2022.2.10 Busy emotional day
Added 2022-02-22 13:34:34 +0000 UTCEmotions are busy today.
An American label was talking about releasing one of my songs.
I found out about it in a notification on my Macbook the day before yesterday.
It's been 21 years since 2001, when I sent demos to techno labels all over the world and got a contract.
I was not elated, nor did my body react to such a joyous occasion, and I was quiet and still.
I was not elated, nor did my body react to such a joyous occasion, and I was quiet and still. To be precise, I was about to explode with joy at the reward of my hard work, but my adult self restrained me and told me not to get excited.
Because I know from experience that contracts can be easily turned upside down by the slightest thing.
And just as I had predicted, the conditions were not met, and the project was cancelled today.
If the good news is sudden, the end is sudden too.
Even though the song itself didn't change anything, the timing was such that the other side's business was no longer viable.
The fact that I tried not to be happy about it from the beginning meant that I could move on immediately without wasting time recovering from a stumble.
In theory.
And now I know that I need to change the way I move.
I got a harvest and a rather serious challenge.
The more serious the issue, the better.
In theory, that is.
In the real world, the body can move, but the emotional saturation and luminosity are weakened.
I'm careful not to take interest in the weakened emotions.
