Stream of consciousness

In a perfect world, I would fly to Thailand and fibd a surgeon who could cleanly and completely remove my legs from the hips. And considering were in a perfect world, it would be amazing to have some sort of structure or support that would keep my ass round, as if there were never legs there to begin with. I think a lot of amputations are done from necessity and don't always looks very clean. But given a clean and healthy slate, and plastic surgery, a lot could potentially be accomplished. Just look at Natalie’s revise LAK stump...

I love the idea of having nothing to move beyond the joints in my hips. And the memory of having once had legs would haunt me in the most wonderful way. For some reason, the thought of being without feet, never walking again, having no knees, being “disabled”, is such a turn on that it's really all I think about to get off. It's probably something I should fix, but I'm not turned on much by partners, especially fully limbed ones. Most of my fantasies revolve around me having a specific body configuration of my choosing. Perhaps once I get the legless, thick body I desire so much, I'll be open to getting off from my partners ;)

I hope the most for some sort of accident that takes my legs from me. It's much easier to be seen as someone who had an accident, than to have to keep a lie that I traveled and had it done on purpose. Hopefully an accident would leave enough thigh to allow for the revisions I would want.

Alternatively, I would love to lose a hand. I couldn't tell you why. Maybe it's just the thought of permanent bondage that ultimately turns me on. I am in love with trying to walk, or to reach out to grab something, and nothing happens. Perhaps a couple muscles twitch, or just nothing. I hope someday I'll have the experience for real.