hey fellas

Last night I had the worst nightmare of my life. There were no spooky monsters or anything but it was so awful. I dreamt that I was carrying my dog in my living room while walking. I then accidentally tripped and slammed my precious dog on the floor very hard and watched him slowly die in front of me while my family was crying and screaming at me. One of the worst feelings I ever felt. The day wasn't off to a great start. The relief I felt when I saw and hugged my precious doggy was insane. Decided to have a bunch of tea and go on a hike at one of my favorite spots since I didn't know what to do with myself. It was okay, there were way too many people which kinda ruined it for me. I think I give off strange vibes as people seldom say hello to me and when my eyes do meet anyones, they normally make an unpleasant face of sorts. Whatever though. It feels like people are so suspicious and scared of one another. Maybe it's just in my head. Once I got to the top I had a rather intense anxiety attack. Too much caffeine mixed with intense cardio really got to me and I thought I was going to die even though I've been through this many times already. The anxiety really started to mellow out after about an hour of sitting on a rock freaking out and I got to enjoy this amazing amazing view in peace for a while. It was wonderful. On the way down. I had to take a leak. I thought no one was around, so I did. Okay this is about to sound really weird and tmi but it's fuckin funny. So when I was done pissing, I gave my Johnson a vigorous shake as guys do, and while I was shaking the hell out of it I looked over and accidentally made eye contact with some guy. I said hi to him for some reason. He didn't say hi back. I literally couldn't think of anything else for about an hour. Decided to try out magnesium glycinate as I keep reading comments and such in various places about how it helped people with their anxiety. I took one like an hour ago and I feel really calm but it's probably placebo at the moment :p This might have sounded like a really weird and bad day, but overall it was honestly pretty good. Life ain't so bad. I listened to lots of beautiful music and saw lots of animals and trees and stuff. Life is weird, funny, beautiful, disgusting, painful, mind-blowing, pointless, full of meaning, and many other adjectives all at the same time. I hope you all feel a sense of peace and belonging. Thanks for reading.