'm only growing because of this person or because of that person, I'm not going to knock down the help that i receive, but I'm also not going to knock down the fucking effort that i put in myself. 

Also. thank you guys so much for everything.. for the love and support. Regardless if who or what attacks me, you all stay around. And i couldnt ask for anything more. I love you guys :) thank you