HER LAST WISH - EARLY ACCESS!

I was crossdressed by my mother and it was one of the last wishes of my grandma. She was already quite an old woman and last year, she had a heart attack and we had to drive her to the hospital immediately. She survived the heart attack but she lost a lot of her strength and she had to stay in the hospital. I really loved my grandma and I was very sad about it. But what could we do? It happened we couldn´t do a single thing about it. At those moments, I realized that humans aren´t truly masters of life… We can´t control anything. And the health of my grandma was getting bad. She started to be a little bit deranged and she was saying sentences which didn´t make sense at all. I was so sorry about it.

But even that fact didn´t make me stop visiting her at the hospital. I went to see her every single day after school because I loved her and I didn´t want to see her alone in her room. One day, I went there to see her with my mother. My mum picked me up right in front of the school. I was quite tired that day because it was a lot of learning at school and I went several times through my mind that I could actually skip seeing my grandma this time. But in the end… I just couldn´t do it. I couldn´t do it because I would let myself down. My grandma always took care of me and I wanted to pay her back this way. She was always smiling when I visited her and I could see that my visits always brightened her day.

“How was the school?” my mum asked me when she picked me up.

“Quite difficult… I am really tired!” I answered.

“Do you want to skip the hospital? Your grandma will make it without you one day!” my mum suggested.

“No… I can´t! I would let myself down! I want to see her and make her happy!” I resisted.

“You are too sweet, Peter! But I am so glad for you! These are tough times but… we will get through it!” my mum said and we drove to the hospital. It took us just a few minutes and we were right in front of the hospital. My mum parked the car and we went to see my grandma. We came to the section where my grandma was. There was a nurse in the corridor and she asked us:

“Can I help you? Who do you want to visit?”

“We are here to see Mrs Garden!” my mum answered. “I am her daughter and this is her grandson!”

“Oh… Mrs Garden. Yeah… her health is going bad very fast. She is deranged a lot on the last day. So… don´t be surprised if she will react in a very weird way!” the nurse told us. We just nodded and went to grandma´s room.

She was lying there on the bed and I could see her confused eyes when she looked at us. But suddenly… her eyes became very present. I was almost terrified because the change in her look was so rapid.

“Hello! How are you, mom?” my mum asked her and she kissed her on her forehead. But my grandma was totally ignoring her and she was looking only at me. My mum didn´t understand and nor did I. But my grandma just kept staring at me and a big smile started to appear on her face. I came closer to her and told her:

“Hi.. how do you feel? Is everything alright?”

“Of course, my sweet daughter! Oh… Julia… I haven´t seen you for ages! Why didn´t you visit me earlier? I was hoping to see you!” my grandma answered. Well.. this was bad. She thought that I was her daughter… Julia…  Julia was my aunt and she died when she was 22 years old. She didn´t survive a car accident and my grandma was crying all day because of it. And now… she thinks that I am Julia?

“Ehm… grandma… I am… I am…” I tried to say but she interrupted me.

“Julia… and why do you wear these ugly clothes? You look like a boy! I bought you a pretty white dress with glitter! Do you remember? You used to wear them!” she said.

“Grandma… I… I would like to tell you… that.,..” I said and I tried to explain the situation but… she interrupted me again:

“Oh… Julia… I would love to see you again in the white dress! You would be such a beautiful girl! Please… go back home and come again in the white dress! I want to see you in the dress I bought you! Put pretty makeup on your face and be the pretty girl I raised!” said grandma. She looked at me with her deranged eyes and I could see tears… I couldn´t say no… I had tears in my eyes as well and I just nodded.

“Okay… okay… I will come back!” I said… Then… my grandma closed her eyes and she fell asleep. I looked at my mum and she was crying as well.

“What are we going to do?” I asked my mum.

“I have the dress at home… We have to dress you up and come back! Please, do it for your grandma! Please… it will make her happy!” my mum answered.

“But… mom… I don´t want to be dressed up like a girl… it is… embarrassing!” I protested at first.

“But you will do it for your grandma, will you?” my mum asked.

I looked at my mum and then I looked at my sleeping grandma. Well… Actually, why wouldn´t I do it? It is just clothes and it could be my grandma´s happy memory in the end. So I agreed. My mum hugged me and we went back home.

My mum found the white dress in the wardrobe and when she showed it to me… I was speechless. It was something like a princess dress and I just couldn´t imagine wearing it. Wow… But I had no choice. I promised my mum and I want to keep that promise. My mum helped me into the dress and it was such a weird feeling to be dressed up like a girl. But the dress didn´t fit me well on my chest and my mum had to put a bra on me as well. My cheeks were blushing so much but I was doing this for my grandma… I kept repeating this in my mind when my mum was dressing me up and doing my makeup. In the end… I really looked like a girl and my mum told me:

“OMG… you really look like my sister… I don´t believe it! I would say as well that you are Julia because you really look like her!”

“Mom… you make me even more embarrassed!” I said.

“I know… sweetheart… I am sorry! But I am just so shocked by this fact!” she said.

“Okay… so let´s go see the grandma again?” I suggested.

“Yes… she will be so happy when she sees you dressed like this!” my mum assured me. I wasn´t that sure about it. But there was nothing to lose.

We came back to the hospital and entered my grandma´s room. And you wouldn´t believe the joy my grandma had when she saw me in the white glitter dress. She told me that I was a really beautiful girl and that she had an amazing daughter. We spend there almost 2 hours and in the end… I was happy that I could be a girl for my grandma. I was glad that I overcame the embarrassment and became the girl. And I even stayed in the dress at home for some time because… I was just feeling nice… Interesting, right? Did I start liking feminine clothes?