monday update: ok i think i know what im doing now lol

(related to this post: https://www.patreon.com/posts/wednesday-update-93012911?utm_medium=clipboard_copy&utm_source=copyLink&utm_campaign=postshare_creator&utm_content=join_link if you haven't read it yet this might make less sense to you)

thank you for your feedback on my post from last week! i've taken the time to think over the weekend and i've come to a conclusion on my content going forward: i'm stressed the hell out, and i can't make anything under these conditions

this isn't to say i'm not making any video now! nor am i taking a hiatus of any sort. but i think i've spent too much time thinking of my work under some unseen deadline, some expectation i assumed people held of me that... most probably don't. i made the RAE video working at my own pace, and while it could've been faster, i also think there's ways for me to streamline my process without necessarily forcing myself to work on big content even when i feel burnt out. if i don't let my creative work happen in its most natural form, i just won't be making the content i feel is good enough, neither for me nor my audience. and god i refuse to start filling a "youtube quota" after one video

packtion, my partner both in life and in crime, is visiting me next week after thanksgiving- and i think i'm gonna take the time from now until their visit ends to decompress as hard as possible. when i come back, i'll sit down and check out my WIPs again- if i find the inspiration is there to start on a CEC script, i'll start on that, and if it's there to continue the SPG script, i'll continue that. and i'll do my best to stick to it, don't worry! whatever comes of it, you all will be the first to know. i know it's not a super concrete answer right now, and i apologize for that! but i'm in a very "feeling it out" stage right now lol so it's gonna be a minute until things are more concrete.

thanks for dealing with my mild identity crisis! i will see you all in a couple weeks :]