Casual post, back home, the view from the couch
Added 2023-03-21 21:19:33 +0000 UTCHuzzah, after a flat tire, a missed train, and two re-booked tickets I am finally back home in Michigan. My partner should be finishing up his house, listing it, and moving up here in about three weeks.
I am tiiiiired guys. I love my partner (and my metamour) so much, but I didn't realize how important it was for me to be in my own space.
My visual surroundings have always made a huge difference in my ability to stay in touch with myself. When I'm in a different environment for long periods of time, I can slip back into childhood habits and shut down, lose touch, and conform myself to whoever I'm most emotionally reliant on at the time (even when neither of us want that). After half a lifetime spent discovering and owning who I am, losing touch with that really sucks.
But, I'm back and ready to recharge those batteries.
I've spent the last 3 years curating my home and making it an enriching environment for myself, thrifting and remodeling and painting inch by inch. It's still not done, but it's beautiful and I love it.
Here... here I am the most me. I do what I want, I experiment, I create, I unmask, and I live vividly. It's good to be home. It's like, having proof of how far I've come, and all the wonderful pieces of myself I've managed to dig up and discover. And like any good archeologist, I decorate my walls with my best finds.
It is my goal this year to finally rent or purchase a studio space for photography and other spicy creations. When I got a three bedroom house i thought I could make a home studio work, but the rooms are just too small and the ceilings too low for what I need. I've been dreaming about having a studio for as long as I can remember. It's going to be absolutely stellar.
Tell me about your favorite parts of your space... Or, what your dream space would have
(also, dog pictured is not mine but her name is Lyla and she is a very good girl)
P. S. While I've got you here, does anyone have experience running a Discord server who might be able to give me some advice? Comment, or shoot me a message.
Comments
I love this. It reminds me of my grandma's house, little papers and trinkets everywhere, something brand new next to something that had been there for 10 years and never moved, you can feel that kind of life and love whenever you walk in. How lovely!
The Hypnobunny
2023-03-23 20:41:11 +0000 UTCOh hey, commenting opportunity! (And also I should be working right now but squirrel brain go brrr!) My favorite part of my current space is how lived-in it feels. I've been here a pretty long time and while I haven't done a ton of hardcore decorating due to renting and laziness, I have made it my own in other ways. There's the musical instruments in my office reminding me there's more to this space than work. There's the postcards and random art on my fridge amassed over the years, all of them significant – for example, art I bought at this year's Charmed is the newest addition. There's the old takeout menu for a defunct restaurant that I went to with my old work buddies. And there's the bookcase full of trinkets I brought home from trips, gifts I got from dearest friends, and not that many books tbh (woops!) My dream space is basically this flat, but I own it, and also I get off my ass and paint it something not-beige. Lol. Now before this turns into a tumblr post, I'll stop the rambling! Also your house looks awesome and your cat is adorable okay bye~
Double Grinch
2023-03-22 22:30:37 +0000 UTC
